Thursday, April 28, 2005

how does it feel to be
different from me ;

im weird. i just suddenly feel super bad.
it totally sucks feeling something for the guy your friend totally adores.
and is trying to give him up.
yet you still blabber on and on about him. =((.


HOW !!


im practically going crazy.
im in need of a hearttalker.
AND NONE ARE ONLINE.
i better settle this after coming back from chiangrai.



im bored and done with packing.
so leme make a list of the people i'll miss. ((=.
>my dog, who licks me goodbye every morning.
>my fish, who does erm, nothing.
>my handphone, my mom is TAKING it. and she'll be back TWO DAYS later than me !
>my ipod mini, MY SOURCE OF MUSIC, MY LIFE.
>my computer, i survived THREE months, i can survive this.
>THE APPRENTICE =((, the show rocks.
>my elder brother, and his chem textbook knowledge !
>my mother who is going to australia for HOLIDAY.
>mindy ng, who keeps looking at the parade square this recess.
>vanessa loh, and teasing her about herself.
>sherrianne bernadette choo, that blur pig who always offs her phones.
>charmaine choo wanton, OSCAR !
>ho jia yee, and her smart brains.
>oliviaaa lee, the shouting of the deputy.
>christi, her going on and on about _ _ _ _ _ _
>chery loo, her sleeping.
>mesy, the girl that croaks my name out
>YOUU, and the whacks on my head
>my bed, its oh-so comfy !
>my stuffed toys, im bringing one only. =((. the one me and bro have.
>the talks with the high5+3 about HIM HER. heh.
>that beautiful face of his, everyday in school. perks my day up.
>STALKER, okay, i wont talk about it.

okay, the list will go on.

lets see the things im looking forward to.
>SHOPPING
>ROLEX ! -looks at God of mischeif !
erm. =D, okay lets skip this.

the things i WONT miss.
>my YOUNGER brother's constant wining.
>that idiotic moron, as stalker calls him.
>the lessons, which are fall-asleepable.
>the pile of homework i'll be coming home to.
>erm, the fights for the tv and comp.

HEH. im bored and im going to watch the tv now.
BYE.

throw me a lifeline
9:05 PM

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lets shoot down some random thoughts.

>ive gta wake up at like 4.15 tmr? yes, so i mind as well as dont sleep?
>im barely done packing, and im too lazy to finish up.
>im glad im missing THREE HOURS of chinese tmr and amath.
>mrs kwek is really really nice. really.
>qi li xiang is a song to blast.
>im getting happier.
>the distance is growing apart le.
>_ _ _ _ _ _ IS SUPER SUPER SHUAIII ! and i ALMOST got into the same service learning as him. NOT FAIR.
>happy birthday BRYAN FOK . ((=. i said no present for you.
>chiangrai has suddenly lost its attraction to me. i'd rather go nepal. ugggh.
>JOEL LOKE, I WANT MY ROLEX ! =D.
>shijianhua is DEFINITELY picking on me. jiayi jiayi jiayi nonstop.
>i somehow like this phrase, beautiful fake smile.
>and im somehow thinking alot about this guy. ((=.

ah right, my moms screaming. and what? shes leaving tmr as well and what? she hasnt packed a SINGLE THING yet. and shes screaming at me. beautiful. what a great mom.





JOY IS REALLY CUTE. heh.




>thank you God, for my friends, every single one. hi-and-bye friends, THE BESTIES, those i talk to often, especially those who have been there for me. and those people who crack me up all the time.

throw me a lifeline
8:07 PM

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Monday, April 25, 2005

days past fast.
one blink, it's monday.
ive packed for friday.

chinese mockexam's over.
i think i can do fairly okay.

you let me down, i dont want the sunflowers anymore.

zhengliang is really really nice.
loke also.
weixin too.

its really surprising.
i LOVE my class clique a whole bunch.
i dont know how im leaving my class this year.
besides 6h'01, ive never met a class i love this much.



yes, today sucks.
i broke down like again.
since when did i become so weak.
its like a daily routine thing to cry lahh.
im just glad for all my friends.

if its one thing i'll learn, i'll put it to work.
thank God for what he's given you to make you a proper person instead of what you want him to give you and did not have.

like i thank God for sending me a mother like my mom to make do with my father.
like i thank God for my elder brother to make do for my younger one.
i thank God for my cliques for giving me that shoulder to cry on.
i thank God for my bestest best friend > stalker. who although just pissed me off has been there for me for like forever.
i thank God for alot alot of things, food on the table, money to spend, gallons of friends, roof over my head.





its hard to get over him.
but i will.
its hard to recover from whatever im going through.
but i will.

ive got the bestest bunch of friends you could ever ask for.


