Tuesday, January 31, 2006
if its over, let it go and
come tmr it will seem so ytd so ytd <
finally changed my skin (: haha.i dont like this, but its better than the old one (:
last night was really really retarded, paul wants to come my house, yet i have to plan it. -_-"
that kuku went to play dota (what's up wiv that game?) and do dont know what shit, and left me to do everyth. haha, and i still dont know who's coming and what time they're coming, and im too lazy to go check it out. and that stupid paul he mind as well as sleep the whole day. it'll be 3 more hours til he wakes up.
me and ngsy are viewing each other's webcam, it's hilarious. i din realise my hair was that messy til i switched on my webcam.
i wonder if anyone who's coming knows how to play bridge, it's been hell long since i touched that game, so JOEL TIAN ZHEN YANG, faster go hold a bridge session lehh, my hands are itching to play that game, it's been hell long lahh.
i quite like the word lol now. HAHA, gu thinks im weird if i say lol, and actually i rather think so as well. haha, it seems so wrong lahh. oh and my elder brother DIDNT KNOW what's lol til ytd? weirdo.
i think im falling in love, joshua ang is dam freaking shuai lahh (:
haha, let me be lame and try doubliing my ii's iin all my words. haha, iit's quiite cool actually.
thank You Lord, for musiic
throw me a lifeline
9:31 AM
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Monday, January 30, 2006
what the world could never take <
paulpaul lim chee tung (his name's dam cute right? HAHA) >
¯¯¯¯¯¯¯¯¯¯¯¯¯¯¯Uchiha Sasuke_______________ [xa0` pAuL] says:
got my lao po pei me¯¯¯¯¯¯¯¯¯¯¯¯¯¯¯Uchiha Sasuke_______________ [xa0` pAuL] says:
eh i mean the comthat's how he's surviving, HAHA. and he's suggesting to come my house bai nian tmr. what a pig. that kuku's living in cck and he complains jurong east is far?! what a joker lahh. he's walking here at 1am, let's see if it's for real. haha. and he's dam funnehh lahh. kuku.
so today was really boring. i woke up 7, then went to sleep from 12 - 2 and i was speaking some weird and retarded alien language when my brother took my pillow from me. skipped lunch and now i believe im suffering from gastric. haha.
why doesnt anyone updaatee ! it's getting really boring ard here. i wna go out like now. ):
thank You Lord, for ferrero rochers (: yums
throw me a lifeline
6:19 PM
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if you're over me, i'm alr over you
if it's all been done, what is left to do
how can you hang up, if the line is dead
if you wna walk, i'm a step ahead
if you're moving on, i'm alr gone
if the light is off, then it isn't on <
im sick of my skin, and im sick of looking for skins.
haha. im quite sick of homework, ive been a really guai kia rushing my homework ytd.
even zhizhong agrees ! and my cousins. ive completed GP and trust me chem's hell. im like freaking super rusty lahh. ): dam.i spent one hour and i completed like only THREE questions? this is so unlike me. i spent 15 mins trying to find out whats the stupid formula for nitrogen monoxide.
its exhausting the way youre so drained just cos of emotional issues.
let go, 5 letters, 2 words, it takes forever.
haha, i received a msg ytd, and i was grinning like some kuku, i typed a reply and kept reading that dumb msg every few mins, haha, it made my day (:
i miss joe tan, there, you happy? =D, cant wait for next week, im going out wiv him. haha, this really feels dam weird.
mindy's a lucky lover, she's in bangkok shopping til her heart's content, and im here rushing homework. right i better go off to do my chem now. there's like 10 more qns, so i'll need, 3 MORE HOURS. shiiit.
thank You Lord, for toilet bowls
throw me a lifeline
8:00 AM
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Saturday, January 28, 2006
wo xiang yao xue hui zi wo cui mian
tong jue hui shao yi xie <
my cousin's house a lil boring, so here goes:
SE7EN things that make me smile:
1) tiggers (:
2) more tiggers (:
3) mass dances !
4) my girlies ((:
5) OG16 !
6) 4c !
7) sunflowers (:
SE7EN ways to win my heart (right now):
1) be someone. haha (:
2) give me 19 lifesize tiggers each one holding a sunflower.
3) have really really really extremely beautiful eyes. <33
4) kill all the snails in the world.
5) buy me my dreamhouse ! i want the one at tanahmerah wiv the open air rooftop <3
6) just get me all the tiggers in the world and i'll be yours forever.
7) give me a love potion, cos im running out of ideas.
SE7EN things i believe in:
1) God
2) love changes ppl.
3) there's a reason for everyth.
4) serendipity, or rather fate.
5) soccer is a stupid game.
6) whoever invented chinese is stupid.
7) reading is wonderful.
SE7EN things I'm afraid of:
1) snails.
2) needles, or rather taking injections.
3) heights.
4) losing someone i love.
5) growing fatter.
6) being ditched by my friends.
7) someone playing a prank using the above 6 points to me during april fools
SE7EN things that I do everyday:
1) Breathe
2) Sleep
3) Walk
4) Talk
5) Dream
6) Eat
7) Bathe.
SE7EN people I want to see right now:
1) him.
2) kevin yap, my bester who has disappeared for ages.
3) joe tan yu zuo. weirdly.
4) gaelan gu, even more weirdly.
5) snow white and the other 6 dwarves.
6) OG16 <33
7) 4C'o6 !
im beginning to like saying the word LOL. -looks at min. HAHA.
my cousin is making me fatter, she's beside me eating. and poor paulpaul wont get any ang pows tmr and mon and tues. haha. and my younger brother says he's going to bainian naked tmr. i cant wait to see that. haha.
thank You Lord, for books
throw me a lifeline
4:21 PM
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im trying to forget that
im addicted to you
but i want it and i need it
im addicted to you
now it's over
can't forget what you said
and i never wna do this again
heartbreaker <
ytd was the greatest (:
haha, one whole bus load of jjcians once again missed the stop when we were on 174 from boonlay AND we ended up in the highway =rushed down to school, and we were on time !
mass dance session in the morning. (: had hell fun, PUMP IT ! haha, was dam excited wiv the thot that i might be able to dance wiv him, i ended up wiv paulpaul !
rushed to fairfield. I MET GAELAN GU ! (: haha. saw bryan too. that fokky tried to hide from me. you suck at hiding lahh. had a little chat wiv fok, din ask what i wna ask BUT YOU LOOK DAMMIT WEIRD WITH THAT HAIRCUT LAHH (: haha.
lunched at dover wiv 10 guys, and i was the bloodeh only girl, where the heck are the other ELEVEN girls?
then then
kbox wiv evelyn belinda sokkin paul menghow zhiming zhongru.
it was really dam fun, we were like dam high lahh, i couldnt sit for one moment and sulk.
was dead tired after all the high songs were over.
