Wednesday, May 31, 2006
you sing a sad song <
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ignore that line, i just felt like banging on the keyboard. hahas.
i need my sleep.
going to collect year book tmr then lunching wiv bro & ma (:
friday's trg then acidol wiv guoxi (:
saturday's mahjong day with s19 family (minus laoda) triple smiley > (((:
sunday's back to books, after slacking so long, i have to study.
WHY DON'T YOU TAKE THE FIRST STEP
WHY DON'T YOU MAKE THE FIRST MOVE
im a girl dammit, & youre the guy
ifyouweretosaythatitsme.
iddefinitelytellyouitsyou.
hahas, me & tong had a good chat today (:
i love that girl !
(even though she loves siok more, which is like so unfair, hahas)
i <3 my pw group, at least we have both fun & seriousness tgt (:
woohoo ! =D
actually, im quite sick of blogging.
cos my comp is wuper slow and all that jazz.
this darn page takes forever to load lahhr.
-pokes noth in particular.
i miss schooooool ! ):
i miss 4c ):
i miss snow white & seven dwarves ):
i miss the clique ):
i miss s10 ):
i miss netties ):
i miss s19 ):
i miss OG16 ):
i miss OG3 ):
i miss F1 ogls ):
I MISS HIM )):
im missing so many things, how weirddd.
hahaha.
that laughter was ABIT out of point ayye.
this post is crap as well, all my posts are crap anyhows.
so perhaps i shant post anymore.
its quite a chore to wait for blogger to load and all that jazz.
bahhs.
byebye people (:
thank You Lord, for tomorrow. no matter how many goodbyes we say, there'll be hellos (:
throw me a lifeline
8:24 PM
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Tuesday, May 30, 2006
a dream is a wish your heart makes <
hahas, let's see how Girl i am huh.
[] my fingernails/toenails are almost always painted
[] during the summer pretty much the only shoes i wear are flip flops
[] my favorite toy as a child were barbies
[] my favorite color is pink or purple
[]i did Gymnastics
[x] i love skirts
[] hollister is one of my favorite places to shop
[] tight jeans are the only jeans i'll wear
[x] i love chocolate
[x] i've never had a real job
TOTAL: 3
[]my hair is straightened
[x]i have at least 8 myspace pictures
[]i usually go shopping once a week
[]i love to hang out at the mall with friends
[] i have a real diamond ring or diamond necklace
[] i've gone to a tanning salon
[]i go to the beach to tan - not to swim
[] i have at least 10 pairs of shoes
[] i watch either the OC or Laguna Beach
[] i change my icon weekly
TOTAL: 1
[] I would NEVER step foot into Hot Topic
[] my cell phone might as well become a part of me
[] i wear mascara everyday
[] i've been or am on a diet
[] bathing suits are adorable
[] i dont know the difference between a sheep and a goat.
[] big sunglasses are hott
[] i have gotten my nails done
[x] i own over 10 purses
[x] MTV is my one of my favorite channels
TOTAL: 2
[] all i want to do at sleepovers is talk about boys
[] i love to have other girls do my hair
[] i give and receive hugs from all my friends
[] i hate bugs, snakes, lizards, spiders
[x] carnivals are so fun!!
[]summer is THE best season
[] my swimsuit has 2 pieces
[x]im waiting for my knight in shining armor
[x] musicians are so hot
[] if you write me a poem or tell me im beautiful and im all yours
TOTAL: 3
[] i am self-conscious.
[x] i cry often
[] my car smells like vanilla
[x] my dishes get washed more then once a week
[]i dont do sports
[]HATE to run
[] i squeal when i am surprised or angry
[] i eat raisins as a snack
[x] i love romance novels
[] Drew Barrymore is so cute
TOTAL:3
[] i usually spend over an hour to get ready to leave my house
[]i only have like 5 billion hair products
[] i love to get dressed up.
[] every part of my outfit needs to match
[] i talk on the phone at least once a day to my friends
[] i would love to have a photo shoot of myself
[] price on clothes hardly matters
[] i apply lip gloss 200 times a day (chapstick)
[] i wish i were a model
TOTAL:0
[] I wish I could meet Pairs Hilton
[] i have been something that was semi-slutty on halloween
[] i own Uggs
[] Hip Hop is good music
[] i pop my collar
[] i like to be the center of attention
[] guys with Mohawks are crazily hot
[x] Horses are beautiful
[] i'd rather not pay attention in school
[x] cats are adorable
TOTAL:2
[] i write poems
[] i love it when a guy/girl wears good smelling cologne/perfume
[x] i can get very jealous
[] i would love to visit Hawaii
[] Valentine's day is so cute!
[]white is better then black
[] i wouldn't be caught dead in all black
[] my closet is STOCK FULL of clothes
[] i hate the grunge look of a beard
[x]i love to read gossip magazines
TOTAL: 2
[x] i love to gossip
[] I had Lisa Frank folders, posters as a kid
[] i love Celine dion
[] My bubble baths are almost 2 hrs long
[] my wedding only needs a groom. it's already planned
[] my friends and i are in a strict group. we mostly only hang out with each other
[x] i like kids
[] diet drinks are the best
[] i'm all about being vegetarian
[] i refuse to eat at McDonalds
TOTAL:2
[] i check my frienster everyday.
[x] i LOVE life!
[]i have a lot of jewlery!
