Thursday, March 31, 2005

i think of you-

was listening to that song on my ipod mini, its really nice, made me think of you. i felt better somehow.

anyhow, THANK YOU so much ; stalker. you practically knocked some kind of sense into me. but i somehow still havent changed my thinking yet. thanks for sitting there with me while i dumbly cried over nothing? unhuns, i'll take up that offer of teaching me emath. i dont know a single thing and ive like threequater a graph book to fill. and i saw you slip money back into my wallet alryyt ! im not blind. i must pay you back everything one day. unhuns.

>tension headaches
>juniors
>crosscountrys
>homeworks from first day of school
they're such a turn off.

and NO IM NOT STRESSED. =((.




i expected more. so much more from you guys. perhaps i was wrong.

throw me a lifeline
6:09 PM

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Wednesday, March 30, 2005

there can't be any rainbow
wihtout any rain.

obviously theres smth wrong wiv my mom's labtop. i took ages to sign in here?
ahh, ohwells.

school was normal. nth thoroughly interesting except mrs kwek's off for course, four periods of a teacher more shun yan. ahhh. bliss. haha.

went for makan wiv charma oo seow dumbass nigel tian and nathan. ate pizza hut after a long discussion? the guys kept leaving chicken for me and charma to eat cos we were against the eating of chickens? uhh. the three girls bought winniethepooh unos. its reallehh reallehh pretteh, im sooo in love with it lahh. haha.

she and he messaged me about stuffs. i dont know whats going on and how im stuck in between but here's a shout out to both of them. you guys, please, dont destroy your friendship alryyt.
she > he's trying to be normal, be normal too alryyt. if not lovers, at least friends are better than enemies or strangers. yea?
he > i know youre alr trying real hard, but please learn to put urselves in others shoes. yupp, if thats the way to handle it then do it alryyt, the way youre handling this.
you guys had much fun tgt, dont let just smth so small but not insignificant destroy your friendship with each other. you guys can really just be happy as just friends alryyt, then just be just friends. but anything, im here for the BOTH of you alryyt. ((=. stay happy. im stressed out for you two lahh. haha.

waiting for TAN SI JAY to get home, i need the emath graphs from him. he must have trg today, perfect.

right, my number tag's SEVENTY FOUR. what kind of silly number is that? it's one mark away from an a1. and it means NOTHING to me lahh. =((, no fair. i want SEVENTY NINE. or seventy two or the best is NINETEEN. =((

YEE HAA. my dearest brudder NIGEL LEE is set with seeing who gets higher for chinese. haha, finally ive got a competitor. unhuns. ((=. thanks bro. haha, i still rmb the last time he had to get me 40 brownies. heh, this time the bet's lowered unhuns. ((=.

throw me a lifeline
8:27 PM

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Tuesday, March 29, 2005

there can't be any rainbow
wihtout any rain.

left school after chinese test.
i skipped three periods of english and three periods of emath.
unhuns.

i slept for SIX hours after coming home.
phew, i still managed to wake up to study for chi test tmr.
yes, i messed the last test up. SEVENTEEN upon FIFTY.
-whistles.
so cool. i better bury that test ppr from my parents.
otherwise i'll be the one that gets buried.

20.5 for emath test, thats a lucky break.
and now marcus is asking me if there's emath test tmr?
ah shit, im screwed [is that a vulgar word?] for math this yr lahh.
i definitely needed a better tutor.
my stalker's good enough for emath, i better hire him for amath too. =D.


perhaps i did lie.
perhaps i did not.
please, Father, show me the way.

yay, we talked. ((=. as in youu and me.

throw me a lifeline
9:41 PM

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Sunday, March 27, 2005

there cant be any rainbow
without any rain.

me and GAYlan are having this weird conv online now?
we're calling each other dumbasses [is that vulgar?] and retards
he's so full of moles he doesnt even know whos the dumbass and retard.
unhuns.
but sure, im having real fun insulting him.
btw, can someone tag me on what is resourcefulness?
the dumbass doesnt wna explain to me cos he's a dumbass and uses bombastic words without knowing whats their meaning.
ah right, and it all started with him accidentally leaving out the o in karo and he asking the deadline for chem proj.
yes, how things evolve?

pammy's really cute.
she sent me this wallppr on the lil mermaid.
and just asked me to put it as wall ppr? haha, real cute right.

oh yes, im bloodehh happy, i topped my class for physics.
i beat yuenteck for physics and he cant believe it cos he won me in the test by half a mark.
i got a staggering NINETY FOUR, yes im bloodehh happy. [no bloodehh's not vulgar, i know, my mom uses it]
((= haha, compare that to the fiftynine last year? unhuns.

anyone needs physics tuition? i charge ten bucks an hour, its cheap alr lahh.
haha.
do YOU need physics tuition? =D. ah sheesh, i forgot you alr got physics tuition.