THANKS DEARIES ! LOVE.





i feel funny typing this happy post.

throw me a lifeline
8:12 PM

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Friday, April 22, 2005

i dont want to say anything now. so let me just do this thing off friendster.

Top 5 People/Thing you LOVE:
o1. my ipod mini
o2. my mothermy
o3. THE BESTIES
o4. God
o5. rainbows

Top 5 places always go/enjoy going:
o1. town
o2. library
o3. my cousin's house
o4. the end of the rainbow with the pot of gold
o5. school

Top 5 things you'd probably be seen doing:
o1. crying
o2. sleeping
o3. eating
o4. studying
o5. looking out for rainbows

Top 5 outfits/accessories that you own and can'tlive without it:
o1. my ipod mini
o2. my handphone
o3. pictures
o4. rainbows
o5. my boxes

Top 5 aspects/characteristics you love aboutYourself:
o1. i hate myself
o2. i hate myself
o3. i hate myself
o4. i hate myself
o5. okay, maybe i love the fact that God created me.

Top 5 countries you really wanna go:
o1. heaven
o2. mars
o3. the moon
o4. the end of the rainbow
o5. heaven

Top 5 things you look forward from your dream guy:
o1. plays a musical instrument
o2. sporty
o3. must know how to cook
o4. makes my day
o5. accepts my faults

Top 5 things you want to buy now!
o1. death
o2. one way ticket to heaven
o3. chocolates
o4. icecreams
o5. lollipops

alryyt, perhaps doing it was wrong too. ahh well, who cares



im flunking tmr's test.






and im home alone.






my head hurts, my heart hurts. theres this thing missing and i cant put my finger on WHAT it is.

throw me a lifeline
7:07 PM

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Thursday, April 21, 2005

thanks everyone who was there when i broke down.
>christina
>olivia
>joy
>mesy
>jiayee
>charmaine
>mindy
>sherri
>bryan
>manu
>stalker
>joelloke


and take care, cheryl






it went on, non-stop. for half an hour at least.

im down in the dumps, just chuck me even more in please.
kill me, at least if i die, i'll be happy.








or will i not?

throw me a lifeline
4:56 PM

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Wednesday, April 20, 2005

i couldn't tell you
why she felt this way
she felt it everyday ;

IM STILL SAD. =(((((.


forgive my insanity, this girl is way beyond rescue.




jumping down the block has never deemed to be so good.



=((.

throw me a lifeline
5:16 PM

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Tuesday, April 19, 2005

i dont know whats wrong with me.
im like super sad.
perhaps what nigel said today just slammed me to the floor.
and the fact that...

hais.


and im sick once again.







who gives a damn?
dangit.

throw me a lifeline
7:51 PM

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Sunday, April 17, 2005

if i had wings i would fly ;

just came from kailin's blog.
she made this one statement.
"people change"
sure, i totally agree.
i changed too.
but at times i wonder if im better now or last time?
i can count people who have changed for the worst, people who have changed for the better.
who wants to stay in their baby way anyway?
makes sense right?

somehow, i think ive changed for the better. im happy with that. ((=.
>ive learnt the meaning of love.
>ive learnt how to love someone, but not in a bgr way.
>i dont flirt that much anymore.
and so much more. i learnt that when i was in sec2, it was really my turning point. good memories bad memories.
im still learning more now.
perhaps theres still that baby in me, like how i go cooing over tiggers? heh.

my dog is so cute ! ((=.



and YOU, please lahh hor. keep your irritating and silly nonsensical comments to yourself. i can't keep it in me anymore, and i assure you i will lash out the next time you insult me or anyone of us. youre not that big alryyt, you suck in fact. and i hate you. and no, you are so NOT my friend. and dont think youre that big a deal, cos you are seriously not ! uggggh, turn off.