haha, we danced superstar in the room and we crapped up ALOT of the steps and we WHOOED so loudly i swear we're the noisiest customers ever. siiiiaaaaao too. HAHA. (: i had the greatest time kboxing ytd. the songs we sang though brought back many memories, ive realised that i can let go. (:
i sang so many of the songs i really wanted to sing, and stupid stupid paulpaul kept fastbacking my na nu hai dui wo shuo. and your feet stink alryyt, dont push it under my nose next time claiming its nice smelling, KUKU. BUGGER SHIT HEAD. belinda, i hope youre not gna let that one guy affect you. its a pity, REALLY.
thanks darlings, for the wonderful time ytd. the feeling was undescribable ! (:
LET'S DO IT SOME TIME SOON AGAIN YES YES YES !
and just a note to you, ive really really met someone who makes me so high that i can forget all about you when im out wiv him. haha, the prospect of mass dancing wiv him got me more excited than the prospect of seeing you. (: maybe then you can stop checking up on me, but to make sure, let's go for the dinner that you asked for one day soon, yes? yes. HAHA.
gaelan gu's telling me someth really really really scary now. im feeling more confused once again, haha. it's dam weird lahh. haha. and i guess i irritated the shit out of him =D. hee. dam, now i feel dam cheated. YOU BUGGER YOU CHEAT MY FEELINGS GRRRR. haha, but well, ive changed my way of thot, and his so called TEST confirmed it.
so thanks gaelan, and thanks you, for changing me (:
thank You Lord, for karaoke machines
throw me a lifeline
10:11 AM
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Sunday, January 22, 2006
i'm never gna be good enough for you
i can't pretend that i'm alright
and you can't change me
cuz we lost it all
noth lasts forever i'm sorry i can't be perfect
now it's just too late
and we can't go back
i'm sorry I can't be perfect <
family outing ytd (: at sentosa. i had a whole lot of fun. didnt get sunburn (: actually there was no sun at all lahh. we played volleyball, in the beach and in the shelter, it was dam fun lahh. guys versus girls, but in the end everyth got mixed up, but the 16 guys and girls were on diff teams. and each time one of us scored we'll whoosh 16. haha (: we played captain's ball, og16 versus the others. and well, we won (: and i swam to another island ! where me and cuimin interrupted a guys' talk. HAHA. we, okay they, dug until we hit water ! and bryan was freaked out cos he felt someth round in that water and mushroom and ming kept scaring him, haha (: we kept throwing sands at each other and ignored the other ppl when they screamed at us to come back. ohoh, we had mass dance too. me and paul were screwing everyth up, haha, but he's dam funnehh lahh. (: pump it ! (: haha, when they played yeah and all of us din learn that dance, the whole row of 16 were booing the ogls. =\ haha. it was dam fun lahh.
injured my ankles (ANKLES !) during captain's ball, and my og wanted to walk out of sentosa. paul helped me carry my bag and errm zhiyao piggybacked me some of the way to harbourfront mrt. i was dam paiseh lahh, and i officially cant be piggybacked, i kept slipping down zhiyao's back lahh, and errm i choked him once =\\\.
oh yea, ogl interview ytd was a screw up thingy. ): but then i had fun wiv my og walking to lakeside, we were cheering and paul was paiseh to be wiv us. then in the bus on the way to sentosa, zhiming asked us to cheer and paul was like shooting death rays at zhiming, dam funnehh lahh. i love my og ! (:
gna get my heels later (: yay, finally. but its gna be some cheapskate thingy.
oh and lab partner, i think i quite miss the lab times wiv you, it was really fun lahh, now i have to on the busen burner myself ! )): AND I WANT MY TESTIMONIAL ! =D.
thank You Lord, for computer mouses and for sands.
throw me a lifeline
2:19 PM
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Friday, January 20, 2006
her feelings she hides
her dreams she can't find
she's losing her mind
she's falling behind
she can't find her place
she's losing her faith
she's falling from grace
she's all over the place <
memoirs of a geisha is really really nice i tell you. chiyo is freaking pretty lahh. and mindy ng, why am i a laughing bug? i cried during the show, and it's not really cry-ey lahh.
yupp, anw, ogl interview tmr (: hope i make it thru, -crosses fingers.
ahh, i love today's physics lesson. ((: haha, we skipped 15 mins of it to touch up on our cny stuffs. then we "rushed" to the lab only to find it's a tutorial. so went to 310. mr damien ler pei song cracks the girls up like crazy. i mean we were like laughing through the whole freaking lesson lahh. haha, its not actually really funny, but i mean when we sat down we just started laughing. there only 5 guys present during that lesson, and mr ler was emphatizing wiv them. i mean we laughed like mad women for no particular reason? haha, and mr ler himself said that he never seen any class enjoy physics like we did. haha (: then i did someth really freaking lame. mr ler asked if i have a sis in westwood sec. i answered "nope, i have no sis, would you like to be mine" haha, you should have seen the face he gave me lahh. haha, then i continued "if you become my sister, can i call you DAMIENA?" my goodness, i cracked up at that point like some crazy kuku person lahh. i swear, the next door classes must be thinking we're a crazy bunch of students or someth of that sort. and when we said "thank you, goodbye and see you mr ler" he replied "thank you, goodbye and see you NOT." HAHA (: my gosh, i think im some crazy kuku person lahh.
so there goes a nice and pretty paragraph about damiena, my new sister. (i sure hope she, oops i mean he, doesnt see this. HAHA)
LIZHENGLIANG, you go update your unupdated blog before asking others to update theirs. =p=p=p hee.
there's family outing tmr, I REALLY WNA GO. i really hope i get to. ahhh. cos ive got this sudden urge to spend time wiv my og ((: and so far NO ONE knows a lil secret of mine.
you've been on my mind, a powerful thot which moves me to tears. i cried for freaking you again )): dammit. i hate spending time alone wiv noth to do. and im starting to hate lectures, its like you cant talk and its boring and bang, im crying. SHIT.
thank You Lord, for og outings
throw me a lifeline
6:07 PM
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Tuesday, January 17, 2006
look to the past
and rmb a smile
maybe tonight i can breathe for awhile
im not in the seat
i think im falling asleep
but then all that it means
is i'll always be dreaming of you <
i officially hate jj pe. WE RAN LIKE SIAO TODAY LAHH. and i usually am okay after running, but now im suffering from muscle cramp, serious ones in fact. menghow's pe session was so much more fun lahh, DAM IT.
actually there's noth much to say bout today, it was funny, my class rocks (: i found this guy wiv really really really pretty eyes, pretty enough to compete wiv someone, haha. too bad he's not shuai.
OH YES YES, my 109 tigger's gone ): that sunday when i went out wiv 16, i checked in at more than words, ITS GONE GONE GONE ): just like you went.