TOO BAD SHIBIN, FRIENDSTER GOT PROBLEM YOU CANT GET YOUR TESTI.
heh.

right, its weixian's bdae today. haha, all the memories flooded back when i saw this date.

throw me a lifeline
7:27 PM

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THERE CANT BE ANY RAINBOW WITHOUT ANY RAIN.


im trying to get that into my head somehow?

throw me a lifeline
9:33 AM

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Saturday, March 26, 2005

there cant be any rainbow
without any rain.

for three times today, i stared blank at this page.
i totally dont know what to type down.
im surprisingly exhausted even though i din do much today.
im surprisingly tired inside of me even though i think theres no more burden.

tuition sucked somehow.
i wish sam would stop imitating me with a high squeaky winny voice.
do i sound that way?
i wish mr marcus would stop saying theres something between me and guoxi.
cos there totally isn't. we're so totally just friends.
and i hate the way he expects all the attention when he gives us totally zero?
like he's a big shot.
i suddenly really want to change tuition centre.

somehow i wish all my wishes could come true.
then i dont have to feel this way.
i wish for youu to say sorry.
i wish for you to say you love me too.
i wish for my besties to be my besties for life.
i wish i was smarter and better in netball.
i wish i didn't have tear ducts, it sucks only knowing how to cry.
i wish i had a softer voice, i dont mean to talk loudly all the time.
i wish i didn't have him, my life would definitely not suck this much.
i wish people would understand, so i dont have to force all the hahas and smiles im forcing on.
i wish people would not irritate me so i dont have to shout all the time.

i wish i was dead.
so i dont have to wish all those.

i wish ness min baby sherri hz tm sammy chris joy choo oo mesy jiayee olivia manu shis youu stalker you nigel yc loke etc etc to be happy for life.

i wish everyone i love and care for to just be happy so i can never never never ever be sad again.

ms yow asked who we admired. who i admire? i admire someone who doesnt swear, cant stand swearing. i dont want to swear anymore. im serious. not even fcuk or freak. not even damn, shit, stupid. and seriously, i'll need reminding. i just sprout them out like nobody's business.

for now, i'll just wish i would stop saying eff. please please no one piss me off.

throw me a lifeline
10:37 PM

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Friday, March 25, 2005

love is not an easy word.
love is not a word to be played with.

but i think i love you ((=.

how can i not?
; when im sad
you keep shooting a smile onto my face, even when it means you hold the gun.
; when something happens
you give up your night for me, just to make sure im really fine.
; when i need the comforts
you give up studying to accompany me, just to comfort me.
; when i did something that affects you
you never get angry, even when i know i did the wrong thing.
; when im broke but hungry
you open your wallet endlessly, even when it means you'll have to be hungry for a week.
; when i want something my way
you put up with things you dont like but i do, just to make me happy.
; when im happy but youre sad
you'll force that smile onto your face, just to not take my feeling of happiness away.
; when im tired
you'll make me sleep even though it wastes ten thousand of your smses.
; when i want you to go home with me
you'll make the time to.


everyone is happy nowadays.
ness is definitely.
i think min is as well.

im definitely up and proper.
im definitely happy.
thanks to YOU. ((=.



my rain is over.
my rainbow is here. ((=.







BUT i still want a sorry from youu alryyt?
youure one of my closest buddies.

throw me a lifeline
10:40 PM

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Wednesday, March 23, 2005

aaah, forget to say.

happy birthday sherri sweetie
youve been great.
haha. ((=. yupp.
youu rock !

throw me a lifeline
9:39 PM

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there cant be any rainbow
without any rain.

back in school.
physics was the highlight. unhuns.
played this survivor game?
i got wiped out by mesy olivia and charmaine.
i just answered a qns only ! =((( not fair.
unhun, my team came in 3rd, everyone was aiming for rohan.
seriously funnehh.

haha, yea, my service learning group will crash in the silk air airplane we're sitting to chiang rai.
haha, daniel seow said silkair crashed twice. surely will crash one.
so loke said we'll be going to heaven together.
haha. i die before i even turn sixteen
-looks at stalker.

