Friday, July 07, 2006
there might never be a sign
no flashing neon light
telling you to make your move
or when the time is rightmy current craze :
ain't he cute ? :D
my self-proclaimed future husband, yes yes. (:
zacary david alexander efron !
soo, civics ytd was talking about qualities of your future life partner. i mean who havent thot of that ? the qualities we all desire of our future life partner is the same. trustworthy, faithful, honest, nice, kind, caring, looks good, blahblah. sure, that is definitely what i want in my future life partner, but that kinda model dudes are way extinct. to be more practical, i just want him to love me as much as, or even more than, i love him. but now, that's even hard to find. is it that hard ? maybe i should be like my kor. he tells me that he's not getting married (which means lesser angpows for me ): ). i wonder why. after each failed relationship, many of us fear getting into another one & falling without him catching us again. me too, definitely, but so why do i still say yes each time an invite comes along ? (an invite that ive been waiting for that is) pffts. i don't get me at times, i don't ):
the doctor's predict that she's goinng to die soon. hospitalised for the second time due to heart failure. the doctor's aren't going to try to revive her when she dies the next time. i sure hope the news come to me when im in school, i so hate crying in front of my family, shit. for my birthday this year, she still gave me an angpow. she still gave me money to buy my duck leg. i'll never forget how visits to her have changed over the years. i used to now only how to greet her, that's all, conversations was always made through my mother. now i can at least speak a few sentences wiv her, yes. i used to kiss & hug her each time i left, now "byebye !" it's all i do before gladly leaving. notice the word gladly, i can't believe it. there are many things i take for granted in life, and now i realised i took for granted that she'll live forever, instead, now, she'll leave forever.
you don't know what you had til it's gone. & now it made me realise that no one can live forever. i love you. i do.
one today, hokay, maybe two then.
[] I'm afraid of silence.
[] I Talk A LOT when I get really nervous.
[] I am really ticklish.
(only when attacked by surprise)[]I'm afraid of the dark.
[] I'm afraid of facing my back to open doors at night.
[]I can't sleep in a room if the door is open
[]I can't sleep in a room if the door is closed
[] I am afraid of gay or lesbian people.
(i have gay friends, for example, bryan lim sheng. i have lesbian friends, for example, samantha foo, so nope im not afraid xD)[x] I believe in true love.
[] I've run away from home
[] I listen to political music
(there's such things as political music?)[] I collect comic books
[x] I shut others out when I'm sad.
[x] I've stayed out all night
[x] I open up to others easily.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[] I watch the news
[] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I love Disney movies.
(HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL, starring my future husband <3)[x] I am a sucker for green eyes.
[x] I am a sucker for brown eyes.
[x] I am a sucker for blue eyes.
i am a sucker for nice eyes xD[x] I dont kill bugs
[x] I curse.
when im angry, du-uh[] I have an "x" in my screen name.
[x] I've slipped and fell in public.
[x] I've slipped out a "lol" in a real conversation
[] I love Spam
what's spam ?[] I bake well
i don't like kitchens. i cant crack open an egg ![] I have worn pajamas to class.
[] I have owned something from Abercrombie.
[] I want a better job
[x] Talked on a phone for 6+ hours.
[] I love Dr. Phil.
whossat ?[] I like multiple people
[] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I am self-conscious.
[x] I love to laugh.
[] I have smoked a pack in one day.
[] I loved Lord of the Flies.
wassat ?[] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[] I can't swallow pills.
[] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I love chocolate.
[x] I bite my nails.
i've stopped though :D unless my nails have to be short & i suay suay dont have nail cutter[] I am not comfortable with being me.
[] I play computer games when I'm bored.
[x] Gotten lost in the city.
although Singapore is small, i am guilty of that, OKAY.[x] Thought of suicide before.
[] Seen a shooting star.
[] Had a menage a trois.
wassat ?[] Gone out in public in my pajamas
[] Have kissed someone really strange
[] Hugged a stranger.
[] Been in a bloody fist fight with someone of a diff. sex.
[x] Been in a fist fight
wiv my younger brother, yes[] Been arrested.
[] Laughed and had some type of beverage come out of my nose.
[x] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[] made out in an elevator.
[] Swore at Liberace.
[] Kicked a guy where it hurts on purpose
[] Been skydiving.
[] Been bungee jumping.
[] Gotten stitches.
[x] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
[x] Bitten someone
[] Been to Niagara Falls.
[x] Gotten the chicken pox.
[] Crashed into a car alarm went off
[x] been to Japan.
for one night. cos had to change flights, dumbb.[x] Ridden in a taxi.
[] shoplifted
[] Been fired.
[x] Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
(a crush on a teacher, hehs)[] Stole something from your job.
[] Gone on a blind date
[x] Had a crush on a teacher/coach.
[] Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[] Been to Europe.
[] Slept with a co-worker, and/or employee.
[] been to New York
[] Been married
[] Gotten divorced
[] Saw someone/something dying.
[] Have a list of people you want to kill.
[] Driven over 400 miles in one day.
[] Been to Canada.
[x] Been on a Plane.
[] Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[] Thrown up in a bar or club
[x] Eaten sushi.
[] Been snowboarding.
[] Continued to care for someone sooo much even though you know you can't have them
[x] taken a picture just for the sole purpose of putting it on myspace/friendster..
[x] Been ice skating
[x] Cried in public.
[] Walked purposely into traffic with your eyes closed.
[x] been at a party and instead of giving out your phone number you give them your myspace name and say look me up
[x] liked someone even though you knew you shouldn't have.
teacher ? :D a crush)[x] Thought of someone a lot lately.
[x] Hate the world.
[] Love someone who doesnt/didnt realize it
[] have your cell phone permanently attached to your hand/hip
[x] cried over a guy/girl you didnt even go out with.
1. Never in my life i: - got married
2. The last person i kissed was: - my dog, luckee
3. The one person who can drive me nuts, but then can always manage to make me smile is: - Pookie. seriously drive me crazyyy, but makes me laugh, weirdly.
4. The high school I go to is: - Jurong Junior.
5. When i'm nervous i: - get butterflies in my tummy.
6. The last time I cried was: - when i heard she's in the hospital again.
7. My hair: - is black
8. When I was 5, I: - was 5 :D
9. My Christmas last year: - was the day i said yes, & then said no.
10. When I turn my head right, I see: - piano scores
11. I should be: - a boy. im so chor lor.
12. When I Look Down I See: - the floor ? -.-"
13. The craziest recent event was: - HE GOT A GIRLFRIEND, WHAT THE HELL.
14. By this time next year: - i'll be mugging for A's :D
15. I love: - sunflowers & tiggers
16. I have a hard time understanding: - myself.
17. I feel like: - a pig. okay that didnt sound right, but what the heck.
18. You know I like, if you: - catch me STARING at you.
19. Take my advice: - there can't be any rainbow wivout any rain. & when the door of happiness closes, another opens, but often times we look too long at the closed door to see the one that has been opened for us.
20. My ideal breakfast is: - nothing.
21. If you date me out: - you must be a guy.
22. Soon I plan to: - answer the next question
23. If you spend the night at my house: - lights out at 10pm xD
oh yes, before i forget, Bryan Lim Sheng is 17 years & 1 day old today. i drew a tortoise & an angel for him :D i bought him cake & icecream. & he's a small fry to me :D & he called me piggy ! (at least he said i was sweet, hehs) & i don't know what this paragraph is for.
thank You Lord, for oppurtunities.
throw me a lifeline
4:04 PM
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