THE GETAWAY ; HILARY DUFF >
here i am again
talking to myself
sitting at a red light
both hands on the wheel
how am i supposed to feel
so much running through my mind
first you want to be free
now you say you need me
giving mixed signals and signs
it's so hard to let you in
thinking you might slam the brakes again
put the pedal down
heading out of town
gotta make a getaway
the traffic in my brain's
driving me insane
this is more than i can take
you tell me that you love me first
then throw your heart into reverse
i gotta getaway
i can't keep coming back to you
everytime you're in the mood
to whisper something sweet in my ear
it's so hard to move on
cos everytime i think you're gone
you show up in my rearview mirror
is this just a detour
cos i gotta be sure
that you really mean what you say
it's so hard to let you in
thinking you might slam the brakes again
put the pedal down
heading out of town
gotta make a getaway
the traffic in my brain's
driving me insane
this is more than i can take
you tell me that you love me first
then throw your heart into reverse
i gotta getaway
to a place where i
can be redefined
where you're out of sight
and you're out of mind
but the truth is
i can't even say good-bye
here i am again
talking to myself
sitting at a red light
both hands on the wheel
how am i supposed to feel
so much running through my mind
put the pedal down
heading out of town
gotta make a getaway
the traffic in my brain's
driving me insane
this is more than i can take
you tell me that you love me first
then throw your heart into reverse
i gotta getaway
thank You Lord, for sprained ankles (even though i din get one)
throw me a lifeline
6:04 PM
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Monday, January 16, 2006
why don’t you and i get tgt
and take on the world
and be tgt forever
heads we will and tails we’ll try again
so i say why don’t you and i hold each other
and fly to the moon
and straight on to heaven
cos wivout you they’re never going to let me in <
i'll begin by telling you how FUNNY leonard tan is, i laughed my ass off when i saw it.
i wrote a testimonial for ness and since it was so short, i decided to add a line saying "oh and uhh hi leonard" AND THAT JOKER sent me a message saying "hello uh i saw your testimonial for ness and you said hi. so ya, hello too" WHAT A JOKER RIGHT. haha.
so anw, a bunch of us walked from jjc to chinese garden (and i walked home from there), HAHA. you should have seen the guys complain and all. and its unfair lahh, PAUL'S BAG IS DAMMIT LIGHT. i really wonder what extra things do i bring lahh, haha, at least i carried his bag while walking and errm =|| he carried mine, haha. im seeing what things i can wivout lahh, i still cant believe how light his bag is lahh. ohh and i dropped his watch and IT SPLIT INTO PIECES. i fixed it back and when i told him bout it, i found out that it was normal. errrm. haha.
haha, anw anw, i like my class, except when they keep asking me to be class rep, im alr pe rep lahh ! grrrr. haha (: i like my class, i realy do. nineteen ! (:
outing wiv part of the og ytd, i was the first to leave ! i believe that's the first time i'm home on time since i dont know how long ago lahh.abducted zhi yao's phone, haha, and i stupidly was scared that he was pissed, i really thot he was lahh. kuku me.
i hate homework, that leaves no time for tv lahh ): haha, anw, im bored, so here comes a quiz >
LAST PERSON THAT
1. Slept in your bed: the girl (:
2. Saw you cry: God, i was at home.
3. Made you cry: someone who was supposed to NEVER make me cry.
4. Went to the movies with you: manu kelly yiwen chinyi enoch.
5. You went to the mall with: og 16
6. You went to dinner with: last night i had dinner at home, that was my last dinner so, family.
7. You talked on the phone: errrrrm, jason, that idiot prankcalled me.
8. Said 'I love you' to you and really meant it: someone who was supposed to NEVER make me cry.
9. Broke your heart: someone who was supposed to NEVER make me cry.
10. Made you laugh: LEONARD TAN.
WOULD YOU RATHER
1. pierce your nose or tongue? NOSE, i really want it actually.
2. be serious or be funny? depends on the situation.
3. drink whole or skim milk? whole, definitely.
4. die in a fire or drown? whichever way God wants me to die.
5. spend time with your parents or go down on someone? i'd rather go wiv someone else than parents. im talking bout FASHION TASTE now.
ARE YOU
1. simple or complicated? thats a very very weird qns, i dont know. i'd like to think im simple.
2. Gay? im a girl !
3. Hardcore? hardcore what?
4. Honest? depends on the situation.
DO YOU PREFER
1. flowers or angels? angels, definitely, how bout angels holding sunflowers, ahh <33
2. gray or black? black.
3. Color or Black and white photos? black and white, okay maybe coloured, i dont know.
4. lust or love? love.
5. sunrise or sunset? both.
6. M&Ms or Skittles? m&ms.
7. rap or rock? rock.
8. staying up late or waking up early? waking up early, so i can see sunrises.
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY
1. do you like anyone?: nope, i love someone.
2. do they know it?: yepp.
DO YOU PREFER
1. being hot or cold? cold
2. sun or moon? moon, they're shining wiv the stars.
3. Winter or Fall? winter (:
4. left or right? im a right hander, so i like left.
5. having 10 acquaintances who will have sex with you or having two best friends? TWO BEST FRIENDS, win hands down.
6. vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream? rocky road (:
7. boys or girls: errm, my best friend is a guy, so i guess both.
8. vodka or Jack? haha, i dont know.
ABOUT YOU
What time is it? 6.56pm.
Name? karolynn.
Nickname(s): karo.
WHAT DO YOU WANT
Where do you want to live? spore, and maybe newzealand?
What kind of job do you want? i wna be a math teacher !
Do you want to get married? yepp (: unless God plans for me to stay single !
UNIQUE
1. Nervous Habits? i pluck my nails.
2. Are you double jointed? nope, im normal.
3. Can you roll your tongue? i can i can !
4. Can you raise one eyebrow? im practising !
5.Can you cross your eyes? when im trying hard.
6. Do you make your bed daily? nope, my maid does it, i actually throw everyth on it.
CLOTHES, ETC
1. Which shoe goes on first? whichever shoe's nearer.
2.On the average, how much money do you carry in your wallet? 10 bucks, im really poor.
3. What jewelry do you wear? earrings, necklace, and a watch. maybe a bracelet if im not watch-ing.
FOOD
1. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it? twirl.