throw me a lifeline
8:05 PM

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youre not fooling noone
youre not even fooling you ;

im addicted to why not ; hillary duff. its beautiful lahh.
did this blogskin myself. im happy with myself.
i really love stalkers jacket. its like dang comfy lahh.
time to study chinese, its like in 6 days time?
i want my sunflower soon, stalker !
my brother has his mp3 for so long, and he doesnt know how to work it.
my elder brothers gna get an ipod lahh ! and he's gna change it with my younger brother !
not fair. =((.
i still like my mini, im not complaining.


well, maybe i am. =D.

throw me a lifeline
10:37 AM

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Saturday, April 16, 2005

been awhile since im here.
comp was screwed last night.

days were alryyt.
bryanfok keeps making me stupid by pushing my head, an obvious sign of jealousy for my brains and my hair.
stalkers very nice.
and i absolutely love his sweater, the one i took from him today.
heh.
yes, finally, no more ccas ! ((=.

i wna go out with my girlies soon, meaning manu chris and looey.

throw me a lifeline
2:46 PM

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Monday, April 11, 2005

raindrops on roses
whiskers on kittens ;

day was alryyt.
captain's ball was fun.
i realise i cant really run, my stamina's gone way down.
lifeskills was fun, the fact that ive been planning it for so long just makes it simpler.
topic? marriage.
humans was interesting, me and zhengliang were crapping.
he's crazy over this girl called suyira, his princess, see this?
training was alryyt.
sirong's nice to try to catch up with me.
im manu's "thy highness".
and eunotnice's princess.
they both owe me a bow each.
tingkong's catching up with me.

THEN.
shibin told me smth. dang, im sad =((. like i cant believe it sad.
i didnt even expect to be sad. dangit.

i need someone to talk to about this.
i cant cope, and i cant talk to my hearttalker.
its not fair. =((.

throw me a lifeline
10:10 PM

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Sunday, April 10, 2005

right, i just read manu's blog.
and yes, i MUST blog this.

here's my "short" message manu !
i miss you guys too !
thats why i belong to the FOUROFUS. ((=.
haha, i cant believe we chatted for almost NINETY minutes lahh.
((=, lucky you got incoming call lahh manu !
and christinaa why you must have second line lahh.
haha.
i cant believe we spent so much time talking about miss singapore universe.
haha, it seemed like nothing, but it was sooooo much fun.
i love you guys.
the arty person, the singer, the trombone player.
but i bet loo shi lei isn't gna see this. haha.
LOVE.

p.s. today's haley joel osments birthday.
who is SO NOT joel loke's twin lahh.

throw me a lifeline
9:59 PM

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everybody.
please pray that he dies soon.
let him please die.

i HATE him.
whats wrong with me?
whats my problem.
HIM.

fuck.

throw me a lifeline
4:46 PM

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i can make it through the rain ;

today is HALEY JOEL OSMENT's birthday.
unhuns, its gna be a GREAT day (((=.
heh.
and what a coincidence i just read finish pay it forward.
uggh, i cried, and its a BOOK i read?

>tuition's cancelledd
>gna visit grandma

the saddest thing though, is my brother's leaving tonight.
back to ocs.
-crosses fingers.
i hope i get to see him on tuesday.

mindy misses me !
haha, too bad lover, youre not YOUU.

throw me a lifeline
10:43 AM

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Saturday, April 09, 2005

and through it all
she offered me protection ;

tuition was much laughs today.
im happy for now.

tmrs haley's birthday ! ((=.
uhh. two weeks to chinese midyrs !

haha, nigeellll ! still ons?


and if i say i miss youu, would youu say youu miss me too?
and if i say i still love youu, would youu smile and say youu never stopped loving me?
if i say i need youu, would youu just walk away?

throw me a lifeline
12:59 PM

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love isn't love
til you give it away ;

my brothers home from ocs.
bought me this pink pig pouch thingy. cute ((=.
sound of musics nice.
even from circle three, you could see the performance fairly well.
right, its not nice, its extraordinary, beautiful.

and, im soooo dead.
i need money to buy presents.
and i have no money to buy ONE present.
and i need money to buy TWO presents.
argh, what am i saying?

i'm confused, now what am i saying.
my mind's made up, at least it was made up.
now i'm having second thoughts.

throw me a lifeline
8:57 AM

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Friday, April 08, 2005

trying to fit a square
into a circle isn't life ;

mrlums really nice.
yelins super nice, made me this personalised pencil.
out tonight watching sound of music.
found out some weird fact about guys.
amath test's kinda easy.
my hairs messy tied up, it looks weird.

