Sunday, January 30, 2005
EVERYTHINGG-
happy ; sadd
smiles ; tearrs
throw me a lifeline
3:07 PM
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my brother eats EIGHT pieces of toast for breakfast.
NOW. and then he's gna eat lunch in a couple of minutes.
AND he isn't FAT.
he's super skinnehh.
RAAAH-
glad that ive got the necklace my hearttalker gave me.
and that ive got the lollipop youu have me.
squeezing them makes me feel better.
RAAAAHH-
beach anyone?
throw me a lifeline
12:45 PM
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FREAK IT-
throw me a lifeline
12:19 PM
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Saturday, January 29, 2005
hais.
SHE CRIED.
AND ALL WAS LOST.
throw me a lifeline
7:09 PM
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Friday, January 28, 2005
what goes around comes around
what goes up must come down-
c stands for COOKIE MOSTER !
yupp, high like anything yesterdayy.
going ard asking EVERYONE i knew what c stands for.
haha. went ard asking today also.
most of them just didn't wna answer.
finally found out who guo rong was?
he turned out pretteh much ohkayy. ((=.
haha, im finally on a diet and everything?
i refuse to eat chocs and such. ((=.
me and nigel are going the same place for service learning
haha, i think we'll get chosen cos we're the only ones from our class going there?
yupp ((=.
and it sucks, he chooses to stay in singapore. =(((
aaah, not fair =(((.
GIVE ME UP.
i won't like you.
throw me a lifeline
7:56 PM
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Wednesday, January 26, 2005
answer this qns.
WHAT DOES C STAND FOR?
COOKIE MONSTER !
haha, we were lame todayy.
playedd who stole the cookie from the cookie jar?
anyhow.
you, i dont like you. who the fcuk do you think you are? poking your nose into people's business. you hate it when i do, dont you think i'll hate it when you do. i've stopped intruding into your life. ive stayed out of it. you dont really like me i know. ive read something which made my heart stop. i thought we were good friends, kinda close even. treated you as someone special in my life. it all ended when i read that letter. i didn't know how much you dont like me. well stop trying to butt in to my life. ive stopped conversing with you already, so stop conversing with me. now i know how much i disliked you. didnt know how i could treat you as someone close and nice and good. come off it. its between me and him, why bother to go and interfere and intervene when im just trying to find out the truth. mind your own beeswax.
I LOVE CHERRY FLAVOURED LOLLIPOPS.
especially if they're from YOUU-
haha, i don't dare eat it.
if you give me somemore, i can make a collection ! ((=.
C STANDS FOR COOKIE MONSTER
C ALSO STANDS FOR CHERRY FLAVOURED LOLLIPOPS
HAHA. ((=.
shit, im high.
what does c stand for?
haha, people you all better KNOW. ((=.
im bombarding everyone tmr.
karo says she loves youu.
get the message?
throw me a lifeline
10:14 PM
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living in the shadow
of someone else's dream-
chem test was easy todayy.
am so terrified of tmr.
there's ss test.
i never passed one before. =((.
hellllp?
ive decided to stop lying.
im trying to forget that im addictedd to youu
but i want it and i need it
im addictedd to youu
my hubby dear just made my day.
haha, she's so cute alryt. (((=.
loveee her.
haha.
she just clicked on my msn icon and said she loves me and kissedd me.
so sweet. ((=.
theres homework and tests to study and do.
im lazy to do it.
cried during physics, but quickly swiped away my tears.
asking everyone a qns that they cant help but answer dont know.
i really wna know whyy.
right right.
((((((((((((((((((((=.
im gna frame and box up one ultimately nice lollipop and keep it forever and ever?
haha, im happy todayy.
very very very happy.
if you dont see me in school tmr.
ive suceeded in getting sick and an mc for tmr.
i dont wna take my ss test.
im petrified of it. =(((
hellllp.
karo says she loves youu.
alot alot alot alot.
do you love her?
haha, boyy im high.