[] my screen names have x's in them
[]either one of my myspace names has/had <3 in them
[] i would never want to be the opposite sex
[] it's not what he/she said it's the way he/she said it
[]i have more than 3 pillows on my bed
TOTAL: 1
:19%
(hahas, no wonder everyone's been saying im chor lor ! =D)
now let's see how devilish i am. taken from min's blog
1) smoked
2) consumed alcohol
3) slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex
4) slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex
5) made out with someone of the opposite sex
6) made out with someone of the same sex
7) had someone in your room of the opposite sex
8) watched porn
9) bought porn
10) done drugs
TOTAL: 4
11) taken pain killers
12) taken someone else's prescription medicine
13) lied to your parents
14) lied to a friend
15) snuck out of the house
16) done something illegal
17) cut yourself
18) hurt someone
19) wished someone to die
20) seen someone die
TOTAL: 5
21) missed curfew
22) stayed out all night
23) eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself
24) been to a therapist
25) been to rehab
26) dyed your hair
27) received a ticket
28) been in a wreck
29) been to a club
30) been to a bar
TOTAL: 2
31) been to a wild party
32) seen the Mardi Gras
34) had a spring break in Florida
35) sniffed anything
36) wore black nail polish
37) wore arm bands
38) wore t-shirts with band names
39) listened to rap
40) own a 50 cent CD
TOTAL: 4
41) dressed gothic
42) dressed prep
43) dressed punk
44) dressed grunge
45) stole something
46) been too drunk to remember anything
47) blacked out
48) fainted
49) had a crush on your neighbor
50) had someone sneak into your room
TOTAL: 2
51) snuck into someone else's room
52) had a crush on someone of the same sex
53) been to a concert
54) dry humped someone
55) been called a slut
56) called someone a slut
57) installed speakers in your car
58) broke a mirror
59) showered at someone of the opposites sex's house
60) brushed your teeth with someone elses toothbrush
TOTAL: 7
61) consider Mac, Dre, e40 or Mistah Fab your favorite rapper
62) seen an R rated movie in theaters
63) cruised the mall
64) skipped school
65) had an eating disorder
66) had an injury
67) gone to court
68) walked out of a restaurant without paying
69) caught something on fire
70) lied about your age
TOTAL: 6
71) owned an apartment
72) cheated on your boyfriend/girlfriend
73) cheated with someone
74) got in trouble with the police
75) talked to a stranger
76) hugged a stranger
77) kissed a stranger
78) rode in the car with a stranger
79) been sexually harassed
80) been verbally harassed
TOTAL: 4
81) met face to face with someone you met online
82) stayed online for 12 hours straight
83) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours straight
84) watched TV for 12 hours straight
85) been to a fair
86) been called a bad influence
87) cursed
88) prank called someone
89) laid in the bed with someone of the opposite sex
90) cheated on a test
TOTAL: 9
91) cheated on homework
92) held hands with someone of the opposite sex
93) been pushed into a pool
94) played pool
95) watched 5 hours of mtv straight
96) had a crush on someone 10 years older than you
97) had a crush on someone younger than you
98) wear eyeliner
99) skinny dipped
100) laughed at someone who was seriously hurt
TOTAL: 7
:50 (hahs, so im half angel half devil huh?)
more quizzes ! this is just for me to kill time bahhs.(:
001: Real Name - karolyn.
002. Nickname - karo. (: (i dont wna type the rest)
003. Single or taken - single
004. Zodiac Sign - cancer
005. Male or Female - female
006. Elementary School - nanyang (:
007. Ipod - mini, pink !
008. How many buddies on your list - errrm im too lazy to count.
009. friendster name: karo-
010. Hair Color - blacckk.
012. Hair Long or Short - long enough to tie, short enough to untie.
014. Eye Color - i dont know, too small to be seen.
015. Are you health freak - no im not.
016. Height - i dont wna say, im darn short lahhr.
017. Do you have a crush on someone - thats for me to know & for you to find out.
018. Do you like yourself - at times.
019. Braces? - nope
020. Think you're awesome? - no wayy.
021. Piercings - ears (:
022. Tattoo - nope.
*Your 'Firsts'
024. Surgery - havent yet.
025. First piercing - sec 3
026. First best friend - jenna & vicky ! (: nanyang !
027. First Award - BABY ! =D i won the baby award (:
028. First Sport You Joined - netball.
029. First pet - fishies (: loads of them.
030. First vacation - hmmmmms. i cant rmb !
031. First Concert - errrrrrmmmm. i cant rmb too !
032. First Love - sec 2. on who? that's for me to know & for you to find out.
*Favorites
033. Favorite movie - parents' trap.
034. Favorite tv show - qiu tian de tong hua.
035. Color - green.
036. Music - i dont know !
039. Drink - i <3 strawberry milkshake !
040. Body part not on the face - that's a hard one. i give up.
041. Cartoon - (dont laugh) powerpuff girls ! =D
042. Favorite piece of clothing - if you really wna know. school uniform.
043. Brand Of Clothing - roxy? ripcurl? adidas? nike? hahs.
044. What do you sleep with - my pillow, my bolster, my blanket, 1 choice of tiggers.
045. Favorite School - dont have ): i just like e ppl there.
046. Favorite Animal(s) - dogs !
047. Favorite Book - too many too many. but i love kissed by an angel the most.
048. Favorite Magazine - FIRST.
*currentLy
049. Eating - air
050. I'm drinking - air
052. I'm about to - errrm, complete this thang.
053. Listening to - my brother's voice.
055. Waiting For - errrrrm. errrrrrm. i dont know. waiting for death?
056. Watching - this screen.
057. Wearing - clothes.
*Your Future
058. Want Kids - YES. two.
059. Want to Get Married - depends on wiv who.
060. Careers in Mind - tai tai =D no lahhr, i wna be a math teacher.
*Which is better with the Opposite Gender
068. Lips or Eyes - EYES, definitely.
069. Hugs or Kisses - hugs.
070. Shorter or Taller - taller than me. but not as tall as narrddy gan.
072. Romantic or Spontaneous - romantic & spontaneous. hahs.
073. Nice stomach or nice arms - nice eyes can le. nice face also. nice fingers.
074. Sensitive or Loud - both (:
075. Hook-up or Relationship - i'd rather a r/ship, a permanent one thank you veh much.
076. Sweet or Caring - both (:
077. Trouble Maker or Hesitant - i'd rather he be a trouble maker than e other one.
*Have you ever
078. Kissed a Stranger - nope, never met anyone named stranger.
079. Drank bubbles - no wayy.
080. Lost glasses/contacts - glasses =D my first ever. i mean i din even get used to it, obviously i'd lose it.
081. Ran Away From Home - no way, i'd rather die. i contemplated dying over running away.
082. Broken a bone - nope, i drink milk.
083. Got an X-ray - nope, i want to get one !
084. Broken Someone's Heart - errrrrm i dont know a someone, so nope.
086. Turned Someone Down - nope, i dont know a someone.
087. Cried When Someone Died - i dont know someone, so nope.
088. Cried at school - yes.
*Do You Believe In
089. God - definitely.
090. Miracles - yes.
091. Love at first sight - yepp.
093. Aliens - yes. my brother is an alien.
094. Magic - nope.
095. Heaven - yes.
096. Santa Claus - hahas, i saw santa claus, im serious. when i was quite young, then i woke up to pee, I REALLY SAW HIM. (im really serious) so yes i do believe in santa.