I HATE HIM.
what the hell lahh, i dont treat it as just one comment where you can say it and i wont feel anything lahh. just buzz off.

throw me a lifeline
3:06 PM

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Wednesday, April 06, 2005

there can't be any rainbow
wihtout any rain.

im super tired.
i had this real weird dream last night?
i hate vaccinations.
my stalker is really nice, accompanied me to the docs ytd.
i can't wait to go to safti mi again.
i can't wait to go to chiang rai.
and i cant wait, for olevels to pass.
its stressing, dang.

i need time out from studying.
i need to destroy this comp before i never get off it.
bye world.

throw me a lifeline
9:12 PM

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Monday, April 04, 2005

there can't be any rainbow
wihtout any rain.

unhuns, today was quite alryyt.
mr lum's really lame lahh.
he was like saying this lame thing then after that he said its a cold joke cos its a cold morning. like diao. the lame thing that he said was. "oh, so you like younger guys" then i told him no "oh, so you like older guys" then i told him i liked guys same age as me then he went "aiya, so i no chance le" i was alr going diaoooo. but he's really cool. that day at crosscountry he asked me what happened when i was in the red cross tent. then when i said i wanted to vomit, he inched away from me. hahaa. and he's corrupted, so corrupted. but in a good way. =D.

uhh, and i forgot what shibin said, but it was smth in the lines of men needing women cos women were better than men. unhuns, please refer to his testi for the real thing.

i self invited myself to self study. i ended up teaching the guys how to do physics. haha, i succeeded in teaching danielng parallel circuits thingy. im cut off for TEACHING ! ken teo walked past me so many times muttering someone's name. its been awhile since i heard it, and i have no intention of hearing it. thank you so much ken teo. friends yes, more than friends no. besides i dont have that plans now.

just came home from cutting hair, i like my fringe, then it started to tickle my eyes and irritate me. and im glad i only need like FOUR clips to pin my hair up. yupp.
i think im getting sore eyes. it hurts to put the eye drop lahh.

im going back to visit my bro on the twelfth of this month. theres some trip to safti mi ocs and im really happy. mrs chng was saying there would be shuai ge. OF COS ! > my BROTHER. ((=. please look out for this tag > JH GAN. its my brother, he's the SHUAIEST GE !

ahh right, congrats choir people. gold with honours for syf. haha, thats a great achievement dearies ! and to say ive got TWO cheapthrills there. unhuns. =D.

im back to study chinese. luckily i didnt go crazee ytd.

throw me a lifeline
9:18 PM

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Sunday, April 03, 2005

there can't be any rainbow
wihtout any rain.

went to visit my brother in safti mi.must say i really do miss him. he's like the perfect one in my family.
he brought us ard his camp.like his bunk to the parade square is super long? i walk until super tired lahh.
haha, am proud that he's in ocs? yepp ! OFFICER cadet school, he was like the top of his whole unit lahh. ((=.
he's coming home this fri, when im off to esplanade watching the sound of music.

yupp, i love my mommy. she bought for me this tigger handphone chain. its SUPER cute i tell you.

karo is happy today. now she's back to study chinese, lets just say shes going crazy again.

youu or you?
rain or rainbows?
happiness or love?

