Wednesday, March 21, 2007
tong ku bi kuai le geng zhen shiive decided to post up two photos first, otherwise this post will become very very bleak.
don't you ever think. why do you do things that you'll regret doing later ? i got all sad & moody thinking about that. ): sighs. i was quite distracted during training & that was another thing to add on to my long long list of regrets. sighs ): i dont get life at all. if we're all supposed to die eventualy why are we all stressing ourselves out now ? ): & the funniest thing is that i'm worrying for
your future more than im worrying bout mine. why do i worry so ? ): ive been thinking so much lately, it's a wonder why my brain doesn't burst. ): suddenly, i jst feel like skipping school one day, & travel to the other side of Singapore, sit down at the viewing gallery & jst watch planes zoom off into the sky. i could do that for one whole day. watch the sun set to another day, then head on home. but it figures if i "waste" one day like that away, i'll most prolly regret doing someth like that, cos i'll need to work
fucking hard to get back on par wiv the rest. which currently im still struggling to keep up wiv the work. ive got lousy lit test tmr, ive got physics homework due. im here only because i need an outlet to let everyth out. ): i keep feeling like bursting into tears, but it
fucking sucks when you're not allowed to cry at home for no reason at all. sighs ): that's jst the problem wiv me. i project myself as a happy-go-lucky person, yet most of the time im on the edge of breaking down.
whatthefuck lahhtoday, gaelan asked me a qns : you & your boyfriend break up alr arrh ?
my first thot was really what the
fuck lahh. why does people think that way when we're jst not tgt. can't i lead my own life also ? it doesn't always revolve ard him does it ? that got me thinking even more.
then during trg, yeeleen said someth to me, that made me quite depressed. so i thot so so so much more. ): then i ended up feeling so sad
& so fucked up. ): then i came home. i knew i was going to regret not msging
you so i went to charge my phone & send you a quickie. hoping somehow
you'd figure out that i was feeling down, but i guess we can't win it all right ? sighs. & the only reason why i didn't talk about it to you, was that i didn't wna bring your mood down as well.
it's 10pm, i better start reading my lit text. im so drained after netball today, even though we didn't do anyth major.
what the fuck. sighs ): then thinking so much made me brain dead. ):
what the fuck. what the fuck. what the fuck.what the fuck. what the fuck. what the fuck. what the fuck. what the fuck. what the fuck. what the fuck. what the fuck. what the fuck. what the fuck. what the fuck. what the fuck.thank You Lord, for computerized faces
throw me a lifeline
10:08 PM
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