097. Sex on the first date - no way. sex on honeymoon. (:
098. Kissing on the First Date - nopee.
099. Angels - YES, definitely.
*Answer Truthfully
100. Is There someone You Want To be with right now? - i dont know a someone. okay okay fine. yes. i wna be wiv ------- =D
kay enough of quizzes, bahhs, boring stuffs, but they're good to kill time ayyes.
day was alryyt.
met up wiv joy gaelan loke chihfai lua nathan kelly zhengliang eugene
went down to mrs ang's house.
i said meet at 12pm, they all started arriving at 12.30 (riiight.)
yay ! met linsy & philos. hahas =D
zhengliang, e xiao hua mao, was darn scared of philos, the golden retriever.
hahas, darn darn funny.
then we went to eat ! (:
then melvin & charmaine joined us
me joy char eugene mellie kelly zhengliang went to our usual hideout
WE WENT TO PLAY BRIDGE ! =D
that was the darn highlight of my day.
i havent played bridge since like i-dont-know-when.
FINALLY FINALLY (:
played dont know how many matches (: yeeha.
AND I JUST REALISED EUGENE LIVES OPPOSITE JJC
BLOCK 533 !
ive been there twice AND I DIN KNOW.
darn, i think im a blockhead man.
anw i cant wait til sat (:
lao er, lao san & da mei coming over to play MAHJONG ! =D
lao da dont know die til where le, disappear to m'sia liaos.
wheeeeeee !
ah siok told me someth quite scary.
cheyy, i thot what he knows, darn scary.
hahas. bahhs.
i think im typing real crap lahhs, i think im really numb.
numb over alot of things?
bahs, i think im silly ):
(what a sudden moodswing)
this morning i just read someth.
why am i still so so so darn affected.
aren't i ---- him alr? hais.
thank You Lord, for other alternatives to giving brith
throw me a lifeline
9:28 PM
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Saturday, May 27, 2006
you will always be my boo <
day was great. okay day was so-so.
went to chevrons for some etiquette thang, hahs, it was really boring.
then headed down to junction8, cafecartel for dinner.
i am super duper wuper blotted. we ordered too much & we were all forcing the food down our throats.
i really wanted to eat the waffle, but my ma made me eat a meal, & after that meal i was too darn full for anyth else.
bahhs. at least i got my driink. (:
then we started to walk around.
i bought earrings, slippers & skirt ! =D
but i really wanted a pair of shorts. hahs.
every pair that i liked my ma commented they were short.
i mean they're SHORTS that's why they're SHORT.
hahs.
oohlala (:
did i mention i had to pay for the slippers myself?
see how evil my ma is.
then headed home.
reached home at 9 plus anw. hahs.
s19 family outing ! (:
me & lao er are planning.
i really hope everyone can go.
[there's only 5 +2 people lahh]
wheeee ! (:
im missing someone alr ! ):
june holidays suck man.
why not just have normal school, i dont mind. (:
at least there's a reason for me to look forward to extra lessons ! ((:
woohoo !
tiireed.
im aiming to read finish great expectations by end of june.
then complete my homeworks, really complete my homeworks.
revise revise revise.
study study study.
& think of him =D
thank You Lord, for sales
throw me a lifeline
10:55 PM
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i miss these girls (: was msging monkey this morning bout next tuesday. hahs, and she simply stated "i miss the way u scream when u lose." [we were talking bout bridge sessions]
i can't wait for 2306. outing wiv my girlies !
i want more icecream (: more more more.
my scc <3 [and an extra chocolate crunch there]
my finished chocolate freckles peak <3 [and an extra finished cookie summit]
oh, yes, thats my fingers as well.
some retarded kuku said it looks cool, i think it looks rather.... fill in the blanks, hah.
oh wells, heading out now. going for some dumb talk wiv my mom, then we're going to shop ! hahs.
thank You Lord, for icecream (:
throw me a lifeline
1:19 PM
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Friday, May 26, 2006
wo zhi yao ni zai wo shen bian <
adapted from joe tan's blog > [ who's currently performing in the third place now (: ]
[1]. name one person who is on your mind right now ?
[x] jack, the beanstalk, kor (: cos im currently chatting wiv him.
[2]. do you think your life has been good so far ?
[x] life has its ups & downs. so far my life is running smooth. (: good class, good grades [good grades = grades good enough for me], good netties, good guy ((:
[3]. where is the last place you went ?
[x] before home? mos burger. kakiage, yums (:
[4]. who is the last person you called ?
[x] joe tan ! ((:
[5]. who is the last person you texted ?
[x] guoxi. (:
[6]. who is the last person who called you ?
[x] jiayee (:
[7]. who is the last person who texted you ?
[x] guoxi. (:
[8]. other than yours where was the last house you slept at ?
[x] hahs, jjc hall.
[9]. do you already have plans for this weekend ?
[x] you can say so. it's major couch time for me (:
[10]. ever cheated on anyone ?
[x] nopes.
[11]. been cheated on ?
[x] can say so. =D
[12]. have you ever thought that you were in love ?
[x] thought? no, im sure i felt love.
[15]. what is your favorite body type to cuddle with ?
[x] =D that's for me to know, & for you to find out.
[16]. do you look like your mom or dad ?
[x] i seriously have no idea.
[17]. do you have siblings ?
[x] yepppppp.
[18]. do you smile often ?
[x] yepp, exteriorly.
[19]. do you think that someone is thinking about you right now ?
[x] hmmmms. i don't know a someone, so nope.
[20]. could you be a vegetarian ?
[x] confirm can. my mom eats veges, & pours like 1/4 of the plate of veges to me each meal time.
[21]. are you sentimental ?
[x] depends on what =D
[22]. ever thought someone was "the one" ?
[x] yepp, and i still think he's the ultimate dude, but just not mine.
[23]. what do you think your wedding song will be ?
[x] ask my husband.
[24]. what is your middle name ?
[x] middlename-less.
[25]. choose one to have (love, beauty, creativity) .
[x] i'd rather have tiggers, thank you very much. love lahh !
[26]. do you wish on stars ?
[x] nope, i wish on rainbows. they then are the miracles.
