Tuesday, February 21, 2006

i like the way you never sleep
and the promises you never keep <


-sigh.
its been ogl stuff and homeworks for me. i quite like the concept of studying now, and im really trying hard to stay up and awake during lessons, and i mean lectures too. well except for econs, which im currently ponning, =D.

dam im exhausted, but what the hell, my book's super engrossing, i almost couldnt bear to put it down to do homework. <33, nicholas sparks, the rescue. its been sucha long time since i read loveydovey stories like this, not that its really loveydovey, ahh, what the heck, im absolutely making no sense.

ogl camp's approaching, and i weirdly feel like just quitting it. yea well, majority always wins, and i have to learn to tolerate stuffs like that, wth, i just dont really fancy it. i dont know what i want anymore, acjc? jjc? normal student? ogl? letting go? holding on?

ive realised many stuffs recently, and i realised keeping things to yourself is always the best. (: luckily i have my diary to really write things out, or maybe i should password this thang, hmm.

gaelan gu finally relented and stopped torturing me (: i know his lil secret finally, but what the hell, i knew it like since last year, but he confirmed it wiv me, and he's still the best... the best lab partner ! =D. shit lahh, i was so looking forward to this saturday, maybe it was really just fate huh gu.

shit this is really random, ahh what the hell, i dont like computers and handphones and tvs, they're all so distracting. i just wna sit in my room read my book and suck on my octopus lollipop <3 -i love. (:

dont you just wish that sometimes time would stop for you to take a break and then catch up. i really wna know what my future holds for me. do i meet mr perfect? will i get kids? will i really be a teacher? do i work my butt off for a's or just hecked it? ahh, whats all this talk about mr perfects? maybe i should give relationships a break, after all, 7 is more than enough, but i dont even recall 7, i only remember 2, what shit is this? what shit is perfect? closure just reminds me of you, long fingernails just keeps me plucking, a perfect laughter a perfect smile, that perfect day we watched a perfect show in a perfect setting where you were perfect. the perfect movements, your perfect fingers, the perfect kiss. it now lingers just as a perfect memory, and i really cant stand the perfectness of it all, it still haunts my brain, thats what ive realised. and some people just dont understand why, -looks at gu.


i really really dont know what im typing, its crap, perfect piece of shit.

youre a goob, my goob (: hahas =D i really like that word.
and i really like kukunut as well
and retarded

ahh what the shit, i think im retarded.


who do i really like? maybe im just a person on the rebound looking for anyone, someone to help me. its what im like, i need to find a better person to let go of perfect you. is there anyone more perfect than perfect? hmmmmms. and what is really perfect? AHH, WHAT THE HELL.




and my right thumb is officially sprained, it hurts so, and it sucks.

did i mention i twisted my ankle (AGAIN) ytd during pc, like what the hell can. everyone was like, why do you keep spraining your ankle? my ankles are weak, just like me.




this post is really really crappish and retarded and kuku. but youre still my goob (:













thank You Lord, for ball games

throw me a lifeline
9:31 PM

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