REUBEN TEO, YOU BETTER RETURN ME MY PEN TMR.
i miss my pen. =(((.
my favourite pen somemore.
throw me a lifeline
6:05 PM
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Tuesday, January 25, 2005
beautiful fake smile-
it all boils down to that one moment.
i dont like what im doing to someone.
and i dont like what another persons doing to me.
it isn't fair.
it sucks big time.
please please please talk to me.
i can't keep it up not talking to you.
it's been forever. serious.
throw me a lifeline
10:08 PM
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pretending to be happy isn't that easy after all.
freak it-.
i'm happier than last time ever since i found Him.
but.
i hurt in many many ways i can't express in words.
there's that constant stabbing pain in my heart inflicted by so many people.
and i hate how weak i am.
ive tried so so so hard alr.
i can't do it, Lord.
forgive me.
help me.
twin told me something so bad.
STOP PRETENDING BANG.
i hate bang.
i hate hate hate hate hate bang.
who is bang?
throw me a lifeline
6:32 PM
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Jesus. because of You. i'm FREE-
study study study.
thats about it about my life.
forgetting youu. welcoming You. ((=.
four tests this week, killer man.
physics test was hard todayy.
freaking scared im not gna ace it. =((.
if the world caved in around me, to You i'll still hold on ;
throw me a lifeline
6:19 PM
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Friday, January 21, 2005
blinded by the sorrow-
pretty happy about today.
although me and my mom were super late cos SHE refused to WAKE UP.
met my cousin and aunt, and then we started shopping.
yupp.
walked hell lot, stood hell lot, tried on hell lot.
i am dead beat.
bought a white skirt. ((=, knee length flowy. i super like it.
it costed HUNDRED bucks, and silly me didnt realise it til my mom paid for it?
DANG.
ate at sushi tei.
i like the curry potato, its really really sumptious and wonderful.
woah, suddenly im using bombastic words like, bombastic?
haha, cheap thrills.
did alot of physics hw todayy.
pretty happy, i just gta do a teeny bit more tmr and my tuition hw's done.
things i gta do next week.
>get nigel's thousandmonth late present.
>get mesy's present.
>get serious with studies.
>stop going online.
>do what ive been spreading around.
>stop eating so much.
im a fat fat fat fat fat slob. =(((.
im aiming to be lighter than GAELAN GU so he will stop calling me that.
but i can still call him moley, cos he has NINETEEN [and still counting] moles on his FACE.and i have only ONEEE !! (((=. hahaa.
freaaak.
me and my cousing exchanged ipodminis just now.
AND WE FORGOT TO CHANGE BACK.
now im stuck without songs.
=(((.
but i get to steal hers.
hehs.
running to the future ;
throw me a lifeline
10:23 PM
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if only wishes could be dreams
and all my dreams could come true-
my brother is back from NS !
and dangg, ive no hw that he can do ! =((.
i sprained my finger, it hurts oh-so-much.
training the sec1s isnt that big a deal, if i hadnt broke down right in the middle of it.
but who could stand them?
especially herr.
she sucks, sucks biiiig time.
chattedd on the phone with janet ytd, my phonebills going to climb up and up.
it'll the highest since i dont know when.
dont know why i msged so much this month?
jon calledd, he was feelingg down and everythingg?
haha, it'll work out doggie yahh.
so many things to tell you.
i like the way.
the way you do this.
the way you do that.
ohwells.
going down to orchard with my mom laterr.
((=. she rocks !
throw me a lifeline
8:58 AM
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Wednesday, January 19, 2005
the girl with the broken smile-
today.
horrible?
no
unhorrible?
no
its nice in a sense.
>copying homework
>buttdropping
>small talk
its utterly horrible in another sense.
>a cat
why do you have to constantly and surprisingly remind me you are alive?
you are in my heart, the bottom of it.
so just stop appearing.
you make me wna scream cry stomp punch when i see you.
stop looking at me that way.
it breaks my heart.