[27]. do you untie your shoes every time you take them off ?
[x] no i dont, im too lazy to =D
[28]. what is the most disgusting food you've ever eaten ?
[x] i dont eat dangerous stuffs. (:
[29]. would you kill someone ?
[x] depends on who, and for what reason.
[30]. when did you last cry ?
[x] let's not talk about that. but at least he said sorry. (: [at least i think he did]
[31]. if you were making a movie about yourself,who would play you ?
[x] karolyn gan.
[32]. have you ever met anyone famous ?
[x] yes i have, i met karolyn gan ! (: =D
[33]. do you like your handwriting ?
[x] at times. hahas. other times im shocked at my super duper wuper unreadable handwriting.
[34]. who are you jealous of ?
[x] skinny people. pretty people. smart people. hardworking people. people wiv straight hair. people wiv perfect smiles. people wiv wonderful parents. rich people. people who have loadsa clothes. [& the list goes on & on you know...]
[35]. what are your favourite bands ?
[x] bahhs, i dont play favourites. i like the music, not the band (:
[36]. do you have any bad habits ?
[x] im lazy. the end.
[37]. are you a friendly person ?
[x] i would like to think so.
[38].if you were another person, would you be friends with you?
[x] hmmmmmmmmmmmmmms. i'd probably be hi&bye friends.
[39]. do looks matter?
[x] yes it does, definitely. looks matter, but what's inside matters more. if you have both, whoo, im yours !
[40]. what is your favorite school subject ?
[x] currently? PC.
[41]. are you keeping a secret from the world ?
[x] hahs, define secret.
[42]. do you regret anything ?
[x] yes. [saying that word too many times]
[43]. when was the last time you really cried your heart out ?
[x] ORIENTATION 2 JJ NIGHT 2006 (: OG3 !
[44]. ever cried yourself to sleep ?
[x] yepp.
[45]. ever cried on your friend's shoulder ?
[x] yepp, that friend is a friend for life.
[46]. do you cry when you get an injury ?
[x] it depends (:
[47]. do songs make you cry ?
[x] if im going through a weird crying phase, yes they do.
[48]. what can make you happy ?
[x] tiggers ! & sunflowers.
[49]. do you wish you were happier ?
[x] i wish i had a better life, then i'll be happier ayye.
[50].what makes you the happiest ?
[x] all the tiggers in the world, sunflowers, YOU ! (:
i really think i have swensens icecream phobia.
next time, i want hagen daz !
& i have learnt never to go mos burger if you wna eat icecream.
hahas.
i met tonny fong when i was walking to e 198 place today. now he's online asking me why i was in JP alone. i am so not a loner OKAY.
last day of the term !
woohoos. sleep late, wake up late, slack.
that's so not the definition of holidays for people like me.
project work, extra lessons, trainings.
not to mention, the number of dates i owe people
bahhs. there's practically no time to even slaccckkk ! ):
i wna watch movie !
-looks at joe.
i love my doggie woggie loads (: hahas.
she's darn cute i tell you.
she waddles instead of walks.
she shakes her tail so hard & barks & licks me when i come home.
i miss times i spend wiv her.
it's getting limited.
i love luckee ! (:
thank You Lord, for dogs.
throw me a lifeline
10:25 PM
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Thursday, May 25, 2006
you were my strength when i was weak
you were my voice when i couldnt speak
you were my eyes when i couldnt see
you saw the best there was in me <
crazy.
i love belinda yee kwai peng. although im pretty sure she wont see this.
& i love tong siok & muzai. we're having retarded convs now. HAHAS.
BUT I LOVE SOMEONE ELSE MORE =D
& who that is? it's a secret ! (:
someth is wrong. someth is definitely wrong.
i could sense it the whole time today.
was it wiv me? or was it wiv you?
this is so darn shitty lahh. cant stand it.
we are so
wrong for each other.
right, may i please spell out the ego of my brother, mr nigel lee guo'en.
that bugger isnt satisfied that i say he rocks. that he wants me to say he's cute.
what the heck. hahas. to whet his hungry appetite for praises, i have to suffer. my gosh.
chem testphy testGP tcalit test
im left wiv that thing tmr.
june holidays? = no holidays ): so darn sad
school on my birthday? yes there is, but at least it's only trg.
SO FAR.
this post is like totally no link lahh. i dont know what im talking about. hahas.
thank You Lord, for ------- ((((((: <3
throw me a lifeline
9:22 PM
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Wednesday, May 24, 2006
fcuk you
fcuk you
fcuk you three times overyou are a big fat liar.
& i counted on someone to be able to cheer me up, but i was wrong, he let me down.
so i decided to walk home to relieve all that.
and i saw someth.
fcuking liar.
just fuck all these
and screw the world.
i dont deserve these shit, i thot i could always count on you, you let me down the most.
the netballers made my day.
thanks girls, for being there when i cried.
thanks siyun for that absolutely heartmelting language
and thank YOU for screwing everyth up, and causing me to cry for you. second time in a row, it was because of you.
thank You Lord, for shoulders
throw me a lifeline
7:33 PM
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Sunday, May 21, 2006
ni shuo ni hao lei
yi wu fa zai ai shang shui <
noth much to say lehh. bahhs the days have been boring.
i swear friendster hates me.
it keeps hanging when i wna edit stuffs.
pfft. i swear friendster is out to get me.
bahhs. cant stand it.
jj talenttime (: wheeee. my mama let me go ! =D
it rocked (: full stop.
OH YES, i meant to blog this.
susian bought me a drink during e interval ! =D
yeeha, thats my xiao di for you.
ooh & i saw this idiot person during the talenttime.
after hearing her say one sentence, i couldnt stand her even more.
& whats the worst thing, i dont even know her in e first place.
hahas, i just cant stand her.
-punches her.
ive got this ulcer, i cant stand it ): paiiinnnfffuuuullllll ! ):
arrgh ):
but i still can eat icecream ! ((:
scc tmr ! (: wheeeeeee.
chatting wiv hafiz makes me feel better about school work =D
siokhui.
my girl ! dont worry kay. everyth is okay in the end, if it's not okay, it's not the end. i love you girlly ! (: im really always here for you.
thank You Lord, for clean plastic bags (:
throw me a lifeline
7:43 PM
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Thursday, May 18, 2006
sometimes when we touch
the honesty's too much <
chem test's over. finally !
i could have killed myself by studying too hard, too much stress & all, the paper was actually do-able, much easier than e revision worksheet. yes (:
i think i can pass =D yeeha.
there's noth much to talk about this week. so that's bout my week.
next week's it's gna be all about physics test.