went to dover with stalker and yuenteck.
smth was wrong with me and stalker.
yes.
yuenteck was nice, stalker had cca and rushed back.
yuenteck walked me to the 198 busstop
and waited for bus with me.
he told me something.
unhuns.





i still feel weird.





its too late now, dont say sorry anymore.
youu dont even care that im screaming my head off now.

throw me a lifeline
9:36 PM

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Tuesday, March 22, 2005

there cant be any rainbow
without any rain.

quick say sorry, im still wanting to forgive youu.



cheer up stalker.dont tear or cry liao. ((=. im here for you alryyt. <-- thats the first smiley face for you. check up on that eye of yours alryyt. i'll go with you if you want.



i didnt go to school today. im not sick. im just feeling weird.



happy birthday nessie bestie roonee laoer fishball ! love you darling. things will work out for sure one ohakyy !

throw me a lifeline
9:38 PM

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Sunday, March 20, 2005

i wna run away
never say goodbye-

-points up. i really mean it.
and i really really really hate him.
why cant he just die?
and why did God give me someone like him?
seriously, i dont need any reason to doubt God's existence.
and i dont need any reason to hate him.
just look at that man in my life.

im so sorry stalker.
i cant forget what happened last night.

im sunburnt, i played horribly on saturday.
my life sucks.
he sucks.
if i died, would anyone care?






I CANNOT KEEP IT UP ANYMORE.





he almost stabbed me last night.
i wished he did.

throw me a lifeline
6:09 PM

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Friday, March 18, 2005

ok close... siao ar.... i say close! hahahaha... hehehehe... hahahahahaha....oh my goodness... hahaha... manu likes karo.... hahahaha... YAY! hahahaha... ehehehehe.... ehehehe.... haha.... oh my goodness... i'm crazieee! hahaa... Kevin Likes Karo... eeeeee ehehehe... hahaha..... ahh... ehahaha.... Kevin is gonna eat dinner tonite.... and he'll be eating for the rest of his life... YAY! and he promise to do so... AAA!!!! ERASE!!! *pokes kevin* mmmm...... hahaha... wah tats damn lame... i never say wahz.... i said wah... AA!!! i dun tok alreadie ar... your eye very red! your degree very high! kevin yap! ur specs! i publish alreadie.... AA!! nooo! Go and die la! u missed out one part.... i said publish alreadie.... die alreadie la.... i'm jumping down now... byebye... *presses Ctrl A* u better erase tat ar... if not i throw ur bearbear down... oh no! *clears throat* *smiles* *hugs bolster* *looks forward* *throws bolster* oh... sorrie sorrie... *smiles* hahahahahaha... *throws cushion* *hugs bear* not i hit one... *sniff* *looks away* *throws cushion* *hugs bolster* hahahaha... tats urs or mine? hu is tat? orh! my cousin!*drops bear* sorrie sorrie eh... u missed out alot of part! excused *whispers* hahahaha *whispers* hahahaha excuse me... eh sorrie... i save alreadie... ehhh! go away la! *hits kevin wif the bear*
kevin: =(






-points up. those were written by kevin yap. raaah.he just started crapping when i was in his house this aft? unhuns.he started typing everything i said.then when i shutted up, he started writing what im doing? riiiight.supposed to study at his house todayy. ended up pigging out and sleeping and using the comp and i got a free massage? right, but you still injured me alryyt.

stalker sent me home. just kept explaining to him a theory he doesnt get. haha, hope you werent late for church. unhuns. ((=.

YOUU SPOILED MY WHOLE DAY. and YOUU know im sensitive to those kind of words and YOUU called me a bitch? wow, right who's fault isit? youu effing threw the wallet at me first.did youu know that it hurt. did youu know i cried. did youu know i was even affected.do youu know how effing pissed off i am? do youu know how many times youu slapped me? do youu know how many effs youu said? do youu know how ready i was to forgive youu if youu even uttered a sorry? do youu know its too late now? right, DO YOUU EVEN CARE. whatever alryyt.i just cant believe i cried for youu alryyt. so many times also youu know.and threatening to scratch my ipodmini is not an option.youu will never know how devastated i will be alryyt. youu wna torture me? easy. just keep up what youure doing now. p.s. I DONT WANT YOUUR EFFING LETTER ANYMORE. and i dont want no apologies. it doesnt work anymore. but like as if youure gna do anything like that.