WHY MUST PEOPLE CHANGE?
you change.
youu change.
and we were so close back then.
i was close to you.
we would msg everyday.
we would smile and wave and talk to each other when we meet.
you would rush down to just talk to me.
you would tell me everything.
we just never run out of things to say.
you were so nice back then.
i only agreed to be your sis cos i thought i saw something in you.
something nice.
perhaps, i saw wrongly.
you changed for the better, for at most a month.
then down you went.
i dont regret knowing you.
youve changed my life in a way no one could.
youve made me realise what it means to love someone, but not in the bgr way.
i love you, alot alot.
you would never know.
i was even closer to youu.
we would talk each time we meet.
we would talk online.
talk in school.
with the occasional call.
ive grown to expect to see youu in front of me.
chattering nonstop, smiling.
i miss everything about youu.
right down to the lalala that regularly irritates me.
and i miss everytime youu send me home.
it bothers me the way i look at youu, expecting youu to suddenly start ruffling my hair.
pinching my cheek.
or just sit beside me and we would start talking.
what i regret?
letting myself love youu.
youu rock youu know, youre a great friend.
youu know your own weaknesses.
youu said youu would change.
i was hoping and praying for nothing.
right.
my brothers coming home tmr.
all my homework's going onto his desk.
the bdiv won their match todayy. ((=.
41-11 !
throw me a lifeline
7:54 PM
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thanks everyone.
those who msged me.
those who called me.
those who talked to me on msn.
haha.
you guys make me downa go school tmr.
olivia called to gave me a thorough test schedule.
boyy, next weeks a super busy week?
theres test on monday tuesday wednesday friday.
lucky theres no test on thursday?
and theres test one day after my bros bdae.
so like i cant celebrate, i have to study?
haha, marcus is out of point.
chatting wiv him on msn.
and he was screaming that there will be no wongchunghei tmr?
oh right, sherri misses me. ((=.
and lover misses me. ((=.
i know ness and sam misses me. ((=.
haha, i know my class misses me. ((=.
right, im comforting myself.
haha, and i know YOU miss me. ((=.
i just told a lie to myself. haha.
throw me a lifeline
1:44 PM
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skipped school today.
lessons were going to be much boring anyhow
with shijianhua
then wongchunghei
then kwekkwek?
right.
missed chapel though?
((=, overcame my laziness.
i burned songs into my ipod.
haha, so now i have music on the go.
right, im bored.
but being at home is alryt you know.
theres no one screaming down your back asking you to do this and that.
((=.
happy birthdayy
-kenneth kor.
-eileen chua.
ive set my priorities right alr ! ((=.
throw me a lifeline
5:32 AM
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Tuesday, January 18, 2005
shit, i just did something terribly wrong
i clicked one button wrongly
AND ALL MY SONGS GOT DELETED FROM MY IPOD MINI
shit man.
and im too lazy to update it now.
so i'll be stuck without music for like hmm, forever?
shit lahh.
thanks everyone, who msged me.
thanks moses for going all around the school looking for teachers then taking forms.
thanks olivia for carrying my bag down.
and happy birthdayy
- sirong.
- janet.
- eileen chin.
and happy anni.
- my dearest lover.
throw me a lifeline
8:17 AM
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ahh, i feel horrible.
damn.
its like somethings squeezing my tummy.
its forcing everything i eat out.
=(((.
im super hungry, but i dont dare to eat anything.
freak lahh, i hate being sick.
so so so so so so so sorry lover.
i had to forgo our candlelit lunch todayy. =((.
sorry, happy anni anyhow. ((=.
TWO YEARS.
haha.
wo ai ni GEN DUO GEN DUO ((=.
shit mann.
i feel damn horrible.
i feel sick.
i hate feeling this.
=(((((.
throw me a lifeline
3:46 AM
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Monday, January 17, 2005
aaaah.
damn, im really sick.
just came back from the doctors.
spent like 1.5 hrs there?
freak it.
got mc from pe.
that im glad.
i dont have to do 2.4 ! ((=.
aaah.
i hate being sick.
it sucks sucks sucks.
and it sucks that i have to treat you normal and everything?
freak it.
shit lahh.
HALEY JOEL OSMNET IS DARN FREAKING CUTE?