2. Have you ever eaten Spam: nope, cos i dont even know what that is.
3. Favorite ice cream flavor? rocky road, macadamia !
4. How many kinds cereal are in your cabinet? thats an interesting qns, i dont know.
5. What's your favorite beverage? milo (: or strawberry yoghurt drink !
6. What's your favorite restaurant? swensens, billy bombers.
7. Do you cook? HAHA, i cant even crack an egg.
GROOMING
1. How often do you brush your teeth? morning/night.
2. How is your hair for the most part? messy.
3. Have you ever dyed/highlighted your hair? i want to!
MANNERS
1. Do you swear? when im really really pissed, you watch out.
2. Do you ever spit? nope.
3. You cook your own food? if i do, i'll be dead by now.
4. You do your own chores? heehee, nope.
5. You got paid today? nope.
6. You like beef jerky? nope, dont eat beef.
7. You like pepsi or coke? dont they taste the same.
8. You plan on going to college? yupp.
9. You're happy with your hair? no no no no and no !
10. You own a dog? YES.
11. You spend your money wisely? i'd like to think so (:
12. You're always making new friends? HAHA, yes (: so far lahh.
13. You like to swim? YES YES. but i havent in ages.
14. Have you ever got so bored you called a friend? nope.
15. You like this survey? it's lame (:
LET'S BE HONEST
In the last month have you...
1. Had a bf/gf? yepp, who was supposed NEVER to make me cry.
2. Bought something? yup.
3. Sang in the shower? HAHA, yes.
4. Been kissed? it wasn't real.
5. Felt stupid? yes, stupid enough to believe you when you said that you'd never hurt me again.
6. missed someone? i really really do.
7. Got drunk? HAHA, i wish i had.
8. Gotten high? YES YES, JJ NIGHT (((((:
9. Danced crazy? YES YES, MASS DANCES (((((:
thank You Lord for legs
throw me a lifeline
6:29 PM
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Saturday, January 14, 2006
i was, am, is bored >
| The Keys to Your Heart |
You are attracted to obedience and warmth.
In love, you feel the most alive when everything is uncertain, one moment heaven... the next moment hell.
You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.
Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.
In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now. |
haha, it's actually abit true, cept the first part and the last part, uhhuh (:
| How You Are In Love |
You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time.
You tend to give more than take in relationships.
You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.
You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.
You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard. |
abit abit abit true.
and my ideal relationship is marriage can, HAHA.
anw, mindy should do this, HAHA.
| You Are 40% Weird |
Normal enough to know that you're weird...
But too damn weird to do anything about it! |
thank You Lord, for my bed
throw me a lifeline
9:39 PM
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im twisted cos one side of me
is tellin' me that i need to move on
on the other side i
wna break down and cry <
it's freaking dammit hard. and i dont even know why it is so hard. it's not like anyth really started or whatever shit. i must spend my saturdays better than reading emails and messages.
and break down and crytv's no use, i've watched like 6 episodes of who's the boss alr. been to grandma's and back.it's a dammit boring life. right, i think i'll go tackle chemistry now, im like super rusty, forgot all about moles and their teaching it. haha, i rmb when linchuan was tutoring me on mole, he asked what's a mole, and he answered it himself. "an animal" and i laughed like crazy. haha.
weirdly, im still holding on to some kind of hope, when actually there's none left, maybe mesy was right. ahh shit, i really need a reality check, maybe see them
kiss or someth. haha, im such a funny person, i cant believe i just typed that. IM FREAKING WEIRD.
so if i become retarded, you guys know who to blame.
DONT CRY COS ITS OVER, SMILE COS IT HAPPENED.
thank You Lord, for homework
throw me a lifeline
4:38 PM
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it's the way you make me feel
the way that you make me feel
spinning my world around
tell me how can i walk away
i don't care what they say
i'm loving you anyway
it's the way you make me feel <
i cant stand some ppl, who dont understand the word "NO" ahh freak it, it just spoiled my whole entire mood.
went out to catch dreamer ytd wiv manu kelly yiwen chinyi enoch. haha, got treated by manu, that's why i moved my lazy ass down to ps to watch it. it's a stupid show about a horse, and it was boring, i didnt even cry, it shows how bad that show is. never doubt my crying skills lahh. supposed to be in her shoes, but silly chinyi dont wna watch, so i took revenge by patting his tummy (: finally lahh.
heading down to grandma's house later on, collecting some i dont know what thing. og outing got postponed to tmr.
actually there's noth much to blog, it's gna be a real typical boring saturday. at least last time there's tuition to look forward to, kind of. ahh dammit, i kinda miss arguing wiv guo xi.
and i really really miss 4c, there's no class like them (:
thank You Lord for the happy memories
throw me a lifeline
9:59 AM
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Friday, January 13, 2006
fate fell short this time
your smile fades in the summer
place your hand in mine
i'll leave when i wna <
GLENN TAN >
glenn says:
i miss you.
glenn says:
XDglenn says:
COME BACK TO SCHOOLthat boy's dam sweet (: haha, he thot i went back to school today and he kukuly waved at the person who seems like me. HAHA.
og 16's like sick? yupp, outing tmr, i hope i can go. ice creamed today, i gobbled it down practically, and i have no freaking idea WHY li zheng liang likes peppermint, it totally sucks. lessons were boring, but now that the teachers have started teaching, ive gta pay attention, haha, im not a paikia ! (: timetable's changed next week, havent seen mine but min says its crazily packed, there's no more hour breaks, the longest is half )): haha. i dont think im gna like econs, really. so i think i'll be taking up lit after first 3 months (: uhhuh. oh oh, someone said someth which made my heart sorta melt, min knows ! ((((: haha.
you are such a liar.
thank You Lord, for voice boxes (:
throw me a lifeline
8:13 PM
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Thursday, January 12, 2006
in a moment everyth can change
feel the wind on your shoulder
for a minute all the world can wait
let go of your yesterday <
first things first, HAPPY BIRTHDAY GAELAN GU, LAB PARTNER ((:
youre seventeen, but dont worry, im catching up soon, haha. my friendster's like dead lahh, i wanted to write you a nice testimonial that'll make you tear, well well, we'll see.
today was fine, i almost cried over a little thing, but yupp, thanks girlies for helping me get it back (: you guys rock. haha. it's bikila and owens tmr ! the green col's a really really pretty col, im like falling in love wiv that col as days go by, haha, okay its only one day, whatever ! ooh, bitched abit wiv min today, about hers and we went down to raffles to eat subway. bought new studs and im officially broke ! the canteen food's really nice, im like eating every break that kinda thing, im growing fatter, gaelan should be happy to see this. haha. was replying a msg this morning and suddenly the stupid weihoong shouted "sediyahh !" freak lahh and i was like right in front? oh yes, min's phone is dam funny lahh, it's like ugly, uglier, ugliest. haha, we both agreed on the ugliest (: and i agree wiv her on someth, a sign, it dropped and although i found it back, it was broken, uhhuh, its time to let go.
og meeting tmr ! and i think im too broke to go in-her-shoes-ing wiv manu etc. sorry darling ! ): im really really broke. and i just received a msg that there's hockey trg tmr, wonderful. so i really cant go out ): yupp yupp. joe tan yu zuo, take care you kuku that ponned school and go chifatt's house, haha. (: and you take care too.