((=, my super duper wiffey just cheered me up. unhuns. enjoyy the conv
pokerdots.]]* i've gone crazy! says:
hubby karo
` pokerdots.]]* i've gone crazy! says:
hubby karo!
` pokerdots.]]* i've gone crazy! says:
u r so so prettie!
` pokerdots.]]* i've gone crazy! says:
i love u i love
` pokerdots.]]* i've gone crazy! says:
dun u love me too?
>karo` childofGod- ; eff says:
haha, WIFFEEYYY !!! ((((=, yes youre much much pretteh, wo ai ni hen duo hen duo ((=
` pokerdots.]]* i've gone crazy! says:
wo ai ni gen duo!
>karo` childofGod- ; eff says:
haha, wo ai ni gen duo gen duo ! ((=
` pokerdots.]]* i've gone crazy! says:
wo ai ni SHUI duo!!



carnival tmr. =((, and i dont wna wake up at 6 am tmr. =((((((. with the sinking thought of YOUU. argh.
eff. =((((. just get lost. dont bother to say hi or sorry or bye. dont bother to say pop to me at all. dont bother me at all. thank youu.

throw me a lifeline
10:58 PM

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Tuesday, March 15, 2005

im stressed out =(( totally.
theres soooo much work to do.
ive started for an hour and im alr sooo irritated.
my brother sucks alryyt. =(((. how i wish my parents stopped at TWO.

im tried out =(( totally.
just walked, nonstop.
i wish i had better stamina.
i suck at shopping, unhuns.

im super irritated =(( totally.
>i won my brother fair and square in scissorspaperstone.
so i get to choose where to eat tmr ((=.
THEN he wants a rematch. its NOT fair. =((.
>my internets SOOO screwed up again.
it took like fifteen minutes to sign online when it usually take less than a minute.
it took like five minutes to open this page when it usually takes less than thirty seconds.
and NOW its taking FOREVER to open friendster when it usually takes less than a minute?
YES I AM IRRITATED.
>i NEED a watch.
so the person who DROPPED my watch on the 20th of october [or was it 21st] 2004.
my birthday is on the 23rd of june, AND you BETTER buy me back one watch
[im fancying this watch at swatch. its only about 123 bucks?]
>and the worse thing is, im SLEEPY.
so im super irritated when smth irritating happens.
and im irritated when smth out of ordinary happens.
dont irritate me.
i'll bite your head off, literally.

lets hope this publish properly. -crosses fingers and gets ready to slap the internet connection.

help, someone?






isnt anyone trying to find me ;

throw me a lifeline
10:28 PM

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Monday, March 14, 2005

two faced bitch.
piece of shit.

im wasting my tears. and i want to stop it.




i want to be ordinary, i dont want this sucky life.
i want a car to knock me down. but, thats sooo unordinary.

i just want to die. =((.

God, PLEASE.

throw me a lifeline
7:45 PM

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dont love someone
; because he makes you feel good
; because he's handsome
; because he's smart
; because he's athletic
; because he's rich
; because he's been there for you
; because he plays an instrument
; because he makes you smile
; because he does things for you

and the list can go on and on.
dont love anyone for any reason.

love someone, however, only
; because.


thus, i love youu, only because.



once read this quote ;
"dont go for looks, they can deceive.
dont go for wealth, even that fades away.
go for someone who makes your HEART smile.
it only takes a smile to make a dark day seem bright."


everyones been trying to explain whats love and everything.
how you know when youre in love.
how you know whether thats really love.

but, love is unexplainable.
you'll have to deduce yourself whether thats love.

and dont always follow your mind, your mind only knows how to think, not to feel.

he may be the worst guy. a flirt, a heartbreaker. someone who doesnt take relationships seriously. a nonchristian. someone who doesnt go the extra mile for you. so what? people change, and if he's really your guy, he'll change in time to come.

>if someone doesnt love you the way you want them to, it doesnt mean they dont love you with all they have.

and if it doesnt work out, really doesnt. just move on.

>maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people. so that when we finally meet the right one, we'll know how to be grateful.
>when the door of happiness closes, another often opens. but we look too long at the closed door to notice the one opened for us.
>dont cry cos its over, smile cos it happened.
>a bright future is always based on a forgotten past. you'll never go on well in life until youve let your past go.





dont know whats with me. haha, i just suddenly start writing all these. ah, ohwells.perhaps they're for me? i just stared blank and all these just came out of me. perhaps God wants me to let go of my past. He just helped me make my choice. ((=. love You God. ((=.

im really happy with my marks that God gave me. ((=. i got 1s for both sciences and i could have gotten 1s for both maths ((=. i got 2s for chi and lit i got 5 for humans. [i passed it !] cant rmb how much i got for eng, but i think its a 4. im reaching all my targets all are just perhaps one grade upper. shouldnt be that hard i presume with hardwork? ((=. right, thanks God.


lost for words with all to say ; Lord You take my breath away ((=.

throw me a lifeline
8:49 AM

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really addicted to evermore ; hillsongs.
its really really nice. ((= >

lost for words with all to say
Lord You take my breath away
still my soul, my soul cries out
for You are holy

and as i look upon Your name
circumstances fade away
now Your glory steals my heart

You are holy
You are holy Lord

evermore my heart, my heart will say
above all, I live for Your glory
even if my world falls I will say
above all, I live for Your glory

with all my heart i'll say
i'm living for Your name
with all to give You praise
we're living for Your glory Lord

yes right.its beautiful aint it? the tune got me addicted then the lyrics.
haha. ((=.

>joel lokie liangie ennie, right im having fun wiv your name =D. you can run but you cant hide. if you switch back to slippers i CAN catch you. so kindly please switch back to slippers.haha.right, anyhows, have fun during the hols. ((=. and stop studying, i want to beat you in o's alryyt ! aye, answer my qns too, did you eat all the bananas? =D

huh, who?

throw me a lifeline
8:15 AM

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Sunday, March 13, 2005

lost and found -








































i wna die. bye.

throw me a lifeline
2:44 PM

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Saturday, March 12, 2005

i see a tag on my tagboard

AND I WANT TO STEP ON THE PERSON'S FOOT !!
haha, i never got my wish lohh joel loke liang en.
please kindly switch back to slippers and comply with my request.
HAHA !! =D, and im no meanie, you meanie.
so, did you eat all the bananas? =D.

throw me a lifeline
9:44 PM

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evermore my heart
my heart will sing
of Your glory-

yesterday was fun ((=. went to watch series of unfortunate events wiv charma oo sijay loke chihfai and gaelan. gaelan seems nice enough when we're on truce. haha.

im totally gushing over my spanglish. ((=. he so rocks? haha. and no, its not the movie.

and right. everybody 10.30 tonight. just on channel 5 and watch the beautiful show. ((=. and no he's not a freak of nature. he rocks even more than spanglish ! ((=. yesyes, HALEY JOEL OSMENT's sixth sense is on.

i think im falling? but for who, thats the question.

i could sit and stare at you and wish time would stop ;

throw me a lifeline
9:37 PM

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Thursday, March 10, 2005

sometimes i get so weird
i even freak myself out-

ah, no =((.
head pain.
finger pain.
leg pain.
back pain.
throat pain.

karo's in sheer pain.

saw my spanish language during recess time, i was positively hyper, just screaming about him and everything.walked to the toilet TWICE just to get a peep at him. ((=. ahhh, my whole class girls were wanting to vomit.

haha, came up with the name spanish language during chi. reminded me and joy bout my japanese language and her english language. haha, its all names in code, really funnehh.and HE REALLY IS SO SHUAI ! =D.

i really really want to step on loke's leg. its really tempting lohh ! haha, each time he walks past me, i see his feet in slippers i got the sudden urge to step on him. =D, i know its evil, but its a urge !

sectionals for band today, i hate them. they're ALWAYS playing the SAME tune. and its SOOOO loud i gta SHOUT to get my sec1s attention. RAH. =((. especially the saxophonists lohh ! thats why my throat hurts !

i just realised that my spanish language NEVER seems to stay back ! i only get to see him in school. =((, no more cheap thrill for me.

haha, yuenteck runs away at the sight of me. i havent pinched his cheeks for like one week? i pinched today and he just finished pe and was all sweaty and everything. GROSS !

haha, gaelan wants to watch the series of unfortunate events tmr. he wants the 9pm show, but its too late. so he say after school can but only me and him. both of us were turned off. i mean WHO can imagine watching a movie with GAELAN MOLEY GU JIA HAO ? phewww. haha.

argh, stalker if you see this, YOU better get an mc tmr for your injured back ! -stares. im serious.






oh right, losing fractions, gaining fractions.i just cant decide.