UGH.

throw me a lifeline
6:41 PM

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Saturday, April 02, 2005

there can't be any rainbow
wihtout any rain.

gaylan glue is suddenly so nice !
im the crazy one, he's the uncrazy one. enjoyy.

ahh right, the conv is too long
but let me cut out some


the_ultimaflux: hahaha gundamtards... gmail's space storage upped to 2 plus GB! says:
in a siao mood ar?
SOMANYWORDS SOMANYMEANINGS SOMANYSENTENCES KAROSGOINGCRAZY C > CRAZYKAROLYNN =(( says:
CHINESE IS SO HARD CANN
SOMANYWORDS SOMANYMEANINGS SOMANYSENTENCES KAROSGOINGCRAZY C > CRAZYKAROLYNN =(( says:
THERES SO MAAAAAAAAANY WORDS LAHH
SOMANYWORDS SOMANYMEANINGS SOMANYSENTENCES KAROSGOINGCRAZY C > CRAZYKAROLYNN =(( says:
YOU TRY STUDYING
the_ultimaflux: hahaha gundamtards... gmail's space storage upped to 2 plus GB! says:
wad u reading??
SOMANYWORDS SOMANYMEANINGS SOMANYSENTENCES KAROSGOINGCRAZY C > CRAZYKAROLYNN =(( says:
UGGGGHHHH.
SOMANYWORDS SOMANYMEANINGS SOMANYSENTENCES KAROSGOINGCRAZY C > CRAZYKAROLYNN =(( says:
CHINESE !
the_ultimaflux: hahaha gundamtards... gmail's space storage upped to 2 plus GB! says:
shou ce?
SOMANYWORDS SOMANYMEANINGS SOMANYSENTENCES KAROSGOINGCRAZY C > CRAZYKAROLYNN =(( says:
NO
SOMANYWORDS SOMANYMEANINGS SOMANYSENTENCES KAROSGOINGCRAZY C > CRAZYKAROLYNN =(( says:
THE NOTES SHE GIVE US
SOMANYWORDS SOMANYMEANINGS SOMANYSENTENCES KAROSGOINGCRAZY C > CRAZYKAROLYNN =(( says:
UGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
the_ultimaflux: hahaha gundamtards... gmail's space storage upped to 2 plus GB! says:
woah woah lax lax
SOMANYWORDS SOMANYMEANINGS SOMANYSENTENCES KAROSGOINGCRAZY C > CRAZYKAROLYNN =(( says:
then all the words got different meanings
SOMANYWORDS SOMANYMEANINGS SOMANYSENTENCES KAROSGOINGCRAZY C > CRAZYKAROLYNN =(( says:
and all the words got different zao ju !
the_ultimaflux: hahaha gundamtards... gmail's space storage upped to 2 plus GB! says:
orh
SOMANYWORDS SOMANYMEANINGS SOMANYSENTENCES KAROSGOINGCRAZY C > CRAZYKAROLYNN =(( says:
UGGGGGGGHHHHH. im going crazy !
the_ultimaflux: hahaha gundamtards... gmail's space storage upped to 2 plus GB! says:
that paper
the_ultimaflux: hahaha gundamtards... gmail's space storage upped to 2 plus GB! says:
chey
SOMANYWORDS SOMANYMEANINGS SOMANYSENTENCES KAROSGOINGCRAZY C > CRAZYKAROLYNN =(( says:
you no need to have any more lab partner le
SOMANYWORDS SOMANYMEANINGS SOMANYSENTENCES KAROSGOINGCRAZY C > CRAZYKAROLYNN =(( says:
=(((.
the_ultimaflux: hahaha gundamtards... gmail's space storage upped to 2 plus GB! says:
aiya relax la
the_ultimaflux: hahaha gundamtards... gmail's space storage upped to 2 plus GB! says:
they're juz words
the_ultimaflux: hahaha gundamtards... gmail's space storage upped to 2 plus GB! says:
juz noe the meaning can liao
SOMANYWORDS SOMANYMEANINGS SOMANYSENTENCES KAROSGOINGCRAZY C > CRAZYKAROLYNN =(( says:
THEYRE CHINESE WORDS WITH DIFFERENT MEANINGS AND DIFFERENT ZAO JUS !
SOMANYWORDS SOMANYMEANINGS SOMANYSENTENCES KAROSGOINGCRAZY C > CRAZYKAROLYNN =(( says:
THYRE ALL DIFFERENT WORDS !


