Thursday, August 31, 2006
a hero comes along
with the strength to carry onteachers' day celebrations was a big blur, but i always love watching mutton balls dance, <3 totally wonderful. all the sleek moves, haha :D
i stoned for a total of TWO hours today. and i dont know what the heck i was waiting for, so yes, i sat on the canteen bench and stoned. watched ppl walk past me & go back to their secondary schools, and bang i cant go back to mine. so Boyfriend offered his secondary school visit to me. PeiRong was coming along, so yepp, i went.
cabbed down. and yes, i totally was OUT OF PLACE in queensway sec, hahas. Boyfriend was really nice, he accompanied me everywhere, even stayed wiv me when i refused to budge and all that. quite weird when we were walking ard and conversing all that, hahas. meeting ppl and they all asked the standard question, and i never had a clue as to who they are, and hehehs, ive forgotten all their names and faces alr, :D but i saw anqi ! :D yay, double yay. Boyfriend was quite sweet today, that i must admit. getting food for me, then accompanying me, walking me to my busstop & waiting for the bus wiv me. & all the things he said.
today was quite enjoyable, except for the super paiseh times when i dont know a single person in qwss, hehs. saw muzai there ! :D ohh, & i thot i saw ms chen, but cant confirm that it's her. hmmmms
sometimes i wonder alot about things, and im sorry Boyfriend that i kept saying im not thinking about anyth, when actually (just like you said) lots of thots were running through my mind. i just dont know how to talk about them, and im sure you wouldn't be happy hearing about them. but really, thanks for today. (if you ever saw this).
i asked one question, about my choice of jc & he was like "luckily you din put ac first choice, then i wouldnt have met you." perhaps this was all meant to be ? chatted wiv Pookie ytd, and i was feeling like shit about my choice of school and all that after i read someone's blog. and i was seriously feeling like shit. i din know why, but after today's chat wiv Boyfriend, i guess that jj as my first choice was meant to be ? hahas, ARRGH, forget it. imagine i din put jj as my first choice, i might not have met someone. hahas, like whatever.
im trying really hard alr, serious. and im sorry if ive EVER hurt you.
thank You Lord, for the colour green
throw me a lifeline
8:10 PM
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Wednesday, August 30, 2006
even the best falls down sometimes
even the stars refuse to shinei can't wait ! (:
and yes samantha foo, thankew for letting me be the first person, and thanks for writing that quite "long" paragraph for me, hahas :D
clickyes, yes.
it's still undoubtedly you.
throw me a lifeline
9:51 PM
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Tuesday, August 29, 2006
whatcha gna do wiv all that junki see someth on evelyn's blog..
5 random facts about me:
1) im a girl ! :D
2) i think rainbows are miracles.
3) i love reading, like heaps and tons and truckfulls.
4) i have really dumb moodswings, unexplained. it just hits me out of nowhere, and boom my face becomes black
5) seriously, i like studying. it's the doing questions that sucks.
5 things which scare me:
1) snails
2) injections
3) losing my Faith, and my friends
4) people who are pissed wiv me
5) failing my exams
5 songs I am listening to:
1) i
2) have
3) no
4) life
5) thus, it's been a long time since i've listened to songs. the most recent song that ive heard is the one that wong siok hui keeps singing. "heyyy, you ren qiao men !" (haha)
5 things I like:
1) tiggers (:
2) Sunnys ! (sunflowers, haha)
3) reading
4) greeeeeeen colour
5) a guy
5 things I say the most:
1) kiam pa
2) shut up lahh
3) retarded
4) no, im not okay, im karolyn !
5) hey ! i tell you someth !! (HELLO !) :D
5 people to do this:
1) sammie rammie foo !
2) manuela siya forster (or isit foster ? OH NO !)
3) mindy lover.
4) tan noi noi ! :p the oddest
5) stupidest gansss
i've gotten more and more used to life wivout you, and no thanks, i dont wna revert back. it's been great, even though the stabs of "vinegar" are still in me when i see you talking to her / her / her, hahas.
it's time to let go dude, so long, farewell (:
that's what im trying to convince myself, and obviously, it's not workingthank You Lord, for the letter "k"
throw me a lifeline
6:38 PM
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Sunday, August 27, 2006
my quizzes are crying out for me to do them, so can't blame me !
YOUR FRIENDSTER:
1) Is your display name from a song?:
ehh, nope
2) Do you have over 100 friends?:
yes i have
3) Do you have pictures of yourself?:
yepp
4) Do you get 1-3 comments every day?:
define comments, hahas. nope i dont.
WOULD YOU AND YOUR FRIENDS:
1) Sleep in the same bed?:
yes, definitely.
2) Rob a bank?:
i planned to rob one before okay !
3) Team up together and kill someone?:
yes ! we can use my surname as the weapon, hahas.
IN YOUR ROOM:
1) Do you have a wood floor or carpet?:
wooden floor
2) Are your walls painted bright colors?:
i wouldnt count pink and white bright colors.
3) Have art pieces on the walls?
YES, my art pieces :D the only ones that im proud of, hahas.
4) Do you have clothes on the floor?:
nope, my maid picks up after me
5) Do you have stuffed animals?:
yes i do.
6) Do you have a hidden stash of candy?:
nope, i have a hidden stash of cash though. :D
7) Do you have your own TV?:
im praying for one.
8) Do you have over 100 CDs?:
nope
9) Do you have a bunch of pictures of bands and celebrities?:
hahahahas, yes i do :D
WOULD YOU EVER:
1) sing a solo?:
if you want the glass to break.
2) Take an hour-long shower?:
if i have a bathtub
3) Smoke pot just to be cool?:
eew, no.