throw me a lifeline
7:29 PM

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Wednesday, March 09, 2005

Jesus because of You im free-

woke up at 4am.had this really painful headache, i just wished someone could shoot me then.vomitted acid out like 5 times? my head was screaming, my throat was burning and my eyes were watering. =(((, i hate that feeling.

went to school still. slept in like chinese emath and amath? raahh. =((.

captain's ball was one hell of a game today.
i creid, joce cried. =((.
i hate that bugger shit.
lost to 5a, it could have been a win though. we tied with them then we played first to three. we were leading.then we lost. =(((((.
then played 3d, i was going practically crazy.i still thought we lost.then when the game ended all of them were screaming jumping up and down. that feeling rocked. it just kicked my headache and vomitty feeling wayyy out.

my darling waving partner is SOOO sweet. heres a wave and a kiss for you deary ! =D. she just walked over and comforted me. haha.

I DONT WANT TO FEEL THIS ANGER AND RAGE.
he pisses me way off.im really lenient already ohkayy.
-poke your eye. you made me waste my tears alright.

saw youu playing street bandy, i just wished i didnt see youu. i just felt this damn big anger boiling inside of me then i cried.right, and youu didnt see anything, luckily? =D.

haha, ceci brought bananas for us and loke had to carry them around. really funnehh sight. he was calling for everyone to faster eat finish them cos they were heavy? i think in the end he ate all up. am i right? haha.

i want to get an mc. i feel horrid. =(((.







of all the feelings i want to forget. i just cant put aside what i feel for you ; love you.

throw me a lifeline
7:33 PM

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Tuesday, March 08, 2005

right. ((=.
won 3f and 4b for interclass today.
darn happy !
we're in for the semis ! (((((=.
right, with 5a first then either 4d or 3d next.
well, real happy we prayed before that with loke leading us.

too bad we lost street bandy.
it was rather a great effort put in though. ((=.

really happy with the class today. i feel there was ALOT of class spirit ! ((=.
yes, 4c;o5 so rocks?
yes? no?
definitely YES !

HAHA, my shuai ge smiled at me after chapel ! i was going crazy during chinese announcing it ! ((=.

yes, i screwed up emath, dont want to talk about it.
and fancy this, i sprained my fourth finger.
it totally cracked and it was super painful.





its hard to look at you normally
with all the feelings going through my heart and mind.

throw me a lifeline
8:01 PM

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Monday, March 07, 2005

hold me in Your arms
never let me go-

right, just finished reading all his posts on his blog. ((=. its pretty heartwarming you know. ahh, but he wouldnt know who he is so haha, im just here supporting you lahh. ((=. haha, i feel like tagging on your blog, but i dont dare to leave my name, and im scared that you'll freak out or something. haha, good luck with everything. love you.

and somethings wrong with my dearest stalker, i dont dare ask what. perhaps i'll have a talk wiv him tmr. i miss msging him. haha. ((=.

im enlightened.to You i'd still hold on. ((=.

ive learnt so many things just by reading one blog. surprisingly. ((=, im pretty happy anyhow. haha. i'll be trying to let go now then.







its all so confusing, i have no idea what im feeling.
hate is too strong.
dislike is too little.

throw me a lifeline
10:15 PM

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ah right, it sucks being sick.
i cant believe i JUST recovered
and wham bang, im SICK again !
raah.

throw me a lifeline
7:34 PM

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Saturday, March 05, 2005

false alarm, phew
im really sad though.
im so scared.
please, dont make his heart stop again.
alright.


bryan fok is driving me crazy.
ARGH !

throw me a lifeline
10:36 PM

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turn back time-

no and no.
im sad and drained.
these feelings are choking me and i cant breathe.
theres no one around.
i cry to myself.
i miss the hand that used to wipe my tears away.

i reach out blindly.
where are you?











nothing is changed.
my thoughts are still the same.

throw me a lifeline
9:38 PM

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im getting vulagr.

fuck alright, fuck.
just fuck.





life sucks, this sucks and that sucks.
im sad.
full-stop.