-GRINS
and why arent u talking to me?
throw me a lifeline
1:01 PM
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her feelings she hides-
ahh, freak.
down with the flu bug.
ive got a darn sorethroat.
which really hurts.
and ive a nose thats running.
aah, shit lahh.
i kept blowing my nose during tuition just.
i couldnt really hear properly.
aaahhh, shit lahh.
=(((.
i cant afford to be sick this year !
its dang important.
i found a way to relieve stress.
pretty happy about it.
he pisses me off.
i HATE him.
and now, hate isnt a strong word.
ITS TRUE.
and who is he?
some freaking one that i pray everynight to die soon.
or that he would leave this family, this family that he broke.
HE BROKE.
damn.
i dont know how much i can ever thank God that He gave me a great mom, great bros.
ahh freak it.
my head is exploding.
shit, i need loud music.
i think i may not be able to make it to school tmr. =(((.
throw me a lifeline
5:23 AM
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Sunday, January 16, 2005
all these time you were pretending
so much for my happy ending-
catching up with ningning online.
i like talking to him. ((=.
he makes a WHOLE lot of sense?
ahh, and our topic now is on o's.
freak it, you know he's smart.
really smart and everything?
and he got 17.
im scared, really scared =((.
haha, i still rmb it was him who first told me that my mom cared for me.
cos i wanted to go out, and she refused to let me cos it was at night and stuff.
then i was grumbling to him.
then he just simply stated.
"it shows she cares for you alot"
((=.
dang, now im scared for my results.
its like, i HAVE to go jc that kinda thing?
shit man, and its not just ANY jc.
im aiming for this certain one.
i dont know why its that one as well.
but one day it just got into my head that i MUST go to this jc and everything?
haha, right.
it must be God lahh. ((=.
all of the memories so close to me ;
throw me a lifeline
10:39 AM
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im still burning till you return-
ah freak.
im super worn out, super exhausted.
slept from 5 ytd til 8 todayy.
i just plonked down onto the bed and slept.
i was FREAKING worn out.
certified fools. unhuns. ((=.
haha.
right.
2nd year anni's coming soon. ((=.
haha.
and im still very very lazy to get my letters written
and my homework done
and my room packed.
ah, shit.
im stressed out babyy.
throw me a lifeline
1:26 AM
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Friday, January 14, 2005
right.
im screwed up pissed off with some-freaking-one today.
right, was walking around the school with the pissed off face on.
everyone siamed out of my way?
tonny even asked why your face so black
and houzi asked me why i looked so fierce
obviously, when i walked past youu, my face turned even blacker, you didnt care.
im just freaking glad i didnt break down or anything.
like shit?
theres zao ju test tmr and im lazy to get my butt off this chair and go into my room.
and theres hell lot of bloodeh homework.
im just freaking lazy to get up.
shit, im so gna flunk o's at my rate of studying.
shit, my rooms freaking messy and im still too lazy to pack it.
i just dump my stuff everywhere?
raaaaah.
the shittiest thing?
I MISS YOU.
hell lot.
HELL HELL HELL HELL lot.
i dreamt two scary nightmares.
freak it, ppl stole you away from me and everything?
haha, i remember to say Grace each time i eat.
pretty happy about it. (((=.
YES, no more math olympiad ! (((=/
throw me a lifeline
10:36 AM
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Thursday, January 13, 2005
you're all i want
you're all i ever needed-
stuck on christian songs now.
theyre real nice and everything?
haha. ((=.
mgs match today.
i umpired horribly, lazy to blow offences and everything?
conferenced with matt and jon just.
jons super crazy and everything?
shit, he shouldnt have mentioned felix.
i cant believe it !
shit man, kevin's injured and everything?
somehow, i feel the ouch?
sucks.
haha, i like zhengliangs everything.
i like his jacket.
i like his specs.
i like his instrument.
i like his watch.
i like his collarpin.
i like his junior.
haha, i would give anything to be him lahh?
its 38 days alr.
and you freaking sprained your wrist or smth lidat?
i dont dare ask.
and if you see this.
