Saturday, September 24, 2005

there's always that one person that will always have your heart
you'd never see it comin' cos you're blinded from the start <

ahh right, typed one post like i dont know when, luckily blogger had some problem then and my post couldnt be posted. luckily ((:

so anw, that post was about memories and everyth.
yupp, i just realised i'd rather have painful memories then not having any at all.
i mean, yes they'll hurt you, but i'd rather learn from them and everyth than not knowing who i love and care about.
so cheers to sweet memories ((:


one more shoutout.
MANUELA SIYA FORSTER, wth. HOW CAN YOU FORGET ABOUT ME? im always here for you kay? there's still me in your life alryyt, so it's not that shitty ayye? ((: take cares fellow smith, i love you loads ((:





one more thing, i love that person that makes me smile like nuts (besides rocking darling that is haha ((:)

throw me a lifeline
10:58 PM

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Tuesday, September 20, 2005

so just read xji's blog.
it touched a nerve in me and i began to wonder, what's love? what really is love? have i experienced it before? is it what im feeling now?

the word love, has been passed between different people, majority of the time between the person who is your boyfriend/girlfriend, and i have said it many times, but now i start to think if it really was love? how do you know if you really and truly love that person? i mean like, a relationship can last for ten years, and both parties could have exchanged i-love-yous a million times, but it might not really be love.

everyone has different definitions of what love can be, i mean even i think of love differently from you. all these years, ive been thinking of love much more childishly, to me, love was what could make me happy, love was everyth to me, the 3 words can just come out of my mouth, and im not even sure if i meant to you everyone i said it to.
in the show "marry a rich man", the guy said love quite appropriately. "love, is like glass slippers, its mostly useless, cant be eaten, cant be used to keep warm, but often times, everyone is seeking for it." why huh?

i dont understand anyth, maybe im not old or matured enough. but since when was there an age limit for love? it isnt nc-16, or m-18, or r-21. but i dont even think all married couples love each other. some are just with each other for the sake of their children, some are with each other cos they've gotten used to that person.

i have this passage about love, the one line that struck me the most was "although you are attracted to many others, but that one person still remains in your heart, that's love" (right, it's someth like that, but the meaning is the same lahh) that seems so weird. so all along have i been experiencing love? each time i pull myself away, one LOOK pulls me back in, im beaten even before i admit it. one thought of the past and im just struggling to get hold of someth to float on. i dont know.

theres many junk about love. and alot of people say that if you say the word love, and the first person that comes into your mind, you love that person, thats quite crap right. when i think real hard, i come to one conclusion, that the person that im quite confident ive loved, is never the first to pop into my mind. you wna know who pops into my mind first, now thats a secret.







so really whats love?
is love making the one you love happy, even if it guarantees your sadness?
is love giving up everyth just to see the one you love smile?
is love butterflies in your tummy each time you think or see that person?
is love someth that keeps you going on each time life sucks?
is love really needed to keep you alive?





right, this post is quite crap, forgive me, i just needa write my thoughts down somewhere.

throw me a lifeline
10:49 PM

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heigh-ho, it's home from work we go <

had much much much much fun these few days ((:
haha, okay, that seems weird, i mean im having prelims these few days.
but its kinda crazy the way we all go out and play after the papers, its quite relaxing too lahh.

papers are almost done, i CANT WAIT to watch my recordings of the apprentice.


RIGHT RIGHT,
im HAPPY. ((:
wont say more.



much love, to all my darlings ((:

throw me a lifeline
9:20 PM

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Monday, September 05, 2005

somebody once told me
the world is gna roll me <

i just realised someth. ((:

when i am down, there are friends around me who are really really actually there for me.
there's this saying that goes "if you have made at least FIVE REAL and true friends before you died, you've lived a wonderful life".

thanks friends ((:
and i guess doreen has had more than five, so i guess God took her away early to let her do the things she cant do on earth, and God knew she had led a wonderful life.

oh yes, and ive realised someth even better !
my mom rocks and she's the best mom ever ((:
gna study at je today and SHE din even say stuff like come to our house to study lahh. she just immediately complied !
yeeha, she's starting to trust me again ! ((:


so im a happy girl for now.







THANKS GOD, for my friends that youve sent me ((:
"best friends are siblings God forgot to give us"
THANKS GOD, for my mother that youve given me ((:

throw me a lifeline
11:10 AM

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