EVERYTHING I OWN ; BREAD >
you sheltered me from harm
kept me warm, kept me warm
you gave my life to me
set me free, set me free
the finest years i ever knew
were all the years i had with you
i would give anyth i own
give up my life, my heart, my home
i would give everyth i own
just to have you back again
you taught me how to love
what its of, what its of
you never said too much
but still you showed the way
and i knew from watching you
nobody else could ever know the part of me that can't let go
i would give anyth i own
give up my life, my heart, my home
i would give everyth i own
just to have you back again
is there someone you know
you're loving them so
but taking them all for granted
you may lose them one day
someone takes them away
and they don't hear the words you long to say
i would give anyth i own
give up my life, my heart, my home
i would give everyth i own
just to have you back again
just to touch once again
thank You Lord for chocolates.
throw me a lifeline
8:33 PM
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Wednesday, January 11, 2006
i have lost my illusions
i have drowned in your words
i have left my confusion to a cynical world
i am throwing myself at things i don't understand
discover enlightenment holding your hand <
ive really been in a daze, its like everyth i do or see reminds me of what im trying so hard to let go. everyth's related to you, ahh freak it. heard youve been asking kelly about how im doing, im actually really really fine, my og's making me pass my time wiv smiles instead of tears, but once everyth's shutted up, and i stare into the blank, i just feel the sting in my eyes as i scream silently trying to block that vision of you. today during physics, my eyes suddenly got tears attack, it sucks, really. thru my camp i really thot ive letted go, it's just perhaps memories im left to conquer. i was dead wrong. there's no such thing as a perfect someone, everyone's got their bad points, it's just how you accept the bad points that make them seem perfect. you take in their good points gladly, but you shun their bad ones thinking they'll go away, i realise thats where i went wrong. i really miss you, i thot this time gap and space gap would make everyth easier, until i heard what someone said, i just realised that im in the same boat. i guess i must stupid and irritating typing all these for you to see, i just dont know anymore. it makes me smile to see that smile on your face that day i saw you and her, but although im happy for you, my heart breaks thinking that that could have been me by your side, not her.
we'll be wiv the person we're meant to be wiv. yupp, im really looking for my other door alr, forget about me and the 2 weeks we shared tgt, but always keep in your mind that i'll be there for you, these five words i swear to you.
NEVER HAD A DREAM COME TRUE ; SCLUB7 > for you.
everybody's got someth
they had to leave behind
one regret from ytd
that just seems to grow with time
there's no use looking back or wondering
how it could be now or might have been
oh this i know but still i can't find ways to let you go
i never had a dream come true
till the day that i found you
even though i pretend that ive moved on
you'll always be my
baby king
i never found the words to say
you're the one i think about each day
and i know no matter where life takes me to
a part of me will always be with you
somewhere in my memory
i've lost all sense of time
and tomorrow can never be
cos ytd is all that fills my mind
there's no use looking back or wondering
how it should be now or might have been
oh this i know but still i can't find ways to let you
i never had a dream come true
till the day that i found you
even though i pretend that ive moved on
you'll always be my
baby king
i never found the words to say
you're the one i think about each day
and i know no matter where life takes me to
a part of me will always be with you
you'll always be the dream that fills my head
yes you will, say you will, you know you will, oh baby
you'll always be the one i know i'll never forget
there's no use looking back or wondering
cos love is a strange and funny thing
no matter how i try and try i just can't say goodbye
i never had a dream come true
till the day that i found you
even though i pretend that ive moved on
you'll always be my
baby king
i never found the words to say
you're the one i think about each day
and i know no matter where life takes me to
a part of me will always be with you
an jing ; jay chou. i believe you know the lyrics. yepp.
snow angel ; toro & yan xing shu. this song's really meaningful, go listen to it sometime and you'll clear many things in your mind.
143, loads and loads. take care too.
thank You Lord, for letting me love someone again
throw me a lifeline
6:18 PM
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Tuesday, January 10, 2006
I GUESS ALL I CAN SAY IS THAT THIS TIME IVE LOST.
I GUESS ALL I CAN DO IS TURN AROUND AND WALK AWAY.
I GUESS ALL I CAN FEEL IS NOTHING.
I GUESS ALL YOU ARE HAS BEEN A FAKE.
I GUESS ALL YOU CARE ABOUT IS YOURSELF AND NOT HOW MUCH IM HURTING.
i promise, trust me, i assure you. these words stuck to my head when i read the msges. I AM A JOKE. i was so blind, ah freak. i slam this door, good bye.
thank You Lord, for blogskins.
throw me a lifeline
5:19 PM
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cos she's bittersweet
she knocks me offa my feet <
THIS IS HOW TONNY FONG GREETED ME ON MSN >
ToNE... openin minds.. shapin lives says:
pom pom pomToNE... openin minds.. shapin lives says:
i am et frm the outer spaceToNE... openin minds.. shapin lives says:
pom pom pomToNE... openin minds.. shapin lives says:
come to earth to search tooth paste
ToNE... openin minds.. shapin lives says:
pom pomToNE... openin minds.. shapin lives says:
pom*ToNE... openin minds.. shapin lives says:
when i look into ur grandma's faceToNE... openin minds.. shapin lives says:
it reminds me of ur monkey faceToNE... openin minds.. shapin lives says:
HEY HEYToNE... openin minds.. shapin lives says:
monkey face.. ask ur grandmaToNE... openin minds.. shapin lives says:
buy my tooth pasteIM GETTING FUNNY GREETINGS EVERYDAY.
haha, we were teasing menghow bout evelyn just now. okay, it's not funny. anw cuimin and menghow's dam nice, they wna give us morning call tmr. morning calls really remind me of the past. i really gta put the past down. stop revisiting them.
caught up wiv lokee this morning. we like put the same display picture, chose the same combi and are going for the same cca lahh. and ALL IS HE COPY ME ONE. haha, it's quite fun catching up, at that moments, I REALLY MISS 4C. i miss bridging, i miss gossiping. i miss the recesses and the bridging afternoons. i miss sleeping eating playing during lessons. argh. i miss 4C ! the most rocking class EVER.