TAKE CARES. ((=.
im just glad its the left hand lahh, you can still write letters?
haha. ((=.
throw me a lifeline
1:57 PM
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Wednesday, January 12, 2005
we done been fell apart
i really wna work this out
but i dont think youre gna change-
i loved the chapel songs todayy !
they were simply two thumbs up.
and i love me and his sitting positions?
((=.
the compre test was a downer todayy.
it was freaking hard and i was freaking lazy to write.
fancy that.
left my bottle in chi class, rushed back to grab it.
walked past this classroom.
((=.
physics.
did practical?
haha.
msong asked me to go ard help ppl dismantle their experiments if they havent done it.
helped zhengliang.
haha, and he THOUGHT i was so KIND?
wowwhee.
haha.
this class walked past.
((=.
emath.
right, was doing chi hw?
crapping wiv zl, twiin, danielng.
haha.
esp zl.
haha, ive grown POLITE !
((=. according to zl.
haha.
vandalised his diarryyy ! ((((=.
haha.
and accidentally drew on his shirt?
haha, and he tried to spray water on it to try to rub the mark off.
and he sprayedd HIMSELF.
fancy that.
and grr, he sprayed water in my eye.
and no one could see if it was red.
cos it was TOO SMALL !
left school superly early?
earlier than ever.
earlier than i EVER have?
riiight.
then i came home and was glued to the comp?
shit lahh, whats the use of coming home early then?
right, gna watch tv.
smurfs on now.
haha.
im still burning till you return ;
throw me a lifeline
9:00 AM
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Tuesday, January 11, 2005
lose yourself-
today was normal, ohkayy, fun.
played capt ball during pe, yes, my face was tomato red, i was the one doing all the work?
didnt sleep at all during physics or humans.
and i like my humans teacher !
i cant fall asleep in there. ((=.
i super love after school?
netball selections.
right, then haha. hanged out with joe and chrissypoo.
eunice came by.
me and joe and chris were like rolling-on-the-floor, tummy-hugging, tears-forming laughing.
EUNICE IS FREAKING FUNNY LAHH.
haha.
me and joe had a long storytelling thing?
freak it, i cried?
hais.
i dont know why lahh, but it just hurt so much.
i mean, you didnt even come up to me and ask if i was ohkayy or anything?
you just walked away.
im getting more sillier each minute.
ive learned that you wouldnt send me home
we wouldnt be what we were last time.
and yet i still believe it.
freak it.
haha, thanks joe for today. ((=.
thanks for the chats and advices and storytellings.
thanks hor. ((=.
throw me a lifeline
2:09 PM
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Monday, January 10, 2005
why is it so unfair?
define your fathers for me everybody.
mine?
sucks.
throw me a lifeline
10:16 AM
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Saturday, January 08, 2005
haha.
i love band concerts lahh.
(((((((((=.
freak it, its immensly nice you know.
i can just STAND there for ages watching HIM play the sax?
((((((((((((((((=.
right, must i still say, band rocks?
yes, and please join the bb, boys, and the netball, girls. ((=.
right, me and annechoo were going crazy ytd on the bus?
despo freaks we are.
haha.
haha.
sending my brother off to ns in a matter of minutes.
i like his botak head.
haha, i just cant keep my hands off it lahh.
haha, ohwells.
throw me a lifeline
11:23 PM
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Friday, January 07, 2005
right, my
internet on the other comp has a major problem, i cant go on the
internet lahh.shit, so if my blogging has a prob, dont blame me.
firstly, i wna thank a few people. haha.
kevin, heyya hearttalker.haha, im superly sorry for screaming on you down msn and down the phone.shit, i was really in a bad mood that day.thanks for msging me in school almost immediately when you found out i was crying? haha, i really appreciate you tolerating whatever nonsense ive been screaming to you.thanks always for being there yahh.haha, when i just needed someone to scream to, pop, my msn started blinking, haha, you were chatting wiv me ! ((=.
sammy foo, heyya larddyy.haha, thanks kayy for today recess and msging me encouraging msges? haha, thanks for everything yahh.cheering me up and stuff.i really appreciate it a lot lahh.((=.haha.
