Monday, December 26, 2005

dear Lord, i thank You for everyth this year. thank You for the dream last night which showed me Your plan for me. Youve brought us tgt only to break us up again. now its up to me to see whether we should go back tgt. Lord i really need Your help in this. somehow Youve sent people to me each time im down, this time, You seem to send no one, but my bester, who only suggested that i grow closer to You, maybe kevin's right and i guess its time i made my own decision and learnt not to be swayed by others. i dont know the reason why Youve brought us tgt, maybe for the same reason, to forget the past. or perhaps to let us learn how to love someone else, and the meaning of letting go. did you bring us tgt for him? or for me? were we meant to be doors for each other? or just windows? or maybe just a crack somewhere? it just seems that im stuck in a room wiv two doors. one leading to freedom, and one leading to love. and behind those two doors, there'll be another door, one is happiness, and one is hurt. so which door do You suppose i should open. christmas, the season of giving. isit time for me to forGIVE?

i once again thank You Lord, thank You for his understanding thank You for well time. i thank You for her as well. is this a test for us? or were we really going against You being tgt? thank You for the dream. i think i know what i should do Lord. thank You.

amen (:

throw me a lifeline
11:07 AM

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