Monday, May 01, 2006

sometimes when we touch
the honesty's too much <

have you ever felt that you hate your parents?
as in really really hate them?
well, try having mine for one day. try having my father.
trust me, once you know the truth behind my father, you will thank God for yours.

fcuk.
im sorry, i just had to say that out. it's awfully stressful here & its these fcuking times that i wished for someone to be there. but no one truly hears my tears, no one truly understands my pain. at least no one yet.

is it really unlike me to sit & frown? is it really not me when i shed tears of anguish, when i just plainly need someone there? it seems that way. im expected to smile and joke and lame about. i just realised that im totally changed. in fairfield its normal when you see me shed a tear but in jj, it's weird if i dont laugh. hmms. have i really changed?

thanks hanyang. im sorry for venting it all on you. im so sorry. but i seriously feel like fcuk now, & youre e only one i dare to say that word to. im sorry yes. ):


there was nothing more than i assumed it to be is it?


i need icecream now. i need chocolate now.
how great that i have NONE. ):
fcuk that.


ISNT ANYONE TRYING TO FIND ME
DOESNT ANYONE HEAR MY SREAMS















thank You Lord, for tears

throw me a lifeline
9:21 PM

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