4) Spend all night on homework?:
like ive done it before.
DO YOU LIKE:
1) More than one person?:
uhh, yahh. i like all my friends.
2) Daisies?:
nope.
3) To get your nails done?:
yes i do, if i dont have to do it myself
4) Music?:
depends on the type of music
5) Black raspberry ice cream?:
havent tried one
6) The beach?:
yes !
7) Cats?
nope, i have a dog !
NOW
Is your hair up?:
down, i just bathed
Is your phone right beside you?:
no, it's somewhere buried under worksheets in my room.
Do you wish you were somewhere?:
yepp.
Are you cold?:
no, im karolyn
Are you excited?:
no, im karolyn
Are you watching t.v?:
no, im karolyn
Who's the last person you IM-ed?:
eeehhh, siok.
Recently done anything you regret?:
hmmmmmmmmm. nope.
Ever lied?:
like, duuh
Ever trip over your own feet?:
unfortunately for me, yes
Ever thrown up because you cried so hard?:
no way. i cried so hard because i threw up though.
THIS WEEK
Have any plans?:
study.
Have you yelled at someone?
yes
Have you cried?:
nope, i dont think so.
Have you called more than 3 people?:
duuh
Have you IM-ed more than 3 people?:
i think so
RANDOM
1. First thing you did this morning?:
open my eyes
2. What's something you look forward to in the next 6 weeks?:
exams to be over
3. What's annoying you right now?:
my mother's phone's ringing, hahas.
Name one person who is on your mind right now?
Samantha Foo.
Do you think your life has been good so far?
i guess so.
Where is the last place you went?
besides home ? school, yes i have no life.
Who is the last person you called?
my mom.
Who is the last person you texted?
siokhui
Other than yours where was the last house you slept at?
jjc.
Do you already have plans for this weekend?
this weekend is over
Ever cheated on anyone?
nope
Been cheated on?
yes
Have you ever thought that you were in love?
yes.
Do you look like your mom or dad?
funnily, i dont look like them
Do you have siblings?
yes.
Do you smile often?
i'd like to think so
Do you think that someone is thinking about you right now?
hahas, yes !
Could you be a vegetarian?
i wouldn't mind
Are you sentimental?
no, im karolyn
Ever thought someone was "the one"?
yepp.
Choose one to have (love, beauty, creativity)
love,thank you.
Do you wish on stars?
nope
Do you untie your shoes every time you take them off ?
nope
Would you kill someone?
yes
When did you last cry?
it's a very very good qns, i have NO idea
If you were making a movie about yourself, who would play you?
zac efron, okay im kidding. jennifer anniston please.
Have you ever met anyone famous?
yes, zac efron's my husband :D
Do you like your handwriting?
like no.
Who are you jealous of?
ashley tisdale, she had her arms around zac's waist !
Do you have any bad habits?
loads, thank you.
Are you a friendly person?
hahas, i'd like to think so.
If you were another person, would you be friends with you?
of cos !
Do looks matter?
at times
What is your favorite school subject?
pc. hahas
Are you keeping a secret from the world?
yes.
When was the last time you really cried your heart out?
i cant rmb
Ever cried yourself to sleep?
yes
What can make you happy?
tiggers
& sunflowers
& you.
What makes you the happiest?
tiggers & sunflowers & you.
throw me a lifeline
7:36 PM
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fate fell short this time
your smile fades in the summer
place your hand in mine
i'll leave when i wna
this place was never the same
after you came and went
how can you say you meant anyth different
to anyone standing alone
on the street wiv a cigarette
on the first night we met
look to the past & rmb a smile
maybe tonight i can breathe for awhile
im not in the seat, i think i've fallen asleep
but then all that it means
is i'll always be dreaming of you <
-roll eyes at no one in particular
i just felt like doing that
hahas, last night's conv was darn funny, it's been sucha long time Pookie.
& i still havent asked you the questions, much less msg/chat wiv you.
throw me a lifeline
11:24 AM
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Saturday, August 26, 2006
would you stop your dumb posts
you may hate the school, whatever, you think youre the only one
if you hate it so much, why VOLUNTEER to be a ------- ------ in the first place.
you can go and quit now, and stop rubbishing around.
you know being a ------ means you have to have responsibilities, to go for this & that in the first place, YOU KNOW, why bother complaining now huh !
your first post about ------ was alr pissing off enough.
stop seeing the bad, what about trying to see the good.
lousy attitude, bugger off.
stop judging.
what's your problem.
if you dont like the school, DONT be a ------.
throw me a lifeline
3:46 PM
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things i need to do real soon.
1 > study for promos.
2 > save up $$ for my adidas sneakers <3 my current hotpink nikes are dead beyond rescue.
3 >
and my cursor paused at 3, is there really noth for me to do ? my life is boring.
i keep stressing the need to study for promos yet im still here.
did i mention that i was snuggled in my bed for the past 3 hours reading a book ?
im getting this weird urge to pick up my chemistry file and all that, study study study.
oh yes,
3 > msg you / talk to you online, and ask my questions.
