Wednesday, November 01, 2006

it was late in september
& i've seen you before
you were always the cool one
but i was never that sure <



i am getting sriously more & more confused in all these. you him me him you me ? im like hurring my way thru alr. never been more whambanghazzled in my life. dont understand that word ? i dont understand what im feeling. ugggh.


but that aside. i think ytd was quite cool (:


breakfast was niiiiceee ! an extra burger thrown in for free was heavenly luhh ! company was retarded. spelt adidas as addidas. riiiightt. & i dont eat like a mouse OKAY !

late for lecture, but i dont care.

slacked at the netball court then went to find teacher.

didn't exactly rushed home cos mood was zapped by some stuffs ):

bathed changed blahblah. headed down to harbour front.

went vivo. my hairtye snapped & i almost sued vivo alryyt. sucha biiig shopping centre, wiv NO stores selling hairtyes ? i almost sued vivo i tell you. until i found a store that sold hairtyes. trust me, that's my favourite store in the WHOLE of vivo. candy empire was noth great, quite disappointed. i kept going in saying i MUST buy someth to prove that i came to candy empire. buttttt. ): awwww, everyth was like so darn ex lahh. so didnt buy anyth.

headed to ps. walked around trying to find subway, in the end when we did find subway, we didn't eat subway -.-" ate longjohns' & shared around 16 (plus minus) packets of chili between ourselves. hurhur. so darn full.

met up wiv clara & headed down to glass house. dinner was fine (i didn't eat anyth) & the company there was quite funny. started wiv me ganss jean clara chengxun & jonk. waiip came. shaorong came & left in 5 mins wiv chengxun.

was darn late. darn darn late. on the way home, leonard called me. he was like "karolyn ? guess who i am" like du-uh, i dont know so i said "who are you" & he said "guess who i am" this continued until he said "im leonard !" i was like -.-"""" alr. & the next thing he said "why you sound so anxious ?!" cos im late luhhh !


mom was asleep, thank God. BUT tonight ive got someth on that i wna go, & i dont know if she'll leme go. oh no. ):


ahh wth, im going to practice the piano.






SRIOUSLY, what does God want out of my life. what do I want out of my life. i know feelings cant be controlled, but choices can. whoever said listen to your heart ? im listening to my brain more, i trust it more. whoever said follow your heart, cos all your brain does is think ? i cant believe i used that quote before. thats like sooo wrong. getting into someth, you have to THINK. i dont wna regret my choice.


i was happy the way things were. just one wrong move, & everyth will blowwww. sucks sucks sucks.


i dont have problems. i dont have worries. who am i kidding?


Lord, show me. show me what you want me to do. is this a test of faithfulness ? or someth else ? ugggh.















thank You Lord, for the song, memory

throw me a lifeline
9:35 AM

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