Saturday, March 26, 2005

there cant be any rainbow
without any rain.

for three times today, i stared blank at this page.
i totally dont know what to type down.
im surprisingly exhausted even though i din do much today.
im surprisingly tired inside of me even though i think theres no more burden.

tuition sucked somehow.
i wish sam would stop imitating me with a high squeaky winny voice.
do i sound that way?
i wish mr marcus would stop saying theres something between me and guoxi.
cos there totally isn't. we're so totally just friends.
and i hate the way he expects all the attention when he gives us totally zero?
like he's a big shot.
i suddenly really want to change tuition centre.

somehow i wish all my wishes could come true.
then i dont have to feel this way.
i wish for youu to say sorry.
i wish for you to say you love me too.
i wish for my besties to be my besties for life.
i wish i was smarter and better in netball.
i wish i didn't have tear ducts, it sucks only knowing how to cry.
i wish i had a softer voice, i dont mean to talk loudly all the time.
i wish i didn't have him, my life would definitely not suck this much.
i wish people would understand, so i dont have to force all the hahas and smiles im forcing on.
i wish people would not irritate me so i dont have to shout all the time.

i wish i was dead.
so i dont have to wish all those.

i wish ness min baby sherri hz tm sammy chris joy choo oo mesy jiayee olivia manu shis youu stalker you nigel yc loke etc etc to be happy for life.

i wish everyone i love and care for to just be happy so i can never never never ever be sad again.

ms yow asked who we admired. who i admire? i admire someone who doesnt swear, cant stand swearing. i dont want to swear anymore. im serious. not even fcuk or freak. not even damn, shit, stupid. and seriously, i'll need reminding. i just sprout them out like nobody's business.

for now, i'll just wish i would stop saying eff. please please no one piss me off.

throw me a lifeline
10:37 PM

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