throw me a lifeline
6:16 PM

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the day you went away-

ah, right, yesterday was really fun ((=.
went out with yuenteck stalker and xinhong to imm.
haha, xinhong wanted to get presents for raymond and her another friend.
so we went to daiso first.
got boxes plus the sticks mr yaw wanted.
ah right, we threw practically everything to the guys. ((=.
haha.
and yuenteck kept using cheng yu to speak to us.
and his favourite one is bu xing ren shi.
like everything ended up in the hospital and bu xing ren shi.
damn funnehh lahh.
right, then went to eat.
spent hell long deciding where to eat.
ended up eating kfc.
haha, yuenteck cracked me up like anything.
i laughed and laughed.
yuenteck has pretteh eyes you know. ((=.
then went giant to buy the sweets.
haha, i was like some crazee person bursting out laughing and everything.
haha !
yuenteck just kept the laughter going on.
i looked at him, i laughed.
i hear his voice, i laughed.
HAHA. ((=.
stalker thot i went crazee or something.
and he knew that i couldnt stop and everything. ((=.
aaahh, xinhong was choosing sweets and totally didnt have a clue what was going on.
haha, right, so she was damn blur when we all were laughing.
oh right, yuenteck is a lousy trolley pusher.
he pushed the trolley into my hip bone !
and he pushed the trolley into stalker dont know how many times.
xinhong was smart to stand beside the trolley lahh.
right, so i laughed and laughed.
couldnt stop.
my stomach hurt and i teared like anything.
but ive gta take my hat off to yuenteck.
haha, he cracks me up like anything ((=.
haha. =D.
then we went back to kfc to pack the sweets into the boxes.
yuenteck was reluctant cos we just went there.
haha. just laughed and chatted and snapped pictures.
ah right.yuenteck was in this singing frenzy.
he just kept singing, really horrid, but the lyrics were reallehh funnehh.
went home, cabbed home again.
haha. the guys paid for the cab fare lahh.



got my new handphone number alr. ((=.
so i have TWO handphones for one week one dayy.






ah fug, i just read something.
it drained my happiness out. =((.
love you.

throw me a lifeline
3:03 PM

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Wednesday, March 02, 2005

i wanna grow old with youu-

right, help.
i still dont know how to say no.
and i still dont know how to say hello.

=(((.

ah, ahgong was asking if i could survive without a guy in my life?
HELL YES. i wna do that, if i COULD.

throw me a lifeline
10:23 PM

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if i could turn back time-

it rained. at wrong times. havent the rain ever heard that when it rains, its good for sleeping? argh, and it has to rain somemore when i feel sleepy. =((, unfair.

chinese first.she was late as usual so we had to wait for her outside her classroom while the rest of the school were in their classrooms? raah.right.christina has got a new crush.haha, i sure hope _ _ _ _ _ _ reads this.=D.haha ! right, but she spent like i think 2 periods going through the words that i read my book til i was really bored.test, like wahlao i studied so hard for it and then she asked sec 3 words. =((, i cant get my full marks alreadyy.

chem, spent the whole lesson doing TYS. haha, really funnehh, stalker left his TYS for moses and then kelly took it.then when stalker came to my class [SEE YOU REALLY STALK ME] haha, moses almost screamed at kelly for taking it.really funnehh though. =D.right, the questions were really really hard. =((. i hate this kinda questions, not fair ! right.completed it way after the given time cos alot of us were arguing about the answers that i had to check the answer booklet and give the correct one.haha, real fun debates though, haha.

recess, we had this chinese talking frenzy cos of someone. =D.

amath, ah right, i so forgot to bring my amath stuff again.i cant believe it, like HUH, its SOOOO thick and i can leave it on my TABLE and forget to take it. raaahh.so right, IT RAINED and the lesson was boring.AND I WANTED TO SLEEP. =(((.

emath.got back the stuuupid cf test, like so many ppl got higher than me? argh, its the lowest marks i EVER got for math. =((, minus off the test when i ponned school. NOT FAIR. -looks at stalker, right, you gta teach me that chapter as well. =D. lucky you dont charge me. haha.

physics.had this quiz thingy, not very hard lahh.and shibin said someone cheat his money cos he didnt expect the answers to be that easy? HAHA, like he cheated himself? =D.

ohoh, ahgong gave me a lollipop cos i said i was crazy over lollipops? =D, ah right.sheer bliss.haha.

right, then me charma and oo rushed up to yawsters classroom.cheryl oo actually left a stack of our chem files that were due today there.like a STACK? met stalker there.haha, the room was locked and the four of us were devicing plans to go inside there to take it.like what open the window then pull out the planes, unfortunately, the windows were locked.then i said we just break one window. [which costs 5 bucks] then open the window and take out the planes and creep in to take.haha, then we saw yawster.and we shouted down to him and he REFUSED to come up to open the door for us. =(((. haha, then stalker said that later he help us find yawster to open the door and hand up the files for us, such a nice stalker.=D.but luckily, there was this really nice uncle who came to open the door for us. haha, hes really amusing and cute looking. ((=.

went home after that, didnt really bother about youu anyhow.

its raining now and im hungry.so after my maggimee i'll jump onto my bed and sleep.

after perhaps doing my homework and by then i predict the rain will stop. =(((. and my aircons not working, arrgghh !!

i'll go wherever you will go ;

throw me a lifeline
4:10 PM

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Tuesday, March 01, 2005

rip my heart out and leave me here to bleed-

ah shit. =((.