thank You Lord, for one day
throw me a lifeline
3:36 PM
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Friday, August 25, 2006
I can't remember the last time that we kissed goodbye
All our I love you's were just not enough to survive
Something your eyes never told me
But it's only now too plain to see
Brilliant disguise when you hold me
And I'm free
I've been thinking and here's what I've come to conclude
Sometimes the distance is more than two people can use
But how could I have known girl
It was time and not space you would need
Darling tonight I could hold you and you would know
But would you believe
There's a light in your eyes that I used to see
There's a place in your heart where I used to be
Was I wrong to assume that you were waiting for me
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me
Cards and phone calls and photograph pictures of you
Constant reminder of all the things you get used to
Is there a chance in hell or heaven
That there's still something here to build on
Or do you just pick up the pieces after they fall
But after all
There's a light in your eyes that I used to see
And a song in the words that you spoke to me
Was I wrong to believe in your melody
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me
Should I keep on waiting or does love keep on fading away
Fading away
It's been a while since I've seen you so how have you been
Did you get my letter I wrote you, but I did not send
I tried to call your old number
But the voice that I heard on the phone
I recognized but she told me the number was wrong
There's a light in my eyes but it's too bright to see
And a pain in my heart where you used to be
Guess I was wrong to assume that you were waiting here for me
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me
light in your eyes ; blessed union of soul.
i click with that song, for now.
like hello, your eyes are freaking nice, they are the reason im so smitten :D
each time i checked, there'll always be this "light" in them, deep inside i spotted the guy that you never portrayed out, the guy that is as -------- as me, the sad side of you. in fact if i had to use one word to describe you, it would have been "perfect". just the guy i would choose for a lifetime, but too bad, fate fell short, and youre not mine.
keep smiling dude, i saw one frown, and i wanted to go over and speak to you, but nope we're not like that anymore.
Subway was wonderful (:
Going home was fun (:
& i am darn short, no offence mr full exemption !
Mister P. (:
thank You Lord, for bleach
throw me a lifeline
10:41 PM
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Wednesday, August 23, 2006
(it starts wiv)
One thing
I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind
I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
All I know
time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It's so unreal
Didn't look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on
but didn't even know
Wasted it all just to
Watch you go
I kept everything inside and even though I tried
it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be
A memory of a time when I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
One thing
I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind
I designed this rhyme
To remind myself how
I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I'm surprised it got so (far)
Things aren't the way they were before
You wouldn't even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me
In the end
You kept everything inside and even though I tried
It all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be
A memory of a time when I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
And for all this
There's only one thing you should know
I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
And for all this
There's only one thing you should know
I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
in the end ; Linkin Park
i don't need a guy to survive.
i don't need to like someone to survive.
just like siyun said, don't have him still have them.
all i need are friends.
Happy Birthday Monkey Oo ! :D
throw me a lifeline
10:15 PM
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Sunday, August 20, 2006
now im a believer <
boooooooks ! (:
back from cousin's house, borrowed ahyi's books. like heaps of them, quadraple yay ! :D:D:D:D
a tip to everyone else, there's always one place that ups my mood no matter what, the LIBRARY. (obviously any one but the school library, like duuh)
so im off to bury my nose in them. my only worry, i read & read, and dont STUDY.
boyfriend ! seems like im gna need alot of eye massages from you huh, :P
p/s my OLDER brother has TEN ex-es. i thot i was bad enough.
nigely, study harderr ! still laugh at me last time when i got exam huh, now's my turn for revenge, but im such a good sis, i won't laugh, hahas :D
thank You Lord, for the word "clear"
throw me a lifeline
9:11 PM
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someone holds me safe and warm
horses prance through the silver storm
figures dancing gracefully
across my memoryi cant sleep. my eyes hurt though. massaging them like boyfriend instructed, still hurts anyhows.
p/s my boyfriend is not really my boyfriend, you get the drift, hahas :D but no matter what, he'll still be counted as a real one, i dont care, kowtows to ChengXun ! :D
quizzes > to those like oddball who dont like, dont read lohh, hehs :D
1. What kind of first impression do people think when they first see you?
why don't you ask them. i wouldnt know
2. What’s one thing you like to do alone?
read.
3. In love?
with tiggers, yes.
4. Whats your fav. drink?
pokka lemon tea, thank you !
5. Do you ever have to beg?
for what !
6. What kind of books do you like to read?
all types please, especially detective stuffs.
7. Do you think you’re cute?
nope.
8. Do you have a problem changing clothes in front of your friends?
female ones, nope.
9. Do you care?
about ?
11. What do you eat when you raid the fridge at night?
i dont raid the fridge at night
12. Describe your bed?
it's comfortable.
13. Do you know how to play poker?
i guess.
14. What do you carry with you at all times?
hmms, actually noth.
15. What do you miss most about being little?
you can do someth wrong, nobody can blame you.
you crack under stress, nobody can blame you.
you utter a word, everybody loves you.
16. Are you happy with your given name?
quite, i'll be majorly happy if there were TWO n.
17. How much would it take to give up the internet for 1 year?
if teachers dont mind me failing, no problem !
18. What color is your bedroom?
pink and white, sadly.
19. Have you ever been in a play?
yes
20. Do you like yourself and believe in yourself?
at times (:
21. Do you consider yourself to be a nice person?
i'd like to think so.
22. What’s 2 things you wish you could do but you can't ?
i wish i could have the courage to face our problem.
i wish i could ---- someone.
23. Where is your ideal marriage location?
at a church by the beach.
24. Whats one instrument you wish you could play?
seriously, the saxophone
25. Whats one language you want to learn?
seriously, thai.
26. What do you order at a bar?
drinks ?
26. Do you have a bar at home ?
a bar of chocolate, yes.
27. Have you ever pierced your body parts?
ears.
28. Do you have any tattoos?
i'd die.
29. Would you admit to getting plastic surgery if confronted?
yes.
32. What do you cook best?
noth. (: i cook noth best.
33. Do you cry in front of your friends?
when i have no choice.
34. Do you believe in forever?
nope, not really.