CUT MY HAIR TODAY (((: haha, but my hair looks the same, it's just thinner and fringe's shorter, i dont really like it though, first time lehh. i wished i cut it short, real short, it's like cutting the length of hair which i have grown = cutting the memories of us away. hais, i wish we could all back away and forget everyth, i wish the time would go back then at least i could have lied and said no. hais. gaelan's talk's not working for ONCE, joe's not working too. i wish i was out, i dont have to think all these stupid thots, make my mind wonder, I WNA SCREAM, really. it'll be the last time i cry for you, the last tear ive wiped away. this is crap, i really need to meet my ahbeng soon, GOD? some sign please. at least let me put down this stupid baggage of broken hopes im holding.
i just wish that he had a strong enough effect on me, i just wish that he can help me let go. i just wish that someth happens.
if you dont know how much you hurt me, just stab yourself real hard, a million times at the same spot, multiply that pain by another million times, and that's not even 1% of the pain youve caused me. good bye.
thank You Lord, for water.
throw me a lifeline
3:37 PM
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but baby, here I am
banging on your front door
my pride's spilled on the floor
my hands and knees are bruised
and now i'm crawling back to you
begging for a second chance
are you gonna let me in
i was running from the truth
and now i'm crawling back to you <
i really have no freaking idea why im so tired lately. i slept dam early ytd. like 10? I MISSED PROJECT RUNWAY, ahh freak it. and i dont why i keep using the word freak nowadays. ahh freak. so anw, ytd was really really fun, untilllll.....
went to school ytd at 7am. and i waited for miss mindy ng til 7.23 am. HAHA, well i think i'll let her tell her own tale lahh. then when i reached the hall, my og went, orhhor, LATE LATE. haha. went for assembly THEN, we had to like crap until 12.30, can you imagine?! FROM 8am til 12.30, arrh. so my og went to cafe, the prices are high and the food's not that good. haha, so fatt's here's another reason why i shouldnt ______________ haha (: oh yea yea, met chifatt at the cafe. haha. the lesson was really boring, i was like shutting down. the lecturer taught us how to on a calculator -_-''''''''''. showed min someone, HAHA. and she's the only one who knows how my secret looks like (: joe tan doesnt.
went out wiv min after that. lunched at fish&co wiv jiawei chia tse and min. haha, jiawei is loaded can, he gave a treat to chia. haha. then went to catch THE DARK wiv min. she screamed once. the only scream in the whole theatre throughout the whole show. HAHA. the show's not really scary and both of us could not understand the freaking storyline. it's stupid. a waste of 8 bucks. went home after that, i think i was kinda glad i missed that 198. ahh well. did i mention i saw someth stupid? yepp. stupid.
ahh this post is freaking crappish. haha, i think i wna sleep more.
btw, the time now is 8.36 am.
im going to cut my hair later ((((((((((((: i miss haircuts.
ANW, to everyone out there, my new stead is tigger. =DD, he's positively cute ayye.
and manu manu manu manu smith ! yes yes, let's meet up someday. meet up ! haha, msg me yea!
WHEN THE DOOR OF HAPPINESS CLOSES, ANOTHER OPENS. BUT OFTEN TIMES WE LOOK TOO LONG AT THE CLOSED DOOR TO SEE THE ONE THAT HAS BEEN OPENED FOR US.
thank You Lord, for beds, for scissors, for hairdressers
throw me a lifeline
8:09 AM
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Monday, January 09, 2006
this may never start
we could fall apart
can i be your memory <
THIS IS HOW GLENN TAN GREETED ME ON MSN >
glenn says:
die,you piece of cow poop.glenn says:
i mean,hi.HAHA.
I WILL NOT ELABORATE ON A DAY THAT YOU SPOILT, THE END.
thank You Lord, for rain.
throw me a lifeline
8:16 PM
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Sunday, January 08, 2006
in your eyes
i found the greatest prize
you and i could not be closer
and in your arms
is everyth i want
now i know my search is over
and i don't know where you take me
but it's exactly where i wna be <
during eweb ytd, i wanted to say this, but i blabbed and well din really know what i was saying lahh. haha. i typed one long thing out and i realised it was crap. oh yea, my ogls wrote a song for us lahh ! dam sweet ayye.
so what i wanted to tell og16 and my ogls were that i started off wiv a heavy heart and a frown, but i ended off wiv a patched heart and a wide smile, thanks to each and every person (:
and i met a someone, i wont say who. maybe if you give me a tigger i'll tell you? uhhuh.
oh yea, nigel, rmb the tigger you gave me? yea, i finally found someth to put into the honey pot, OSCAR ! (: haha, i'll send you the pic of it sometime. and anw, would you like oscar back now?
to the most rocking group of all, og 16> i love you guys ! (: haha, the memories of whatever we did tgt will stick wiv me. keep in contact alryyt, even if we do go to our separate ways. haha, and i believe if there's a group award, 16 wins it hands down ((: uhhuh !
thank You Lord, for honey water.
throw me a lifeline
10:40 AM
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Saturday, January 07, 2006
it's where the stars line up
it's where the oceans touch
it's in a place you've never been that feels like home
it's in the air right now
it's where you give your all
and give a little more
ive never been so sure
that's where you find love <
that's a beautiful song alryyt ! (:
okay, so anw camp rocked like crazy. trust me, with my og, the suckiest thing rocks lahh. haha, we were SO SO SO SO SO high even on the first day. we were cheering over EVERY single thing can. we win, we cheer. we lose, we cheer. ogl says one sentence, we cheer. HAHA, it was really really super duper wuper zuper fun. we went out on the first night to sam's house to send him off then to jiawei's house to grab some sleep. haha, anw, i lost my voice on the first night and i fell sick. so second day it was porridge for lunch, porridge for dinner and even porridge for breakfast lahh. i thot that was bad enough til today zhiyao came and tell me he had porridge for four days. i take porridge one day im like super sick of it, i'll die lahh if i take it for four days. fell sick so i really really missed out on alot of the activities. JJ NIGHT (((: the whole og was super high, we were jumping singing cheering screaming. even me, who's sick and voiceless (: my gosh, i love my og to bits and pieces (: ah well, this isn't really in detail, cos the camp was just so wonderful lahh ((: cos of my og and ogls. ahh well, and i cried after mr leow talked and talked and talked, it was really touching lahh. but it's not very surprising ayye.
told everyone bout my new stead. you wna know who? his name starts wiv the letter 'T', 6 letters in all. hahahah. and ive met a someone alr. see there, im taking my first few steps to drop you. and to be honest, i think i alr have, its just i cant get over the memories, but i dont cry over them anymore.
oh, lunched wiv part of my og and my ogls after the camp, went to mac's where we got one super long row lahh ! haha.ate abit, and zhiyao was like "next time you go to camp tell us, we'll buy for you kiddie meal, wiv 3 fries, one nugget and one small cup of water, you'll be full" haha. he passed me the pathetic little thing, haha, you called it that, NOT ME. but anw, i just realised that my heart's like that thing, it's almost whole, except for that one part that you chipped off, wivout realising how or when, yepp.
check this out > joe and me, haha, our conv.
joe says:
fine
joe says:
i shall remove it
joe says:
i put ur picture there instead
joe says:
happy?
karolynn even the best falls down sometimes. says:
YES
karolynn even the best falls down sometimes. says:
YES
karolynn even the best falls down sometimes. says:
(:
joe says:
oh shit.
joe says:
did i just say that?
joe says:
okay forget everything
AND THEN he left this huge space between the conv lahh. PIG. haha, and we made this pact thingy. i dont really believe that it'll last though, and im gna win my bet ! woohoo ! (:
im dead tired. and im coughing like crazy lahh. SIXTEEN SIXTEEN !!! SIXTEEN SIXTEEN !!! (: uhhuh. this weird guy added me, haha, whatever.