LI ZHENG LIANG, THAT STUPID BUGGER, SHOT WATER INTO MY EYES.AND I MEAN SHOT. RAH.it was freaking painful.that was why i cried alright.even when i swim without goggles, it doesnt hurt as much okayy !

loved chapel songs? =DDD. sang my heart out, but mstoh got most of the titles wrong? =\\, ah, who cares about that minor detail.ah pretteh pretteh sight. =D. almost screamed though, when i saw it. hahaa.

chinese was boring. she picked on us. =((. me chris and cheryl then screamed it out alryt. rahh. chinese test tomorrow and she just popped the news to us todayy? like wth? theres surely no time for me to study, and im freaking exhaustedd.

english, compre test. after completion, we could read our books, so it wasnt that bad after all.just that the sight of her turns my stomach 180 degrees round. dont like her stuuupid face. raaaahh. and shes freaking biased towards the guys alright.

recess.gobbled food down.saw my cheapthrill number two. =D. yes, positively gave me one cheat thrill. =D. AND I SAW A SUPER SHUAI PERSON. hahaa, but then i spoiled everyones tummy. not fair, he's REALLY shuai.and funnehh. then i saw laogong.hell, the tears just wanted to spill.

physics practical. haha. kinda fun, me and gaelan were screaming others name. like hes gaelan guuuuuuuuuuuuuuu. and im karolyn gannnnnnnnnnnnnnnn. haha. =D. did experiments and gaelan complained i never let him set up. but the whole point is, when he does, its all wrong. ohkayy, fine, that was a lie. but he doesnt know how to do it properly and kept asking me qns. not fair. been enjoying physics ever since i topped the class for the test. =DDD. yesyes. haha, that was how my interest for lit came about, ahh =DD. pretteh pretteh ((=.

emath, three periods, thats where that idiotic bugger sprayed water into my eyes. threw back his ic. arrrgh, should have kept it. haha, was drawing princess's [HIS PRINCESS] name all over the table. and he got a stuupid foam eraser and rubbed everything off. then he drew youur name on the table. RAAAH. i din get the foam eraser so i cancelled the name off. =DD, ahh, sheer bliss. haha. he got a date with princess lahh. =D. haha, bet he's happy. spent emath crapping, me and zhengliang were hiding everything from each other. and when i managed to grab his specs and use it as a hairband, he grabbed it off my hair, so my fringe was even worse?

stayed back to teach manu physics. haha, ms ong just walked byy, we were like so covering-our-faces. HAHA. kinda enjoyable though. =D. shengyang zhenrong joeltan came by. haha, started chatting and everything. and FOO NYUK HUO told them who i likedd? RAH. and what, he said i liked joel loke? and they screamed it out in the whole canteen? wth? haha, then when i said it was two years ago, they screamed that i like joel loke for two years. and then foo nyuk huo go and say out youur name. and right, they just had to call youu over. RAAAH. oh wells, it was superly funnehh and everything. =DD. and i wont say who is my stalker ! =D. haha, youu just have to guess. and im gna chop off youur head anyway for toppling my bottle. GRRRRRRRRRR. yes, ten thousand reasons to let youu go. but only one for me to hold on. right. pretteh obvious what i should do right. and FOO NYUK HUO and MANUELA SIYA FORSTER actually paired me up with george koh, practically spoiled my appetite. =(((.

stalker sent me home. fell asleep standing? ah right. -crosses fingers. you better not be late for tuition otherwise. haha.

right, finding a new blogskin. tired of this one.

and right. HALEY JOEL OSMENT ROCKS. be sure to catch SIXTH SENSE when the movie comes onto teevee. YOU WONT REGRET IT. =DDDD.

HAHA. =D

youu and youur beautiful soul ;

throw me a lifeline
6:37 PM

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