35. What is your favorite line to say when you’re drunk?
how would i know, havent been really drunk. i guess it's "IM NOT DRUNK"
GIRL-ISH
[] you wear lip gloss
[x] you shop
[] you wear eyeliner
[x] you buy different colored shirts
[x] wear halters and tube tops
total: 3
[] you dont like shopping at hot topic
[x] you wear the color pink
[] you consider cheerleading a sport
[] you hate wearing the color black
[] you love hanging at the mall
total: 1
[] you like getting manicures and/or pedicures
[x] you like wearing jewelery
[x] skirts are a part of your wardrobe
[] you take a long time doing your hair
[] shopping is one of your favorite hobbies
total: 2
[x] you hate the movie star wars
[x] you cry in movies
[x] you are/were in cheerleading, gymnastics, or dance
[] it takes you more than 1/2 hour to get dressed and put on other accesories
[x] you smile a lot more than u should
total: 4
Add them up, multiply them by 5
"I am 50% girlish" NOT BAD.
[x] you wear/own a pair of glasses
[] you've played some sort of video game 5 hours straight
[x] you have GI Joes or toy dinosours
[] you pack your lunch to school
[x] reading books is fun
[x] you go to the library to hang out
[] you get good grades
[x] you've corrected people's grammar
[x] math class rocks!
[x] you've told someone a joke and nobody laughed.
[] you like eating chinese food with chopsticks
[] you've won the spelling bee
[] girls/boys have cooties!
[x] you've watched t.v for 4 hours straight
[] sports are just not my thing
[x] you have/had a pet tarantula, snake, and/or lizard
[x] you cried because you got an F on something
[] your homework is ALWAYS turned in on time
[] your NEVER late for class
[] spiderman is the coolest superhero EVER!!!!! YA!!!!
[x] you corrected the teacher
[] you want to be a doctor or surgeon when you grow up
[] you have a napolean dynamite t-shirt
[] you always have a pen or pencil for class
[] you're an honor student
[] you've never cheated on a test/quiz
[x] I dont care about my looks...I have school work to worry about!
[] your in band
[x] you've tripped and fallen in the hallway
[] spiders and bugs are way cool!
ADD THEM ALL UP AND MULTIPLY BY 2.
"im 26% nerdy" NOT BAD !
Are u a girl or boy?
girl
Single or couple?
single
Wild or decent?
quite decent :D
Smoke or drink?
drink, water
Night or day?
day
School or work?
school
Black or white?
black
Short or tall?
for me, i think im short. but i like tall guys.
Dance or sing?
dance
Happiness or money?
it goes h-a-p-p-i and you know the rest.
RnB, Reggae, Rock, Metal, Techno?
errrrrrrm i dont know lehhs.
Choose one. Ur dream bf/gf.
Dark or fair?
dark
Short or tall?
taller than me
Fat or thin?
six pac ! :D
Caring or understanding?
understanding
Rich or poor?
rich enough to support me.
Play any sports or not?
must.
cute or handsome?
cute.
Jc, Poly or ITE?
jc preferably
Gentle or rough?
gentle
Restaurant or coffeeshop?
anywhere wiv closure
Beach or arcade?
beach
Hilarious/shy or Romantic/sweet?
hilarious/shy/romantic/sweet, hehs.
The truth. Choose one. Yes or No?
Can u live without ur family?
no
Dare to kiss a stranger?
yes
Kicked someone ass before?
yes
Scolded ur teacher?
no
Cheated on examinations or tests?
yes
Wish that a celebrity is yours?
yes
Spent so much only on 1 thing?
yes
Hit yourself on the wall?
yes
Wish that ur ex was dead?
yes
Wish that ur bf/gf is here with u?
YES. boyfriend says he wna massage my eyes.
Wish that u can fly?
yes
Wish that u were dead?
yes
Wish u get back with ur ex?
last time, yes. now, no.
Wish that u are famous?
no.
Describe this survey.
it's normal.
1. Favourite sports?
netball. & swimming. & netball.
2. Having difficult time with your schedule?
YES. like i end at FIVE everyday ?
3. Who made you smile today?
BOYFRIEND ! :D
4. What's your favourite tv channel?
disney channel !
5. Do you like to receive smses?
at times
6. Who do you like to chat with the most?
Pookie. honestly.
7. Last person to greet you goodnite?
boyfriend !
8. The ones you still love?
fairfield buddies ):
9. What was ur last arguement about?
errrr. wiv the photography club teacher about the standing of a photographer.
10. Do you feel any regrets of letting go of someone?
nope.
11. What song r u listenin right now?
no song. please it's past 1am in the morning.
12. Who made your last testimonials?
jacinda if im not wrong
13. Who do you think loves you so much?
God.
14. Any heartfailure?
nope
15. The first person in your phonebook?
adrian.
16. Ever been fooled?
yes
17. Whats the best thing about your bro/sis?
im their sister ! :D
18. Whats your activities the next day?
cousin's house
19. Plain or peanut coated?
PEANUT COATED !
20. PLEASE BE HONEST, UR IN LOVE WITH WHO?
God
21. The most unforgettable day.. date.. and why?
31st july, monday. (: that's for me to know & for you to NOT find out.
1. Are you wearing a necklace?
nope
2. Does your computer have a mouse?
yes
4. Do you like school?
at times
5. What color is your shirt?
blue
7. What song are you listening to?
no song
8. What was the last mall you've been to?
far east plaza.
9. Are you alone?
yes
10. Do you have any older siblings?
yes
11. What was the last thing you ate?
food.
12. Who was the last person to come over to your house?
my brother.
