Wednesday, January 11, 2006

i have lost my illusions
i have drowned in your words
i have left my confusion to a cynical world
i am throwing myself at things i don't understand
discover enlightenment holding your hand <

ive really been in a daze, its like everyth i do or see reminds me of what im trying so hard to let go. everyth's related to you, ahh freak it. heard youve been asking kelly about how im doing, im actually really really fine, my og's making me pass my time wiv smiles instead of tears, but once everyth's shutted up, and i stare into the blank, i just feel the sting in my eyes as i scream silently trying to block that vision of you. today during physics, my eyes suddenly got tears attack, it sucks, really. thru my camp i really thot ive letted go, it's just perhaps memories im left to conquer. i was dead wrong. there's no such thing as a perfect someone, everyone's got their bad points, it's just how you accept the bad points that make them seem perfect. you take in their good points gladly, but you shun their bad ones thinking they'll go away, i realise thats where i went wrong. i really miss you, i thot this time gap and space gap would make everyth easier, until i heard what someone said, i just realised that im in the same boat. i guess i must stupid and irritating typing all these for you to see, i just dont know anymore. it makes me smile to see that smile on your face that day i saw you and her, but although im happy for you, my heart breaks thinking that that could have been me by your side, not her. we'll be wiv the person we're meant to be wiv. yupp, im really looking for my other door alr, forget about me and the 2 weeks we shared tgt, but always keep in your mind that i'll be there for you, these five words i swear to you.



NEVER HAD A DREAM COME TRUE ; SCLUB7 > for you.

everybody's got someth
they had to leave behind
one regret from ytd
that just seems to grow with time

there's no use looking back or wondering
how it could be now or might have been
oh this i know but still i can't find ways to let you go

i never had a dream come true
till the day that i found you
even though i pretend that ive moved on
you'll always be my baby king
i never found the words to say
you're the one i think about each day
and i know no matter where life takes me to
a part of me will always be with you

somewhere in my memory
i've lost all sense of time
and tomorrow can never be
cos ytd is all that fills my mind

there's no use looking back or wondering
how it should be now or might have been
oh this i know but still i can't find ways to let you

i never had a dream come true
till the day that i found you
even though i pretend that ive moved on
you'll always be my baby king
i never found the words to say
you're the one i think about each day
and i know no matter where life takes me to
a part of me will always be with you

you'll always be the dream that fills my head
yes you will, say you will, you know you will, oh baby
you'll always be the one i know i'll never forget

there's no use looking back or wondering
cos love is a strange and funny thing
no matter how i try and try i just can't say goodbye

i never had a dream come true
till the day that i found you
even though i pretend that ive moved on
you'll always be my baby king
i never found the words to say
you're the one i think about each day
and i know no matter where life takes me to
a part of me will always be with you


an jing ; jay chou. i believe you know the lyrics. yepp.
snow angel ; toro & yan xing shu. this song's really meaningful, go listen to it sometime and you'll clear many things in your mind.
143, loads and loads. take care too.











thank You Lord, for letting me love someone again

throw me a lifeline
6:18 PM

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