& i got a feeling it's gna be dam dam dam dam hard. ):
arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr ):
kukuuu, help?
ooh yes, louder than lightning gave me an apple ytd (: it's so teeny that it's too cute to be eaten =D
jj vs mj. we lost, 1-0. the goal was scored when e match hadnt even started for 1 minute.
tears were shed (not by me !)
this reminds me of the cjc game.
but e only difference >
the soccer dudes never gave up fighting til e final whistle, they teared cos they really hoped to move on.
the netballers cried cos we knew we could have won, we gave up somewhere in e final quarter & we were playing wivout any spirit. on e soccer field & off e soccer field the spirit of the match engulfed e people there. on e netball court, e spirit is just not there.
jack the beanstalk !
(: < see that thingy there. that should be on your face kay ! don't be so errrrm, down lahh, makes me really scared. remember, when youre down, i passed the string to you ! wiv so many people to choose from, why did i pass it to you huh? cos you touched my life in a way that none of the others did yes ! smile kor smile ! open wide & smile like this > =D.
thank You Lord, for capital letters (:
throw me a lifeline
10:19 PM
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Sunday, May 14, 2006
you say it best
when you say noth at all <
my conv wiv kuku ! =D (his nick is actually da bai chi, but blogger is lousy, no chinese)
[] says:
cute larkaro- lynn` (: trust me. trust you. trust us. trust what we have. says:
who cute?[] says:
u lar u cute lar=D
oh yes, today i slapped a mosquito who just drank my blood & the mosquito BURST in my palm & my blood flowed out of e mosquito onto my palm. lols.
& to make jack the beanstalk retard (who got his retardedness from me, we share the same genes seee) happy, during e-web, i passed e string to him (: kekes.
icecream tmr ! (: wheeeeeee. lols, i assume i'll get icecream tmr right kuku. since i called you "cute" i shud get icecream tmr huh ! =D
gosh im dead bored, this calls for great expectations. (yes, i havent finish reading that book yet. lols (: )
thank You Lord, for tv !
throw me a lifeline
9:40 PM
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we fear how we feel inside <
new skin (:
i gave up looking, so i improvised from another one =D
my mom loved my present ! woohoo. and i very nicely slotted in a pic of e 3 of us & my mom into e wallet =D
i did finish phy tutorial 4.
& i did 3 weeks worth of GP news aricle crap.
then i studied abit of chem.
not to mention i watched charlie & the chocolate factory.
hahas (:
my maid went to NTUC, & came back icecreamless.
im craving icecream badly. the past few tubs were attacked & finished by none other than my two greedy brothers. pffft. they left not even a spoonful for me lahhr. pfft.
so kuku, how bout we move forward the bet? i mean like im sure gna beat you right? =D kekes.bahhhhhhs. & to study properly i need iceeecreeeeaaaaam ! so how bout we go tmr huh? =D
AH SIOK AHH.
i did someth for you today ! =D heehees.
i miss these people badly. my daily dosage of 16 is becoming lesser and lesser (minus off teeny carrot who's in my class) it's hard even to catch up wiv ber & eve. we were once inseparable. i miss these wonderfuls, badly badly. how bout an outing huh? how bout our og shoe huh? lols (: you guys put the smiles onto my face.
thank You Lord, for hair ties
throw me a lifeline
6:31 PM
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Saturday, May 13, 2006
this is joanne (:
& this is joanne kissing me =D
part 1 of retarded netties. hahas =D
i wna get hold of mellie's cam, it has all our retarded poses in it, hahas (:
i <3 netties (:
shopped til i dropped
walked til my toes blistered
ate til my tummy stretched
sinful day today. ate shopped ate shopped, arrggghhh.
luckily i din buy much stuffs, just 2 more SBs =D kekes.
so half a sinful day.
im preparing my tummy for giant earthquack !
HAHAS. that's how kuku spelled earthquake. LAUGH PEOPLE, LAUGH.
earthquack. my gosh.
i cracked up in e middle of e shopping centre i swear that char was trying to disappear from my side.
right, that shows 2 things.
1 > how kuku my kuku is. wait, sounds wrong. how kuku chinhua is. hahas.
2 > my weird sense of humour. I ADMIT MY SENSE OF HUMOUR IS WEIRD LAHHR.
hahas =D
ice cream, my earth quack ! (: soon to be mine. wheeeeee. earth quack.
right. i better not get too excited bout it. after all, i might lose the bet. hmmmms
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MANU ! (: i love you girl ! alot alot (:
thank You Lord, for people who make me laugh (:
throw me a lifeline
10:54 PM
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Friday, May 12, 2006
mei yi ci he ni fen kai <
im too lazy to edit, but my last last post has a mistake. hahas. e part about heartattacking wiv s10 peeps and down are supposed to be on weds, not thurs, yepp (:
anw anw.
i think this weekend is going to be a useless one for me.
i watched dvds today ):
i not stupid too (joshua ang <33333 dammit shuai lahhr !)
then mvp2 : most vertical primate. i <3 louie the errrm monkey?
then charlie & e chocolate factory. baahh, i think veruca is dammit act cute.
then, thank God, i went to do chem & math. but i think i ended up doing noth much as well. tackled a dam diff math question til i gave up & went to bathe.
then i went to watch toystory.
pffft.
tmr > lunching wiv cousies & co. mothers' day celeb. & my mom came & tell me "no shorts & no slippers" riight. ):
sunday > it's mothers' day to all the ppl who doesnt know & haven't bought pressies. my mom's gna <3 my present (: wheeeeeeeee.
so i better grab some time where i can actually study. hmms ):
thank You Lord, for time
throw me a lifeline
11:10 PM
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Thursday, May 11, 2006
in places no one can find
all your feelings so deep inside <
i cant believe im here again. =D i just wna do some quizzes. im bored =D
name 20 ppl you can think of right now at the top
of your head. dont read the question till the list of
20 is done, then tag at least 5 ppl.