13. Who was the last person to call you?
my mom
14. Who was the last person who texted you?
boyfriend
15. What time is it?
1.52am
16. What should you be doing?
sleeping
17. Who was the last person you PMed?
no one
18. Did you go out to eat yesterday?
nope
19. What are you thinking about right now?
the answer to this question
20. What color are your pants?
black
21. What color is your keyboard?
white and blue
22. What do you feel like eating/drinking?
water
23. Are you in college?
junior, junior college
24. What is the last word you wrote on paper?
development, if im not wrong.
25. Are you bored?
nope, im karolyn
26. How many teeth do you have?
i dont bother to count.
28. Do you wear glasses?
at times
29. What color are your shoes?
which one
31. Last thing you drank?
water
34. Who do you love?
God
35. What are you doing right now?
THIS ?
37. What are you looking at now?
the screen
38. What's the last words you said?
out loud? i said no
39. Do you have lip gloss on?
nope
40. Do you have eyeliner on?
eeew, no
41. Did you realize there was no question number 36?
yes
42. Do you have an injury (cut, bruise, bump, etc.) anywhere on your body?
I HAVE BLISTERS AND SKIN TEARS
43. Where is your cell phone?
beside me, i was msging boyfriend, but he went to see me in his dreams
44. Do you have any friends named Robby?
nope
46. Do you have any friends named Nikki?
nope
47. Are you afraid of the dark?
nope
48. Did you use to watch "Are you afraid of the dark?
nope
49. Do you like someone right now?
yes
50. What size shoe are you?
6 if im not wrong
this should be enough. night all (:
throw me a lifeline
1:56 AM
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where'd you go
i miss you so
seems like it's been forever
that you've been goneclara bombarded me in school today. i thot for what. she told me someth that made me quite high :D
ushering was quite alryyt, except that my feet are now missing a few layers of skin and BURSTED blisters are all around it. (i know there's no such word as bursted, my angmoh is good !) hehs. i loved the so-called "jj nite" :D darn fun. went high wiv my boyfriend. hehs, and we went around spreading the news that we are tgt, like no one believe us lehh, which is quite obvious why not. hahas. sweated like a pig (though im not one), imagine going high, jumping around, running and all that in BLAZER & LONG-SLEEVE white shirt. thankfully i didn't wear stockings, but not thankfully my court shoes injured my feet like i-dont-know-what.
had a good long chat wiv Mr Fong about physics lessons, a good guy really (: hehs. thankful for teachers like that.
stood around to watch the show. dammit i was supposed to dance mass dance wiv my boyfriend lahh ! ): & mutton balls rock (: whee~ they dance like darn good lahh. harrison is DARN sleeeek ! (: (have you seen his bod, it spells h-o-t ! )
okay enough about all that, i needta rush written report.
it's a sunny Hello Panda day
do the Hello Panda, the Panda way
if you're feeling Hello, come on and groove
to the Hello Panda groove
na na na na !
(my Hello Panda song :D good right !)
thank You Lord, for i love yous
throw me a lifeline
12:19 AM
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Saturday, August 19, 2006
would you believe it ? my 454th post. hahas, i din know i have this blog for so long.
there we go. to the class i miss the most, 4c (:
& to the girls i miss the most, Snow & Dwarves. (: stay over !
oh btw, click wasn't as nice as everybody said it would be. the ending was quite expected, but man i still cried. watched free movie, bought new earstuds, yummy (:
just received lg10's contact list, my Hello Panda provider's birthday is today ! fancy that, maybe i shud buy a Hello Panda back for him... hehs. nonetheless, happy birthday darryl !
oh and btw, im over all that mess. just like ah geok said, if it's mine, it's mine. if it's not mine, GET LOST. hahas :D nah, just kidding. if we're meant to be, we'll be tgt eventually. if we're not meant to be.. mian qiang shi mei you xin fu de. yepp. prayed hard, and i got that kinda mentality. at least i got some shou huo.
i screwed up common test reallll badly.
A C E E ? looking at my term two grades, like A A A C, notice the BIIIGGG difference ? like crap i needa start studying. for sure, GP is a big screw up, if i even get ONE mark for the AQ question, i'd thank azah, that pathetic.
p/s i passed physics ! triple yay ! :D:D:D
thank You Lord, for vanilla flavour
throw me a lifeline
9:49 AM
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Friday, August 18, 2006
so i'll say why don't you & i
get tgt & take on the world
& be tgt forever
heads we will & tails we'll try again
so i'll say why don't you & i
hold each other & fly to the moon
& straight on to heaven
cos wivout you they're never gna let me inand yes, that's what im feeling now.
drenched, dead tired. nope it's not becos of that, it's cos of netball. i've waited so long to finally touch that ball, play that game. and man i suck at it. ): fell on my knee & it being alr spoiled in the first place, i screwed it up real bad. continued playing, i WANTED to play. now freak, it hurts like real bad, shit. but im strong. i'll be strong !
lao er if youre seeing this, i said hi. hahas, just felt like doing that shout out.
& Mindy Ness Sherri Sam if youre seeing this. I MISS YOUUUU ! ): it sucks so much not to have my darlings to pour my troubles out to. i miss youuuu !
& Charmaine Cheryl Christina Joy Jiayee Mesy Olivia if youre seeing this. I MISS YOUUUU too ! it sucks not to have you all around in my class. i miss you girls loads ):
& Manu if youre seeing this. HELLO ! :D i miss you toooo ! :P
the worst way to miss someone, is to be beside him & knowing you can't have himhello dude, im missing you in the worst way ever.
thank You Lord, for deep heat
throw me a lifeline
9:36 PM
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Wednesday, August 16, 2006
disclaimer, i miss my Fairfield Buddies.
i got pissed for the dumbest reason, twice somemore today.
i said the F-word twice somemore.
wrong, very wrong.
i came home & i slammed my bag on to my bed, then i looked at my table, and i saw my packet of Hello Panda, whee~ my mood shot up immediately. Hello Panda rocks ! (: okay, quite retarded, but that's me !
clicking wiv nigel the pig, sometime soon. that lucky ass has study leave on thursday AND friday. (might i stress the and !)
do you prefer to sleep or talk to a friend when it gets boring in class?
