Thursday, December 02, 2004

you seriously don't know what it's like.
to be on the edge of breaking down.
anytime now.
any moment.
unexpected.

i hurt much more than you know.
and you don't bother.
you seriously don't care.

right.
i knew this day was coming.
where we would just leave each other's lives.
just go on ourselves.
it was expected.
i knew it would come one day.
maybe it hasn't arrived yet.
but it really seems it has.
it's like.
you don't care.
don't bother.
don't ask.
i might be asking too much since whatever we have is not confirmed.
not real.
but.
just drop it.
i won't ask for it anymore.

i've loved you since the day i said i did.
but i don't think you would care anymore.
perhaps you never did.
never will.
perhaps i was just deceiving me.
perhaps you were just deceiving me.
perhaps you were deceiving yourself too.

i'm stepping into a mistake i just made.
it's all the same.
i don't want to end up how i ended up the other time.
so i tell you now.
unless you can seriously assure me that it's true.
that you can look me in the eye.
and tell me you don't like her.
if you know you can't do it.
then don't.
tell me the truth now.

stop leading me on if it's not going to happen anytime now.
i need someone true.
and if you can't be that someone.
i'd rather you tell me now.
duan tong bu ru chang tong.
i don't want to fall deeper and cry longer.

you just don't know.

throw me a lifeline
11:06 AM

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