lover, heyya lover, haha, thanks for today recess also, for “scolding” nigel for me as well.haha, i also dont know what got to me lohh.yupp.
jiayee, heyya jiejie, thanks yahh for today.haha, sorry i kept rejecting the tissues,i dont like using tissues to wipe away my tears, weird i know, but its a habit lahh.haha, thanks anyway.
right, that about sums it up.
me and karo are still doing this ultramania lame thing with each other, i must say im having fun though.it cheers me up and everything.haha, and karo helped me pass the letter.haha.right, it contains superly little words and everything? haha.
right, me and loke were screaming to each other today about boaz? haha, hes this cute little thang from my primary school? haha, and joels crazee over him, saying hes pretteh and everything, asking me to jio him, haha.get my point? CRAZEE.
FREAK IT-
i like my nick, it expresses anger pain hatred and everything all at the same time.but nobody will know anything.haha, its cos of my nick that made me scream everything to kevin lahh.haha.right.
SHIT MAN, will you just TALK to me?
will we ever go back to what we used to be?
chatty and making fun of each other and everything?
keep quiet no noise shut your mouth cry to death say goodbye end of story
it still seems one phrase is missing though.ohwells.
throw me a lifeline
1:59 PM
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Thursday, January 06, 2005
so much for my happy ending-
forgive me for any vulgarities below.
im sad.
im FREAKING sad.
im FREAKINGLY BLOODEH heartbroken.
today sucks, big time.
freak it.
and STOP IT ohkayy.
i seriously cant take it anymore.
SHIT.
IM A FREAKING FAILURE.
fullstop. =((((((((((((.
i freaking wna cry.
i freaking wna scream.
i freaking wna just jump out of my window.
i freaking suck ohkayy.
SHIT IT.
throw me a lifeline
8:33 AM
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Wednesday, January 05, 2005
ohkay, officially, LOY SHI BIN ROCKS.
HE SENT ME THE PICTURE OF HIM AND (((((=.
=DDDDDD.
IM FREAKING HAPPY NOW LAHH.
HAHA.
throw me a lifeline
1:49 PM
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you are my sunshine-
just decided my last post was abit too exaggerated, deleted it.
school today. kinda ohkayy for a first dayy. just that all the teachers are seriously emphasising on o's o's and o's. it kinda reminds me im really sec 4. haha, ive gotten used to being called sec4c alr? dont know why.
right. me and shibin exchanged nametags and did some really stupid thing? haha. but it is really really funnehh. haha, ive gota be really really sad tmr, karo broke my heart by saying shibin sucks ! =(. and shibin so likes karo?
went out wiv ness and min after that. right. ness went on telling us about something, me and min fell for it. it was freaky okayy. i wna be a teacher, seriously. and i cant stand my job being shaky or anything, its really really freaky?
ohkayy, rushed back to school, managed to catch the bb. haha, the fancy drill was nice as usual, me and min enjoyed it.
a tap on the head.
a ruffle of hair.
a wave.
a mumble of bye.
boyy, i really miss your voice.
stuck on you are my sunshine. singing it out of tune the whole time in school? im going crazy. but you ARE my sunshine, my ONLY sunshine. YOU make me HAPPY when skies are grey. you'll NEVER know dear how MUCH i LOVE you so please DON'T take my sunshine away.
haha, thats practically the whole thing lahh.
right.
throw me a lifeline
12:46 PM
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Tuesday, January 04, 2005
everlasting love-
not bad for a first day.
one wave, im immensly happy.
still, no talking.
twenty nine days.
ive got a blinding headache
and a failing eyesight.
shit, bye.
throw me a lifeline
12:14 PM
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Monday, January 03, 2005
i hate it.
second day of the year and ive broken my new year resolution, what the hell?
dam lahh, what the hell.
im not trusted in this stupid family.
i hate my stupid surname.
i hate my stupid idiotic socalled father.
and i cant stand my mother at times.
whats the problem.
im a girl, so?
im fifteen already.
what the hell.
when he skips school, nothing happens.
when i skip school, no comp, no tv, no hp.