; depends on how tired i am.
do you wave hi with a smile or a serious face?
; depends on my mood duuh.
one thing that you like about your house?
; has me in it :D
if you were left with five months to live, what would you do?
; live.
what is your favourite brand of shoes?
; adidas, hehs.
the last time you cried because of someone?
; today.
chocolate ice cream or chocolate bar?
; icecream !
rudest thing you have done to your teacher?
; pointed middle finger ?
what's the good thing about schooling?
; got me :D
the first thought when going to tampines mall?
; so faaaarr
the last song you downloaded?
; errr, loong time ago lehhs, cant rmb nia.
which part of your body is itchy and aching now?
; heart, no need to explain.
worms or cockroaches?
; i prefer cockroaches. worms are like sn**ls wivout shells, EEEW.
punk rock or slow rock?
; slow.
yawn with your eyes open or closed?
; i dont care, your mouth covered can le.
if you can have a choice, would you prefer to be friends or attached with someone you love now?
; i dont know, seriously.
i wna sleeeeeep.
but im sorry to you & you.
throw me a lifeline
9:22 PM
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Tuesday, August 15, 2006
i guess that someone's true colours come out after some time.
Dearly Departed, i miss you. Hope you're enjoying your stay up there with our Father. there wouldn't be one day where i wouldn't wonder what would happened if i bothered to learn cantonese, would we be closer ? would i appreciate you more ? but no matter what, Thank You for memories, I Love You.
Darryl bought me Hello Panda today ! :D Yummy Yummy ! (i saved alot of his lives during double whacko during leaders' camp, he owes me !) oh yes talking about Darryl, and Hello Pandas, he very nicely bought me a chocolate one when there wasnt any vanilla one, then when i went to the canteen i saw the vanilla one, and he secretly when to buy for me. so nice righttt ! :D it's a Sunny Hello Panda Day ! :D (thats my Hello Panda song ! whee~)
and Pookie helped my carry my blazer + white long sleeve + court shoes around today ! :D whee~
Ah Siok just told me she wna buy Paul Frank watch. i read as she wna buy Paul, haha !
done wiv EoM, major PHEW
& WHO NEVER REMIND ME TMR GOT GP COMMON TEST ? major POUT.
i need sleep, that's a comment.
i need to be strong, that's a thought.
i need God, that's a confirmation.
i need Hello Panda, that's an addiction.
i need you, that's a drug.
i love sleep, that's being piggy.
i love to be strong, that's being choiceless.
i love God, that's being Faithful.
i love Hello Panda, that's being weird.
i love you, that's being idiotic.
na na na na na na ~ time to do a quiz ! (okay ?)
1) Single, Taken, or Crushin?
Crushing if you put i that way
2) Are you happy with who you are?
at times i am, at times i feel irritated wiv why i am like that
3) When you meet the right person, do you fall fast?
i havent met the right person, so i dont know
4) Have you ever had your heart broken?
yepp, duuh.
5) Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating is acceptable?
hahas, sadly yes.
6) Would you ever take someone back if they cheated on you?
depends on how much my feelings are
7) Have you talked about marriage with another?
yes i have
8) Do you want children?
yes i do
9) How many?
2, thank you.
10) Would you consider adoption?
if i dont get married or cant give birth, yes
11) If somebody liked you right now, what do you think a cool way to let you know would be?
giving me a tigger & a sunflower and write me a note :D
12) Do you enjoy playing hard to get?
no, im quite easy to get actually. unless i dont like you.
13) Be honest, do you play the "game" when you are dating?
what game.
14) Do you believe in love at first sight?
yes i do
15) Are you romantic?
i'd like to think so.
16) Do you believe that you can change someone?
i'd like to believe so.
17) If you could get married anywhere, money not an object, where would it be?
in a church by a beach
18) Do you easily give in when you are fighting?
nope, no way.
19) Do you have feelings for someone right now?
yes i do.
20) Have you ever wished you could've had someone but you messed it up?
yepp, now's the time
21.) Have you ever broken a heart?
i wouldn't like to think so.
22.) Would you ever fight somebody over your significant other?
nope. if he's mine he's mine.
-waves goodbye.
throw me a lifeline
9:30 PM
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Monday, August 14, 2006
"i miss your absence"
-Paul Lim Chee Tung (or otherwise known as Chicken Little, or Ji Tang (chicken soup))
said just after i waved the gang goodbye after lunch at KFC ytd. HaHa.
sick after the Leaders' Camp.
vomitted out my lunch, so taadaaa im home.
my head's pounding, my stomach's whirling, my throat's killing, my knee's aching.
thankyou thankyou. this always happens after camps. i wonder why.
but on a much lighter note, Leaders' Camp was much more fun than i expected it to be.
in lg10, we had much fun (: the thing i miss the most is ballroom dancing ! & went super high on the second night. ahh wells, i cant say much about the Leaders' Camp, my head's having a bitchfit on me. Pookie's been nice and bearable hearing me complaining about all the shit my body's going through. i think it's time i go get a mc. yepp.
my handphone's calling out for a charger, but i cant seem to rmb where the heck i threw my charger too. my goshhhh, i better change that bad habit of mine.
and yes, i still miss you, even after the camp.
