Monday, January 02, 2006

first you wna be free
now you say you need me
giving mixed signals and signs
it's so hard to let you in
thinking you might slam the brakes again <


so we finally settled everyth, one phone call, and it was all over.
i should have seen it coming, i should have read the signs, anyway, i guess it's over
im really really glad that you finally realised who you like more.
yea, im serious when i said no harm done. im actually really quite okay.
guess i changed my way of thinking alr.
and im really glad we finally settled it, im not that confused after all, my decision was your decision, i'll learn to let go.
yea, and well, the one thing you said that hurt me the most was "whatever".
i guess we all made our mistakes when that thing happened, and maybe those mistakes are not mistakes actually, but someth that's right.

my heart was really tight, and i cried abit after the two phone calls, i had no idea what i was doing when i picked up my phone and called joe. but that one phone call just stopped the tears and my heart got unsqueezed. thanks dude (((: you prevented blood loss. =D haha, you have like 3 more years to save money to treat me, cos i dont think you'll win the bet. (: haha.


when i went to sleep, i woke up at like 5 am feeling like puking and cold to death, now im still feeling like puking, but im not cold. i guess my appetite's gone again, hais. but really, im okay. hmm, that statements sounds like im trying to assure myself, but really, im really okay. i cant wait for school to start, so i can meet my ahbeng. -looks at gaelan. haha. i know i'll get over you, once i meet another him, but whatever happens, i'll still be there for you.

min's coming to stay over, then we'll be going to school tgt (: HAHA. its time to change the time that we wake up. haha. and well, i hope i know the ppl in my class and it'll be so cool if i meet any of my primaries there (: hee.






BIG SORROWS COME OUT OF SMALL SINS



thank You Lord, for JOE, for telephones, and for changing the way i think

throw me a lifeline
9:39 AM

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