1. JOE TAN (:
2. mindy ng
3. samantha foo
4. vanessa loh
5. mesy lim
6. joy lua
7. charmaine choo
8. cheryl oo
9. ho jia yee
10. christina chiang
11. olivia lee
12. manuela siya errm smith (haha)
13. belinda yee kwai kwai =D
14. evelyn koh geok ting =D
15. suanyew ! =D
16. denise, spas ! =D
17. oddball !
18. kuku, e file carrier, hahas =D
19. yanping, THE LAME !
20. wong siok hui, teeny carrot.
How did you meet 14?
OG16 FOREVER (:
What would you do if you will never meet 1 again?
no way, no no no no no way. ): i'll pray to God.
What would you do if 20 and 9 dated?
hmm, i can see jiayee getting beaten up really soon, hahas =D
Did you ever like 19?
not only like, she's heartmelt worthy kay !
Would 6 and 17 make a good couple?
riight, joy lua's like married ! hahas
Describe 3.
my 17th may going out partner ! =D my bestie since sec 2, we had a quarrel once, but we're back as friends ! =D idontlovesam.blogspot.com, HAHAS !
Do you think 8 is attractive?
MONKEY ! of cos, she's my daughter can !
Tell me about 7.
hahas, my mama ! =D in ngeeann now, was in 4c, the happy dwarve. (:
Do you know any of 12's family?
YES ! I KNOW (: i know her brother & her mama ! =D
What's 8's favourite person?
hahas, i can't say, it's a secret ! okay lahh, EDWIN LAHH !
What will you do if 18 just confessed he/she likes you?
COMMENTLESS.
What language does 15 speaks?
english lahhr ! & cheeeem chinese, hahas =D
Who is 9 going out with?
i want to know who too ! hahas
How old is 16?
sixteen going on seventeen.
When's the last time you talked to 13?
this afternoon. took a pic wiv her too =D
Would you ever date 4?
leonard would probably kill me, but YES I WOULD (:
Would you ever date 7?
obviously not, she adopted me & raised me for 17 years.
Is 2 single?
weeeellll. =D she's not, she's my lover (:
Whats 10's last name??
errm, CHIANG?
Ever have a serious relationship with 11?
hahas, wait long long.
What school does 3 goes to?
CJC.
Where does 6 live?
in singapore, somewhere near tiong. =D
What's your favourite thing about 5?
everyth (: mesy is the best. her advices, her smiles, her being there, chatting wiv her, everyth (:
Have you seen 1 naked?
NO & NO I DONT WANT TO. (i bet Joe LOVES this question, am i right fishegg ? =D)
number two >
1. do you have any weird habits?
i define weird different from everyone, hahas =D
2. what is most precious to you?
friends, God, studies.
3. what do you think is most attractive of yourself?
nothing. it's quite weird that people want me actually, im still quite shocked at that
4. do you want to be a guy / girl in your next lifetime? why?
hahas. commentless.
5. what kind of person do you think you are?
i think im karolyn (:
6. are you a les or gay?
im a karolyn (:
7. do you think pure friendship ever exist between guys and girls?
YES THERE IS. between me and fishegg ! =D and me and bester !
8. most romantic quote you ever heard of?
it depends on who says it, when he says it, how he says it (:
9. do you think you are evil or kind?
at times im evil, at times im kind. hahas, it depends on who you are !
10. if you are allowed to have plastic surgery, how would you like to have a change?
everything? =D
11. name one of your favourite song.
snow angel (:
12. why do you like that song?
it's meaningful, really really (:
13. who is your best friend?
JOE TAN YU ZUO.
14. describe your best friend.
he's my best friend, fill in the blanks =D okay lahh, he's taller than me, he named one of his guit after me (=D), he has weird hair at times =D kekes. he msges really sweete msges at times AND he loves me =D heehees.
15. what do you like about your best friend?
everyth (: him being a guy to his advices to everyth (: he rocks !
16. are you an introvert or extrovert?
extrovert, definitely.
17. what do you hope for the most now?
a bright future.
18. missing anyone right now?
i miss chat ):
19. would you choose truth or dare?
truth, definitely.
20. ever confessed to your admirer before?
heehee. admirer, as in e person likes me? yepp, AFTER he tells me he likes me =D
21. what do you think you lack of? (courage, love..)
positive thinking (:
22. what's your favourite quote?
there can't be any rainbow, wivout any rain
&
when the door of happiness closes, another opens, but often times, we look too long at the closed door to see the one that has opened for us.
23. are you a two-timer?
no way. no no no. never. thats the worst way to breaking hearts.
24. what kind of person do you hate most?
people who two-time. those who promise to do someth but never do.
25. last question: have you ever regretted doing things? if so, what is that you regret the most?
yes i did. what i regret the most, saying yes so many times.
what would you do if i go blind? seriously answer that question.
thanks for the heartmelting testimonial yanping the lame (: made my day.
thanks for that conv on msn mesy (: made my day too.
thank You Lord, for donations (:
throw me a lifeline
11:09 PM
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in this life i was lovedd by you <
days have been fine (: the highlights of my week.
>TODAY ! after school (: covalent bonding (according to kuku) wiv the j1 netballers -
joanne jacinda melisa siyun! trust me man, you can NEVER find a more retarded & crappy team. but they are the best man ! we had dinner tgt & we were telling jokes & all that. we share secrets as well, so they know bout him & i got so dammit high when he msged me all of a sudden, i was positively screaming in the middle of the foodcourt. joanne's expression was dam funny that i laughed like a kuku, and e team was like telling me > that uncle looking at you ! hahas (: i could talk about anyth under the sun wiv this team man (: hahas, now they know my secret, we can be high tgt when he msges me all of a sudden =D dammit happy man (: hahahas ! then heart-attack wiv some s10 people ! (: headed down to lil india for e debate, some girls got crazy over jack. riight. hahas, he's not cute at all, NO NO. hahas. school then home.
>YTD ! after school (: BELINDA DENISE & SUANWOO DID SOMETH SO UNFORGIVABLE. i was trying my best to hide at kuku's table lahhr ! pfft. DAMMIT PAISEH CAN ! PFFFT. then went JP wiv kuku. hahas, i was waiting for him to leave his table & he was waiting for me to leave mine, hahas, riight. went to eat foodcourt, hahas, he almost wanted to strangle me for e way i ate. but i was really scared of splashing gravy onto my uniform ! AND, it was HE who MADE ME EAT in the first place. pfft. hahas =D we walked round JP dont know how many times, he got his present for his friend. then we went to eat SWENSENS ! =D. (i paid 2/3 by the way) it's been such a long time since i last treated myself, i cant help it. =D i like talks wiv kuku, it's always refreshing. pffft. my official file carrier. hahas.