thank You Lord, for letting us get high
throw me a lifeline
11:10 AM
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Thursday, August 10, 2006
there pictures from Sentosa & Orchard (:
those days were wonderful, love you all !
see no evil, hear no evil, speak no evil.
i seriously think we all look retarded in it, hehs :D
we went up and down the escalator wuper alot of times to get a perfect shot, hahas.
neos ! (:
courtesy of paul ! (:
on the way to Sentosa !! :D
Thanks for the Video, you Pok ! (:
N bro's fishing' Co. // Kapok. says:
as a person feeling shitty yesterday i wanted to cheer another person feeling shitty up
i guess sometimes, it's okay to feel bad & shitty & all that. that's when the friends around you pop out of nowhere, and the person you least expect to cheer you up is there for you.
currently talking to 3 retarded people online, hahas, my face is aching wiv smiling now, thank you Lord (:
things happen when you least expect them to. (:
thank You Lord, for laughter
throw me a lifeline
9:43 PM
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Wednesday, August 09, 2006
to sound bright and cheery ; ive got green fingernails & black toenails, ups my day loads.
who would have thought, the chat brought a smile to my face, thank you Nigel the Pig :p who would have thought that we would be feeling like shit over the same dam thing, oscar the grouch says hi & he doesnt miss you one bit, he likes living in tigger's honey pot at my home :p
there's someth going on between us, is there ?
or am i only zi zuo duo qing ? (see, a cheng yu, whee)
is it even referring to me, or am i just thinking what i want to think.
i guess there's a silver lining to everyth. i'm trying to see the silver part. but i promise i'll have fun during leaders' camp, even if ......
i'll leave a blank, you'll fill in the rest.i feel that my life is shit. im feeling like shit actually.
like
fcuk, im sad.
but no matter what, i promise there'll be a smile, there'll always be one for you.
adapted from Desiree.
Not Hey God, i've got a Big Problem.
But Hey Problem, i've got a Big God.
Lord, im trusting You, i always will be, this is all part of Your masterplan. is this what You want me to do, is this what You want me to feel, is this what You want me to learn from ? Lord, i'm Yours. Now & Forever.
learn to look at things in a new perspective, perhaps then life wouldnt be that hard to live. But with God in my life, there'll always be a good perspective no matter from what angle. yet why am i feeling so shitty.
p/s i miss you, yes i do.
we live by Faith & not by Sight
throw me a lifeline
9:24 PM
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there's someth shitty about blogger, can't upload pics.
so geok & siok, if youre want the neos, i send to you online kay.
throw me a lifeline
2:48 PM
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Tuesday, August 08, 2006
we're still alive
but hope just diedthat line just signifies how i feel about it now. seriously, was it my fault ? i dont know what happened, but i WANT to know. what's wrong ? it's never been like that before. & ive never felt even more worse ): im sorry, if i did or said anyth wrong, truly sorry. i dont get your nick, nope.
towned wiv siok & geok today.
bussed home wiv siok, seriously thot about it. perhaps now i can't rely it to just fate, if i want it, i should do someth. but i cant, i just dont know why & how to do it. i wish you would do someth wiv it, instead of just giving up wivout doing anyth. siok said she can feel that you're restraining yourself, i guess that i can feel it too. why do you do it ? i dont get anyth. maybe it's just that we dont have ---- --- bahhs.
we can make it work, can we ?
i guess.. i'll know it this friday. you turn up, it means yes. you dont, it means no. (: yepp, i'll take it like that, but whatever, youre not gna see this anw.
im sorry dude, you were perfect, just not MY perfect. p0os.
youre more than a crush.
you are my sugar rush.
throw me a lifeline
11:25 PM
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Saturday, August 05, 2006
it is always the same routine.
someth happens that makes you so determined that you say to yourself "this will be the last time, i WILL forget about him this time." & the next moment he does someth that is so nice that you fall even further down the pit you are determined to climb out of. soon, someth happens again, and you SWEAR that this is THE time that you'll forget about him, and the next moment he does someth nice again and you broke what you swore...
and the cycle goes on and on and on.
arent you getting bored, no ?
arent you getting sick of it, no ?
im sorry for being so dumb & petty & hurtful & ignorant & blahh. BUT THAT'S THE WAY I AM.
Happy Birthday Kuinoi ! oddestestest !
thank You Lord, for kian, mich, edmund, (& soon to be er sao), ber (& soon to be jie fu), and hongming (who is NEVER there for gatherings)
throw me a lifeline
5:58 PM
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Friday, August 04, 2006
010806maths020806chem030806lit040806phy4 down, promos to go.
im so glad that i changed my mind & went for founders' day ytd. the physics test was super freakin' hard that all the studying in the world would be no point. so yepp, thank God i went. hahas, i called Pookie for 33 minutes plus plus to in the end decide im not going. then at 7.24pm i had the urge to go, so i grabbed my stuffs and rushed down.
my life is acutally quite boring. and yes, Karolyn is actually quite weird at times.
got a new eye-candy, told Evelyn and the next thing she did was "------ ! Karo thinks youre cute !" -pokes you. :p
thank You Lord, for mini teevees
throw me a lifeline
10:56 PM
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Thursday, August 03, 2006
010806maths020806chem030806lit040806phy
3 down, 1 to go.
p/s im not going for founders' day. i dont know if im doing the right thing here. ive been feeling like shit since the start of the day. im feeling even more shitty now when i told my mom "ma, i dont feel like going" & she said okay lohh, dont go ! and that finalised everyth. i feel like shit now.
thank You Lord, for breakfasts
throw me a lifeline
4:56 PM
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freak. today's the day & now im having regrets.
