Sunday, February 12, 2006

have you ever loved and lost somebody
wished there was a chance to say im sorry
cant you see
thats the way i feel about you and me baby
have you ever felt your heart was breaking
looking down the road you should be taking
i should know
cos i loved and lost the day i let you go <

went to visit great grandma ytd, and will be going today. she's really getting better, i almost cried cos of that. she's really totally wonderful, my mom was telling her about my results and she kept nodding, and i could see her eyes start tearing, that moment i wanted to just hug her and scream i love you to her and cry nonstop. ytd i was looking at my grandma, then i wondered what will happen if she were to just go like that, shit lahh, i will take a month's mc from dehydration due to crying. ): i dont want anyone in my family to die, except maybe one person? ):

and bryan's a really really dammit cute person lahh. im referring to my cousin btw. haha, he's primary 5 and he's only up to my armpits ! and he has a flawless complexion, i love. he's really dammit cute, ytd at the hospital (:

and im sorry i got so fucking pissed ytd, i should have just zaoed wivout going up. i think if i could i would have run the whole way to relieve my anger, but i didnt, trust me ive never walked so freaking fast in my entire life, my legs almost broke when i finally cooled down. im sorry guys.


got this off clararara's (my rocking darling !) blog >

10 YEARS AGO I:
-was in nanyang primary school for the first time.
-still went to church.
-was freaking smart, i got like 90 and above for every subj.

FIVE YEARS AGO I:
-was in primary 6h, a dammit rocking class i tell you (:
-had like 10 crushes?
-was still going for swimming lessons, weixian ! (:

TWO YEARS AGO I:
-was in a super duper wuper rocking class, 3c !
-went to china in june.
-met bryan fok =D.

ONE YEAR AGO I:
-learnt to love and went through another heartbreak.
-sat for my o's.
-gave my second kiss away.

YESTERDAY I:
-was fucking pissed.
-went out wiv ber evelyn paul and menghow.
-was a road marshal (:

TOMORROW I WILL:
-be going to school.
-not sleep in any classes, or doodle, or whatever, i'll pay attention !
-hand up my jae form thingy online.

THREE SNACKS I ENJOY:
-lays potato chips, the salt and vinegar flavour !
-ruffles potato chips, the cheddar cheese flavour !
-mnms, the crispy flavour !

THREE THINGS I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT:
-prayer.
-my friends.
-my family.

THREE THINGS I COULD BUY WITH $1000:
-the best medicine for my great grand ma
-my dream wallet.
-a bag (:

BAD HABITS
-i can cry freaking easily.
-im super duper wuper lazy.
-i buy things when i have no money.

THREE THINGS I WOULD NEVER WEAR:
-my mother's clothes.
-a bikini, i think.
-anyth kiddish.

FIVE SHOWS I LIKE:
-alot like love.
-just like heaven.
-qiu tian de tong hua <3
-ladder 49
-raise your voice.

THREE PLACES I'VE LIVED:
-holland.
-another place in holland.
-jurong east.

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
-karolynn.
-karo.
-karol. (?)

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
-i really like my eyes even though they're so small.
-the fact that im a child of God.
-my pierced ears (?)

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
-SNAILS.
-injections.
-heights.

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
-sleeeeping.
-eating.
-thinking about life, or someth or another.

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
-clothes
-clothes
-clothes. (:

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS/MUSICALARTISTS:
-simple plan.
-a1, a looong time ago.
-i quite like jay chou's songs, not jay chou though.

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
-november chopin's songs - jaychou.
-memory - sugarcult.
-and errm, actually i dont have favourites.

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
-i wna get a belly ring !
-paying attention in class =D
-to love another person.

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (in noparticular order):
-i wna go nigeria.
-i wna go japan.
-i wna go jamaica.

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
-pay attention in class =D.
-be home on time everytime i go out.
-finish the 99 bomb minesweeper flags.

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
-sleeping?
-reading !
-blasting.

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
-GO TO THE LIBRARY, but im reaaally lazy.
-see someone.
-go back to my bed.

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
-a math teacher
-a pe teacher
-opening a childcare centre.

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
-london.
-paris.
-new zealand.

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
-get married.
-have two kids.
-to get 5 true friends.



i took one hour to do this? right, i better smack my ass and go to the library, maybe after a nap? then it'll be down to the hospital.













thank You Lord, for food

throw me a lifeline
12:08 AM

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