when he wants to go out, just go.
when i wna go out, every single detail you must know.
it sucks you know, the kind of freedom i get, its not fair.
not fair.
throw me a lifeline
9:03 AM
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Sunday, January 02, 2005
love, me-
haha, and so it goes that when u like someone, you seem to have all the yuan fen with that person. haha, when i was some guy, yupp, everything i do reminded me of him. now when i like him, haha. it seems so... so.... fitting. haha, was looking for lyrics earlier this morning. then i clicked somewhere. saxophone pictures just popped up out of nowhere? haha, and zhengliang's display picture is just oh so cute. haha. its a picture of a frog with a sax? haha. ((((=.
right, have a study date tomorrow. we're so gna buck up on amath tgt. haha. me and my hearttalker. haha, just pray we'll end up studying, not chatting. haha, so kevin yap, u better not chat with me but teach me amath okayy.
right. luckee's so CUTE ! haha, there was this once when every morning before school, i would sit down beside her and chat with her. i mean i just talked and she would look at me. haha. there was this once we were running late, i was hurridly putting on my shoes. haha, luckee wobbled up to me, licked my cheek and wobbled away. nice? haha. heart melt siaa. haha.
matured, grown, learned.
school's in another 2 more days, the tension's getting high. there's amath test and everything. haha.
throw me a lifeline
2:08 PM
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Saturday, January 01, 2005
shit, there's something terribly wrong with starhub, i cant send a single sms out. dam. and i stayed up to do it lohh. darn, dam, hais, just gta wish tmr then. dammit, its super irritating alryt. darn, i shall try later again. dam, if only i had more courage i would be wishing you happy new year now you know. and dam, if only i hadn't said i hate you, we would be talking now you know. shit, how i hate consequences. been looking through our past chats just. its super funneh. haha, how we argue and the dots and nvms and minesweeper flags? somehow, i just feel so... so... haha. im not going to say.
it's 2oo5, brand new year, it's time for me to step out from past mistakes and face things like ive never before, the pressure, the studies and everything. ive made a new year resolution. and im going to stick to it like ive never before. yupp. im not going to say what it is, so that at the end of this year, i can judge for myself. ((=.
somehow just being sec 4 itself gives me a large responsibility. its like when we look back, we realised how much we've matured, how much we've grown. it's like when i look back, i see myself hopping from guy to guy, never knowing the true meaning of love and relationships. saying i love you to anyone at will, but never knowing whether i meant it or not. but now i truly understand. ive fallen and fell hard, fell hurt and everything. cried and stuff, but definitely grown from it, learnt from it. i also see myself playing the whole day, slacking, copying homework, but ive learnt, copying doesnt help me, slacking doesnt help me too. i wna be a teacher and to be one, ive gota study, study big time. its all books now. im heading to jc and nothing less than jjc. yupp. the past yr, ive learnt what a great person my mom is, was, and will be. my brother talked to me about it, i ll definitely treasure her the most in this whole life of mine.
just ytd evening, luckee ran downstairs and crossed the road. after quite some time then we realised she was missing. i panicked, truly panicked. i mean i cant ever imagine life without my cuddly dog, her licks, her waddles. haha.
right, my phones normal now, msges are sent out. i havent sent it to everyone on my contact list. i certainly wished i did.
yupp.
happy new year everyone.
LOVE.
throw me a lifeline
5:55 PM
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nessie came over todayy.
haha, we invented something
vanessa + karolyn = karosa.
haha.
we came up with that after seeing natalie's nick.
haha.
darn funneh.
yupp.
i was super lazy today lahh, can't believe it.
like haha, we planned to go to the library.
and i was too lazy to change.
then i had to send her out.
but i was too lazy to do it.
siann.
haha, anyhow.
dinner was nice today.
got ham.
pork chop.
sausages.
haha. yupp.
new years eve !
haha. a few more hours and it'll be 2oo5 ! (((=.
haha, i hope next yr will be better than this year.
yupp.
twenty six days.
and counting.
i pray the last day will be the twentyeighth.
throw me a lifeline
1:01 PM
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