should i go for founders' day ? should i should i ?
if i go, i'll most probably flunk physics.
if i don't, i'll most probably get a D ?
should i should i ?
listing down my reasons for going, the most tempting reason for me to go is, to see you for most probably the last time. & of cos to catch up wiv all the fairsians (:
listing down my reasons for not going, the most tempting reason for me not to go is, i wna study to get my full exemption. & of cos i also dont wna see you again. what a contradiction.
on a lighter & much more random note, i love Hello Panda, the cream flavour (: it rocks. & of cos my beloved Sausage McMuffin with Egg. (:
breakfasting with Pookie later, McMuffin, here i come !
im timing how long i can use the computer. i have 4 more mins left, hahas. it's a good way y'know. (:
oh yes, very importantly,
Happy Birthday Olivia Leee ! :D
thank You Lord, for letting me be age 17
throw me a lifeline
9:12 AM
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Wednesday, August 02, 2006
i'll kiss you
& nobody has to knowit's time to do someth that i like (:
Q: NAME A FRIEND WHO'S NAMES STARTS WITH A "S"
A: Sharon
Q: 4TH PERSON ON YOUR MISSED CALLS:
A: 65634465, no idea who's that
Q: WHAT DID THE LAST TEXT MESSAGE YOU RECEIVED SAY?:
A: Night cutie. Cya. YES, im a cutie :D
Q: DO YOU CHEW ON YOUR STRAWS?
A: yes :D
Q: DO YOU HAVE CURLY HAIR?
A: in a way, yes :D
Q: WHAT IS THE NEXT CONCERT YOURE GOING TO?
A: founders' day service counted ?
Q: WHOS THE COOLEST PERSON IN YOUR LIFE?
A: Joe, who once said, "im not hot, im cool !"
Q: WHAT WORDS DO YOU SAY A LOT?
A: okay lohh. act cute. retarded. weirdo. kuku. hehs.
Q: WHAT IS THE LAST THING YOU ATE:
A: nasi lemak (:
Q: WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU SAID TO SOMEONE AND WHO WAS IT?
A: "Don't Miss Me !" to ber, yueqi, denise, zhiming, edmund, banhao.
Q: DO YOU WATCH TV?
A: yes i do !
Q: HAVE YOU SEEN THE MOVIE DONNIE DARKO?
A: never even heard of it.
Q: EVER BEEN HUNTING?
A: nope, i dont like to kill animals.
Q: IS MARRIAGE IN YOUR FUTURE?
A: i'd like to think so.
Q: WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAID, "I LOVE YOU" AND MEANT IT?
A: o0oh. in my prayer to someone.
Q: WHAT SHOULD YOU BE DOING RIGHT NOW?
A: reading great expectations
Q: DO YOU HAVE A NICKNAME?
A: loads.
Q: DO YOU BELIEVE IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT?
A: yes i do.
Q: WHO'S THE YOUNGEST ONE IN THE FAMILY ?
A: my younger brother.
Q: IS DRUG FREE THE WAY TO BE?
A: OF COS.
Q: ARE YOU A HEAVY SLEEPER?
A: nope, im karolyn. hahas. okay, yes i am !
Q: DO YOU CLEAN UP NICE?
A: no i clean up ugly. actually i dont understand the question
Q: LAST TIME YOU USED A SKATEBOARD?
A: sec 2 ? my uncle bought one for my bro.
Q: WHERE WAS THE LAST PLACE YOU SLEPT BESIDES YOUR HOUSE?
A: the library :D
Q: EVER RUN OUT OF GAS ON THE ROAD?
A: nope. i dont work on gas, i work on muscles. :D
Q: BEST MOVIE YOU'VE SEEN IN THE PAST TWO WEEKS?
A: i HAVENT watched a movie in the past two weeks.
Q: DO YOU THINK PEOPLE WHO COME UP WITH BRAIN DEAD QUIZZES ARE CRYING FOR HELP IN SOME TWISTED WAY?
A: nope. definitely not
Best
1. Male friend: Joe
2. Female: Samantha
3. Vacation: ChiangRai trip
2. Day of the week: i dont know :D
3. Food: sausage mcmuffin wiv egg, yums !
4. Memory: that's a secret !
Last
1. Person you saw: alot of people lehh.
2. Talked to on the phone: good question.
3. Hugged: ber
4. Person u texted: Pookie
Today
1. Is: Wednesday
2. Got any plans: Sleep, Read G.E AND study physics
3. Goal: To go to sleep early
4. Dislikes about tomorrow: lit exam.
Favorites
1. Number(s): 19
2. Song: current craze over "jian jian dan dan"
3. Color: green.
4. Season: the season of GSS.
Currently
1. Missing someone: i guess so
2. Mood: Tired
True or False
I am a morning person: Quite true, but Quite false also
I am a perfectionist: Not Really
I am an only child: I Wish.
I am currently in my pajamas: Nope
I am currently single: Yes
I am online 24/7: Nope
I am very shy around the opposite gender: Nope
I can be paranoid at times: Yes
I currently regret something that I have done: Nope, not really.
I enjoy talking on the phone: Yes, but no one calls me
I have a lot to learn: Of Cos
I have a secret: Du-uh.
Gaelan is lucky. Get to skip Common Test. just because of
ONE PIMPLE. one stinking pimple. boooo.
throw me a lifeline
1:57 PM
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2 down, 2 to go.
thank You Lord, for data booklets
throw me a lifeline
1:49 PM
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Tuesday, August 01, 2006
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1 down, 3 to go.
thank You Lord, for calculators
throw me a lifeline
3:56 PM
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