OMANYWORDS SOMANYMEANINGS SOMANYSENTENCES KAROSGOINGCRAZY C > CRAZYKAROLYNN =(( says:
TWENTY ONE MORE DAYS TO THE PRELIM PAPER LAHH
SOMANYWORDS SOMANYMEANINGS SOMANYSENTENCES KAROSGOINGCRAZY C > CRAZYKAROLYNN =(( says:
then ONE MORE MONTH TO THE OLEVELS
SOMANYWORDS SOMANYMEANINGS SOMANYSENTENCES KAROSGOINGCRAZY C > CRAZYKAROLYNN =(( says:
=(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((
the_ultimaflux: hahaha gundamtards... gmail's space storage upped to 2 plus GB! says:
really?/
the_ultimaflux: hahaha gundamtards... gmail's space storage upped to 2 plus GB! says:
wa shiook
SOMANYWORDS SOMANYMEANINGS SOMANYSENTENCES KAROSGOINGCRAZY C > CRAZYKAROLYNN =(( says:
you really want me TO DIE ISIT, SAY SHIOK ! SO MANY WORDS !
the_ultimaflux: hahaha gundamtards... gmail's space storage upped to 2 plus GB! says:
wait i help u la
the_ultimaflux: hahaha gundamtards... gmail's space storage upped to 2 plus GB! says:
u wan my help or not?


the_ultimaflux: hahaha gundamtards... gmail's space storage upped to 2 plus GB! says:
hahaha juz when i brought the paper here


gaylan glue is suddenly so nice. but all he wanted to tell me was to write a testi to him.
wonderfull.


im stressing myself wayyyy out here
UGGGGHHH. =((

throw me a lifeline
11:37 PM

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ugggghhhhhhh !

i hate chinese
and i hate the person who invented chinese

uggggghhhhh !

why MUST we study chinese

sheee-it lahh, its irritating me.

UGGGGGGHHHHHHHH !!

throw me a lifeline
10:56 PM

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there can't be any rainbow
wihtout any rain.

me and tauni are having a reallyyyy weird conv online about ytd crosscountry.
like all the 5a guy runners fell? and one canadian guy's specs was deformed like nobody's business lahh.

i feel weirdddd.
and i feel lame doing a birthday present thats due in half a year, right karo, youve really got your year planned.

lets try some random thoughts
> i hate cross countrys, they leave you with anything but happiness.
> tauni has the same problem as me, forgetting what we wna say.
> the band camp is at a really weird timing?
> rainbows are beautiful ((=.
> i miss school.

sheesh, im weird.
right, im off to study chinese.
TWENTYONE more days to the prelims lahh.
nigel youre going broke. haha. =D.

throw me a lifeline
6:39 PM

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there can't be any rainbow
wihtout any rain.

eesh, ive just realised how boring my life is. its so systematic i think i can close my eyes and live through my life without a tad off.
ive just calculated.
im studying everyday.
and i will be studying for the next eight to ten years of my life.
when i train to be a teacher, i'll STILL be studying.
ughh.

i lead SUCH a boring life.

throw me a lifeline
2:35 PM

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Friday, April 01, 2005

there can't be any rainbow
wihtout any rain.

shee-it, theres something wrong with msn and i cant sign in.
right.

>muscle cramp
>nauseous
>headache
>knee ache
i hate crosscountrys.
i cant do long-d running alryyt, i'll kill sijay if i could for putting my name down for competitive.
i'll kill myself for agree-ing to run.
i really feel sheee-ittyy lahh.

the only good thing about going to crosscountry today was youu lahh. youu totally brightened up my whole day, and its super surprisingly? unhuns.

i suck at doing birthday presents lahh.
its weird. ive started now and his birthday is not for eight months?
and i havent gotten the 12th april and 28th april people present.

sheee-it lahh.
>23 april ; chinese prelims
>29 april ; flying off

theres really not enough time to study.
i cant win you lahh nigel !
i still cant get my sec 4 work proper and i havent touched sec 3 2 and 1 stuff lahh.
shee-it lahh.




SO MUCH FOR NOT BEING STRESSED.
im TEARING my hair out now.
and i DONT stress myself ALRYYT.

i dont wna have ANYMORE tuition.
just wasting my time there.
idiot

throw me a lifeline
10:50 PM

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