thank You Lord for og16, the super high group, for cuimin menghow zhiyao farid, the greatest ogls, for my friends, for meetings, for tears (:
throw me a lifeline
6:10 PM
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Wednesday, January 04, 2006
so you sailed away
into a grey sky morning
now im here to stay
love can be so boring <
screams, i ACTUALLY finished packing my bag before dinner ((((: uhhuh.
but my bags like quite bursting lahh. silly bro, passed me his jjc bag. haha.
zyx, okay im like really bored, but whatever my show's starting, this is a really lame post.
and i really hope my bro comes for jj night, join the orange team !
oh oh, i tell you my phone sure die one, 2 nights without charging, that's quite pathetic.
thank You Lord, for my friends, for cough drops, for cough syrups, for cough medicine, for laughter, for screams, for clothes, for teachers.
throw me a lifeline
8:51 PM
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hey yell on til the music drowns you out
dont put words up in my mouth
i DIDNT steal your boyfriend <
today was better than ytd, i find i quite click wiv my classmates lahh, thats a good thing. evelyn was like "do you have friendster?" i went, yea. so she said "ADD ME ADD ME!" HAHA, me and kaiyan were laughing our heads off, then she turned and said "oh yea, you dont know my email!" HAHA. my og's actually really nice lahh (: oh yea, my heart broke today. -looks at belinda. she kept forgetting my name lahh, but not like as if it's not broken alr, so it was alryyt. my group makes me laugh, for that im really happy. HAHA, i slept during the cca talk today, but whatever, me and lover are going ODAC. (: if she doesnt wna go, i'll murderlise her. i have a motive for going ODAC, uhhuh. mass dance was crazy, partnered christopher today. i din know what the heck was the next step so i kept messing up.
had free water ! now, i sound like an auntie, HAHA.
camp's tmr, i think i'll have hell lot of last minute packing, packing panadols and all. oh yes, did i mention im sick? im coughing like crazy lahh.i hope it's as simple as that.
right, off to pack bag. okay, i must be pure and honest -looks at cuimin. HAHA, im off to eat my lunch and watch tv, then i'll start moving my lazy ass up and pack my bag.
OH MINDY NG, PLEASE DONT COME SLEEPING NEXT TO ME, I DONT WANT TO HAVE THE RESPONSIBILITY OF WAKING YOU UP, THANK YOU VERY MUCH. haha =DD.
promises are made to be broken, so dont you expect me to keep mine. its so ironic, your nick.
thank You Lord, for sleeping bags, for my team, for my friends, for my ogls, for cameras, for memories, wait, scratch that, for happy memories, for sunshine, for food.
throw me a lifeline
2:40 PM
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Tuesday, January 03, 2006
i will survive
im gna make it thru
just give me time
i WILL get over you <
started school today, you dont want to wake mindy up, trust me. and we were quite late, but actually its still counted as early. im in og 16, there's like fifteen girls and SEVEN guys? didnt really get to know everybody well. im actually quite a loner. (i hear people going HAHA) well well.
today was really quite admin and learning cheers. thats why im coughing now. the talks given were like super duper wuper b-o-r-i-n-g. HAHA. i still dont know what combi to choose ): its either econs or phy. learnt a dance, its like a pair dance and me and my partner were like, "I HAVE A STOMACHACHE, may i be excused?" HAHA, well, he's a fellow nanyanger, i THINK i rmb seeing him ard nanyang, but i dont rmb his name.
went out for lunch after that, me chia leching min were chatting about cute guys, and like wowwee one group's amt of cute guys beat fairfield's amt of cute guys hands down lahh.
my elder bro's actually really quite nice. (i seriously cant believe im saying this LAHH.)
he msged me early in the morning, and called me somemore.
okay, i can so blackmail somebody cos of one msg. haha (: this i like. THE UGLY ONE. haha. -looks at min.
saw chifatt today, he was like "promise me you wont ______________________" haha, that sentence kinda shocked me lahh.funny weird guy.
oh and well well, i kinda surprised myself, i realised things today.
thank You Lord, for my friends, for laughter, for cheers, for smiles (:
throw me a lifeline
6:57 PM
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Monday, January 02, 2006
i should have seen it coming
i should have read the signs
anyway, i guess it's over
can't believe that i'm the fool again
i thot this love would never end
how was i to know
you never told me min's over at my house.
actually, i have no idea why im posting this LAHH.
my bro was like throwing all his jjc stuff to me, i think i'll be the only retard who's wearing jjc stuffs during the camp.
cousin got a baby. haha, cant wait to see it, i dont even know if its a guy or a girl. HAHA.
oh yea, blame my retardedness on depression. -looks at gu.
HAHA.
thank You Lord, for my friends, for staying overs, for cars, for pretty babies
throw me a lifeline
11:50 PM
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im dam bored. ive got a feeling ive done it before, but what the heck? im bored, the end.
haha, and if i become retarded one day, blame it on depression.
LAST PERSON WHO
Made you cry: him
You shared a drink with: i dont remember
You went to the movies with: ness and min and nard
You went to the mall with: min sherri huizhen kayhan jerd sam
Yelled at you: kennard gan, that kuku screamed at me
Sent you an e-mail: friendster.
You kissed: HAHA, i dont think i should say
HAVE YOU EVER
Said "I love you" and meant it?: yepp.
Been to New York?: NO
Been to Florida?: no
California?: no
Hawaii?: no
Mexico?: no, okay im getting sad, ive not been to so many countries
China?: finally a yes.
Canada?: nope
danced naked?: in the showers?
Wish you were the opposite sex?: when i found out we had to give birth, yes.
Had an imaginary friend?: haha, yepp ! im still having one now, her name's karo, she's beside me right now.
Red or blue?: green.
Spring or fall?: fall
Last noise you heard?: my brother's watching some show, so the tv.
5 Things you like in a guy?: beautiful eyes, intiativeness, thoughtfulness, humourous, security.
Do you have a crush on someone?: haha, nope.
What book are you reading now?: havent been to the library for ages.
Worst feeling in the world?: heartbrokeness
What is the first thing you think when you wake in the morning?: what's the time now?
How many rings before you answer?: it depends.
Future daughter's name: i really like isis.
Are you a lefty, righty or ambidextrous?: righty, but i'd like to think of myself as ambidextrous.
Do you type with your fingers on the right keys?: haha, i'd like to think so
Siblings: 2 bros.
Piercings: ears.
Do you do drugs?: i dont do drugs, i just take them.
Do you drink?: yea, duuh. we all havta drink to stay alive.
What kind of Shampoo and Conditioner do you use?: organics, conditionerless.
What are you most scared of?: i'll tell you, but then april the first is coming.
What clothes do you sleep in?: whatever im wearing.