>TUES ! after school (: photo-taking wiv e netballers. super funny man. anni inez jietong & jasline kept coming up wiv retarded poses and all. hahas. i am a camera whore man, i cant stand myself. i keep wanting to take pictures & all =D but it's dam fun (:
>MON ! after school (: soccer match ! jj won 4-0 (: hahas. chihfai came over to appeal. whoo sat in e principal's office & all that jazz. then supposed to study wiv kuku, we ended up chatting AGAIN. gosh, i cant stand it. so much for me being able to make him study. hahas. what e heck, next time next time, im sure i'll study ! hahahas =D
right, kuku is quite nice lahh. becoming nice after each day passes. today when my hp was low batt & i needed a hp, he changed phones wiv me. buuut, my phone never died anw. hahas. i was a camera whore wiv his hp, i went ard asking ppl to take pics wiv me. riight. we bet swensens okie ! phy math chem (: woohoo ! hahas. i warn you first, if i win, im gna get EARTHQUAKE ! & not e regular one arrh, e giant one ! this is so fun ! hahas =D.
chats wiv siok & tong are great as well (: their situations make me wonder bout really what a relationship is all about. it's no use just saying "i love you" to each other if your actions DONT PROVE A THING. right. hmmmms.
i still get affected by that stupid song. like why? pfft.
thank You Lord, for simple sms-es that make me smile (:
throw me a lifeline
10:14 PM
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Sunday, May 07, 2006
my heart's beating faster
holding on to feel the same <
went out wiv my mom from 9am til 4.30pm. hahas (:
headed down to see great grandma first.
she held my hand for super long while my ma conversed =D
then me and ma headed down to johnlil.
bought SBs. =D orange, pink & blue. kekes. my mom picked e colours somemore lahh !
then i bought a green wallet. triple smileys > (((:
marks&spencers. bought more stuffs.
then we headed down to robinsons.
my mom spent like 1hr++ there.
i waited for her to try on e stuffs for 45mins.
ended up, she din get anyth. that was totally a waste of time sehh. hahas.
then headed down to fulushou. ate there bought all the stuffs for my great grandma.
then we headed back down to see my great grandma again.
then finally headed back home.
im super exhausted. but all in all it's a great day.
dad's out now to fix my watch.
finally ! XD
im starting to enjoy singlehood when i hear ppl start talking bout problems wiv their relationship. you dont have to worry so much bout 2 ppl, instead of just yourself. hahas, that so doesnt sound like me right. pfft. after all, after hearing his side of his views on relationships, i guess im gna wait until some part of his life has passed. X)
collect year book ! i wna collect year book soon, i guess i'll go down by myself this week someday. hmmmms.
off to nap. exhausted like hell.
before that,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHARMY CHOO WAN TIAN (: i love you loads girlly. im so sorry i couldnt make it for your party. i miss you loads girl ! the crapping times, the oscar-dressing-up days, the SWING ! =D (: thanks girl, for everyth. youve been a blessing in my life. (:
did i mention, i miss 4c loads? if not, i miss 4c loads ): from junjie all the way to jinghan. snowwhite&7dwarves, the bridge gang. hahs (: put a smile on my face each time i think of them. <3333 (:
thank You Lord, for Visa, Mastercard & Nets
throw me a lifeline
5:12 PM
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Friday, May 05, 2006
tell me your blue sky's fade to gray
tell me your passion's fade away <
so anw, while waiting for blogger to load, (it's unnnbelievably slow on my comp), i was just wondering who the heck reads my blog? why the heck am i blogging for? to keep a record of my life? nope, i have a diary for that. to spend time? nope i have homeworks to do that. hmmms, whats so interesting bout my life anw? after all, im just... me. i dont know lehh. like if you wna know bout my day, just come & ask me. or maybe blogging is just an outlet for my feelings, when im happy i can spread it, when im pissed, banging on e keyboard makes me feel better, when im upset... why does anyone care anw? hmmms.
and no, im not sad, hahas (:
and no, im not going through a phase.
it just slipped into my mind thats all.
but just for the heck of it. my day was alryyt today (:
my right arm really hurts, i really suspect i pulled a muscle somewhere there. (RIGHT SOMEMORE ! pffft)
went to the bank wiv tong & siok.
went queensway wiv siok & eve.
bought a necklace, earrings, & my mommy's mothers' day gift. =D
it's been ages since ive last gone out shopping, me & siok really shopped til we dropped. pooped out in e bus on e way home. hahas. had a great talk wiv my girls (: yippee, long time since ive done it man.
wore ahmad's cap to chinese lesson =D the teacher was like "jia yi, ni wei shen me dai mao zi?" (interpretation : karolyn, why you wear e hat ?) hahas, i <3 it (: just like i <3 ahmad's phone. DOING THAT THING YOU DO (: kept asking ahmad to play it over & over & over during the break, hehes =D well well, ahmad gave me e green portion of his teddy-pencil. it's dammit cute alryyt (: place it in my pencil box, just like the battery that lihui gave me, which was quite out of point lahh (: little bits of s10, maybe one day i'll create an s10 album & place these stuffs in it. heehees. so s10 people, give me more stuffs. =D you can start wiv someth small like testimonials ? hee.
pfft. im exhausted. my aim for the weekend > complete all assignments, wipe my not-even-one-month-old bag (it got dirty in e rain today ! pfft !). if i can, head down to the library, grab TWO books, i always finish one book so dammit soon. if i really can, pack my table =D kekes.
anw, this is gna be random. people say hanyang treats me v nice. hmms, i dont think so lehh, he always make me wait for him one lohh. where got nice. pfft. but he's okay lahh. if he was really nice, he wud have gone wiv me to my lit lecture today. pffft. & if he was really really nice to me, he wud have quit council to go to school wiv me everyday =D kekes, im just kidding dude. but if you were nice, you wudnt have grabbed my darling oscar today ! pfft. anw, im missing the conversations i have wiv him each time we go home tgt.
