Tuesday, June 21, 2005
the girl with the broken smile <
didnt wna blog today. BUT I GTA SAY THIS.
MRS CLARA HO ((:
I LOVE YOU ABSOLUTELY MUCH !
I MISS YOU ABSOLUTELY ABSOLUTELY MUCH AS WELL.
please, no one can be AS SWEET as her ((:
wait, i'll show you what i mean.
>16. TWO PERSONS THAT YOU MISS A LOT?
- HAHA more than 2, KARO (:
>i miss my darling karo too.
ahhh i miss you the most!
(((:
i'll get to see you soon.
yes yes yes?
heeeeeeee (:
so sweet.
can't stand it.
HAHAHAHA we're like saying -ILOVEYOU to each other online now.
haha madness.
but it's normal.
((:
I LOVE HER!
my gosh, please i dont think anyone can ever come close to her sweetness. DARLING, I MISS YOU ((: im gna see you IN ONE WEEK'S TIME. i cant WAIT. (((((((:
hmm.i guess everyone has this emotional side to herself. no matter how strong she appears, how happy she appears, how popular she may be. there's always this down side. hahs, how sad it seems. no one can be perfectly happy for life. hais. ohwells. memories are there to keep you company, but sometimes, i wish we could just forget you know. there's so many things i wish i could just put behind. i dont mind getting amnesia now. forget everything, including my name, my everything. no troubles, no memories, no crying. no recollection of what i am, maybe then i can be happy. like the guy in "square pegs" i wish we all just led lives like him, simple, happy, absent-minded. i guess being retarded, or dimwitted, is good. we'll all just be simple and everything.
memories suck, alot. i may be with him, but my heart's not totally his. it belongs to the people i've been with, and truly loved. i dont want to remember at times. sometimes i wish we could sleep, and forget all the bad things, all the things we wna forget.
maybe, just maybe, i might not wna forget you. but youre past. i know. sometimes, it hurts to look back and look forward. and the present's not much good. hmmm.
i would really like to sleep on it, but i dont even dare to sleep. this life just sucks. i just cant wait for some things in life to happen. i pray for Him to protect me, i guess i can only do it myself.
no, you cant help me, you just make me smile ((: ;
throw me a lifeline
9:37 PM
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