Who is the last person who called you?: him, to settle everyth.
Where do you want to get married?: in a church by the beach.
If you could change anything about yourself what would that be?: i would like bigger eyes please. and straighter hair.
Favorite number: 19. or 23.
Been In Love?: yepp
What Type Automobile Do You Drive: well, whatever the game has in it.
Are You Timely Or Always Late: im usually on time. hah (:
Do You Have A Job: yepp, im a student.
Do You Like Being Around People: depends on who ayye.
Are you for world peace: yepp, im living in the world what.
Are you a health freak: haha, of cos not.
Have you ever liked someone you had no chance with: well, we dont always end up wiv the person we like ayye.
Have You Ever Cried Over Something Someone of The Opposite Sex Did: yepp, just did.
Do You Have A "Type" Of Person You Always Go After: haha, nope. actually, i dont really know.
Do you Want Someone You Don't Have Right Now: frankly speaking, HAHA. (:
Ever liked a close boy/girl friend: weeellll, i have to know the person before i like the person, but weirdly, i never liked my close guy friends before. like joe, or kevin.
Are You Lonely Right Now: nope, im perfectly un-lonely
Ever Afraid You'll Never Get Married: im not worrying that i wont get married, i dont mind not getting married, but it'll be nice to get married
Do You Want Kids: yepp, ive even planned their names and all lahh.
FAVOURITE
Room in house: my room.
Day Of The Week: dont really know
Color: green.
Perfume and/Or Cologne: none, thank you
Month: JUNE.
Season: autumn.
IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU
Cried: yepp.
Bought Something: haha, the spraying thingy.
Gotten Sick: im sick now.
Sang: yepp, ytd was ipoding.
Said I Love You: yepp.
Wanted To Tell Someone You Loved them: wellll, wished i could
Met Someone New: my elder brother.
Had A Serious Talk: yepp.
Missed Someone: missing my darlings.
Hugged someone: luckee (:
Kissed someone: tiggers counted?
Fought With Your Parents: nope, im a good girl.
Dreamt About Someone You Can't Be With: dreamt? no. thought of, yes.
HAHA, AND MY ELDER BROTHER'S TALKING LIKE SOME SHIT GAY LAHH. he's like shaking his whole body when he's talking to me. he's digging out jjc shirts for me. HAHA, and i believe i'll be known as KENNARD'S SISTER in jjc. haha, i think my elder bro's cracking me up like crazy, thats what bros are for. (: HAHA.
throw me a lifeline
1:37 PM
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first you wna be free
now you say you need me
giving mixed signals and signs
it's so hard to let you in
thinking you might slam the brakes again <
so we finally settled everyth, one phone call, and it was all over.
i should have seen it coming, i should have read the signs, anyway, i guess it's overim really really glad that you finally realised who you like more.
yea, im serious when i said no harm done. im actually really quite okay.
guess i changed my way of thinking alr.
and im really glad we finally settled it, im not that confused after all, my decision was your decision, i'll learn to let go.
yea, and well, the one thing you said that hurt me the most was "whatever".
i guess we all made our mistakes when that thing happened, and maybe those mistakes are not mistakes actually, but someth that's right.
my heart was really tight, and i cried abit after the two phone calls, i had no idea what i was doing when i picked up my phone and called joe. but that one phone call just stopped the tears and my heart got unsqueezed. thanks dude (((: you prevented blood loss. =D haha, you have like 3 more years to save money to treat me, cos i dont think you'll win the bet. (: haha.
when i went to sleep, i woke up at like 5 am feeling like puking and cold to death, now im still feeling like puking, but im not cold. i guess my appetite's gone again, hais. but really, im okay. hmm, that statements sounds like im trying to assure myself, but really, im really okay. i cant wait for school to start, so i can meet my ahbeng. -looks at gaelan. haha. i know i'll get over you, once i meet another him, but whatever happens, i'll still be there for you.
min's coming to stay over, then we'll be going to school tgt (: HAHA. its time to change the time that we wake up. haha. and well, i hope i know the ppl in my class and it'll be so cool if i meet any of my primaries there (: hee.
BIG SORROWS COME OUT OF SMALL SINSthank You Lord, for JOE, for telephones, and for changing the way i think
throw me a lifeline
9:39 AM
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Sunday, January 01, 2006
i'll always look back as i walk away
this memory will last for eternity
and all of our tears will be los in the rain
when i've found my way back into your arms again
but until that day you know you are
the queen king of my heart <
wrote a long post, but well it got blanked out.
maybe it's just fate lahh that i can't get to post what im supposed to post.
ipoding today. blasted many songs and well realised many things through the lyrics.
and omg JOE TAN, you actually know my password?! thats freaking smart lahh ! (: yepp yepp, i guess thats why youre like my number two best guy friend. uhhuh. dont worry, there's still me. HAHA. that sounds familiar huh. no more A, still got K ! (:
this song i dedicate the lyrics to you, if you ever see this
WHO'S THAT GIRL ; HILARY DUFF.
there were places we would go at midnight
there were secrets that nobody else would know
there's a reason but i don't know why
i don't know why, i don't know why
i thought they all belonged to me
who's that girl? where's she from?
no she can't be the one
that you want, that has stolen my world
it's not real, it's not right
it's my day, it's my night
by the way, who's that girl
living my life?
seems like everyth's the same around me
then i look again and everyth has changed
i'm not dreaming so i don't know why
i don't know why, i don't know why
she's everywhere i wna be
who's that girl? where's she from?
no she can't be the one
that you want, that has stolen my world
it's not real, it's not right
it's my day, it's my night
by the way, who's that girl
living my life?
i'm the one who made you laugh
who made you feel and made you sad
i'm not sorry
for what we did, for who we were
i'm not sorry, i'm not her
who's that girl? where's she from?
no she can't be the one
that you want, that has stolen my world
it's not real, it's not right
it's my day, it's my night
by the way, who's that girl
living my life?
thank You Lord, for music, for ipod, for realisations, for sleep, for beds, for my friends.
throw me a lifeline
6:13 PM
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today is a stupid day.
its a really
fucking stupid start to a day.
i cant believe why it happened.
thanks to the pink shirt guy who pulled us all out.
thanks to that girl and guy who helped me up.
thanks to that person who lent huizhen the phone.
thanks to mindy jeraldine samantha sherri, i dont think i could have been okay if i was all alone.
thanks to min's sis's bf for sending us to buona vista.
thanks to kayhan. i believe alot of us fell in love wiv him that day, i did anyhow (think STRAIGHT), the way he was there for us, the way he searched for his sis, the way he fought everyth off.
and when everyth was over, i just realised, i could not rely on you. you weren't there for me when i needed you the most.
thank You Lord, for now i understand why You sent that stupid idiot to me, why You sent friends to me.
throw me a lifeline
2:43 AM
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