anw anw, im really trying to cut down on saying lahh lohh lehh this kinda singlish. my "uncle" aaron's english is like so exact. totally singlishless & im aiming to be just like him, heehees.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY HONGMING (: im really glad you like the shoe we got for you (:
siok ! (:
thanks for the day girl (: you don't take things too hard alryyt. it really could be just a test from up there. if you two are really meant to be, it'll pull through. if you two arent meant to be, you'll find e one for you soon (: take cares girl (:
oddball ! (:
what happened darling, what happened? is it the accident? if it is, im just glad youre okay yes ? anw, it's been a long time since we've last really chatted. i miss the conv wiv u as well girl, take cares ! (: anw, my font color is alr green, so ur name can't possibly be green as well mahh =D, so blue it is. such a nice long paragraph for you, & none for kuku, so hahas, there ! (: but really take cares girlly, im really glad noth happened to you all.
thank You Lord, for lessons learnt
throw me a lifeline
9:28 PM
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Thursday, May 04, 2006
in your arms i found the greatest prize
& now i know my search is over <
freak that knee.
pc so rocked today & my knee had to attitude me lahhr. ):
saw e guys do pushups, my gosh, scary ! they can do so much lahh. pfffft.
im so commentless about what happened ytd.
i definitely am gna go home early or if im going home late, im going home wiv hanyang man.
im still dam scared. & til now, it still seemed surreal. hais. ):
so leaving that stupid part of ytd aside, sajc match.
we lost.
but there was this major difference between this match and the cj match.
we had fun, & we liked what we did. so after the match ended & all, we were all smiles, telling funny stories, comparing cts and all that.
left for school, then headed down to macs.
free icecream again ! =D thanks kuku.
it's mothers' day on sunday.
whack my head please, i totally forgot about it lahhr.
(& it figures that it's my MOM who reminded me bout it)
pffft, im so broke lahhr, what to get what to get?
heading down wiv siok & eve to queensway tmr, hopefully hopefully (:
im dreadfully exhausted, how am i going to survive tmr? hais.
i need jokes kuku, more jokes ! =D
im quite happy wiv my grades (:
all A's so far, yippeee.
but its the first test only, ive really got this feeling that i'll do badly in the next test & during midyears.
after all, first tests are merely but a revision of what o's were testing lahhr.
pffft, im scared ):
i think im gna study soon. im dammit tired. my mom owes me a massage & there's tons of homework.
nephew's 1 year this sat, not niece. giving char's party a miss ): & how wonderful, my father told me maybe i shud stay at home. riiiight.
i think i really need a bodyguard. was fretting the whole day in school & seeing someone makes it all come back into my head ): pffft. scared scared. anyone volunteer to be my personal bodyguard? i want a tall & big size dude who scares ppl away just by looking at them. kekes =D anyone who can fight can le. anyone? =D hehes.
thank You Lord, for silver linings
throw me a lifeline
8:38 PM
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Tuesday, May 02, 2006
it's a dam cold night
& im trying to figure out this life <
did i make the right choice? i always ask myself this freaking question AFTER i make my choices. whether its right or wrong, its a choice ive made, and im gna stick to it. yes i am (:
it's the same wiv choosing jc-s. pfft. i mean why give me a situation where i have TWO choices. i cant help but wonder at times whether i wud have been happier in acjc. hmms. but i stuck to my choice, and im really happy i did (:
the one thing that made me chose jj has kept my feelings for jj going strong -
the people therethanks those who have been there for me, be it consoling me, going out wiv me, treating me stuffs, simple msges, or just plain hugs (: thankews.
>
kuku, thanks for thursday & friday (: for going out wiv me, the msges, online, ICECREAM =D. you crack me up ! kettledrum.
>
oddball, thanks for friday, the chat was refreshing.
>
teeny carrot, thanks for today, the drink treats (:
>
ber, thanks for the hug & the shoulder (:
>
vanessa, thanks for the hug & the wuper sweet msg, i melted darling !
>
joanne, thanks for the hugs (: and thanks for your words (:
>
hanyang, thanks for the msg, really meant alot (:
>
jack, lame-o (: thanks for making me laugh with your lameness, & thanks for always chatting wiv me (:
here's a cut out from one of my conv with jack (:
ISNT ANYONE TRYING TO FIND ME. says:
cos im like that oneISNT ANYONE TRYING TO FIND ME. says:
i just dont seem that way!@#$%b34nst4lk%$#@! crossroads<<-------->>到了码头桥一定会自然直吗?//<
> says:
hey
!@#$%b34nst4lk%$#@! crossroads<<-------->>到了码头桥一定会自然直吗?//<> says:
if got problems must tell me hor
!@#$%b34nst4lk%$#@! crossroads<<-------->>到了码头桥一定会自然直吗?//<> says:
can
and of cos, thanks nessa (: for your tag (:
throw me a lifeline
11:35 PM
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Monday, May 01, 2006
sometimes when we touch
the honesty's too much <
have you ever felt that you hate your parents?
as in really really hate them?
well, try having mine for one day. try having my father.
trust me, once you know the truth behind my father, you will thank God for yours.
fcuk.
im sorry, i just had to say that out. it's awfully stressful here & its these fcuking times that i wished for someone to be there. but no one truly hears my tears, no one truly understands my pain. at least no one yet.
is it really unlike me to sit & frown? is it really not me when i shed tears of anguish, when i just plainly need someone there? it seems that way. im expected to smile and joke and lame about. i just realised that im totally changed. in fairfield its normal when you see me shed a tear but in jj, it's weird if i dont laugh. hmms. have i really changed?
thanks hanyang. im sorry for venting it all on you. im so sorry. but i seriously feel like fcuk now, & youre e only one i dare to say that word to. im sorry yes. ):
there was nothing more than i assumed it to be is it?
i need icecream now. i need chocolate now.
how great that i have NONE. ):
fcuk that.
ISNT ANYONE TRYING TO FIND ME
DOESNT ANYONE HEAR MY SREAMS
thank You Lord, for tears
throw me a lifeline
9:21 PM
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i miss these girls (: was msging monkey this morning bout next tuesday. hahs, and she simply stated "i miss the way u scream when u lose." [we were talking bout bridge sessions]
my scc <3 [and an extra chocolate crunch there]
this is joanne (:
& this is joanne kissing me =D