i was checking my mail the other day (finally) and i saw this mail from manu, it read "wHAHA, hello!! I got a song for you. hopefully it makes you feel better alright. but it's kindof sad i tell you first. HAHA
love,
manu :)"

so i downloaded the song, & its totally, TOTALLY, TOTALLY, TOTALLY, TOTALLY what i feel.


deep breaths.
here it is
What Hurts the Most ; Rascal Flatts.

[start]
i can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
that don't bother me
i can take a few tears now & then & just let them out
i'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
even though going on wiv you gone still upsets me
there are days every now & again i pretend i'm okay
but that's not what gets me

what hurts the most
was being so close
& having so much to say
& watching you walk away
& never knowing
what could have been
& not seeing that loving you
is what i was tryin' to do

it's hard to deal wiv the pain of losing you everywhere i go
but i'm doin' it
it's hard to force that smile when i see our old friends & i'm alone
still harder
getting up, getting dressed, livin' wiv this regret
but i know if i could do it over
i would trade give away all the words taht i saved in my heart
that i left unspoken

what hurts the most
was being so close
& having so much to say
& watching you walk away
& never knowing
what could have been
& not seeing that loving you
is what i was tryin' to do

what hurts the most
was being so close
& having so much to say
& watching you walk away
& never knowing
what could have been
& not seeing that loving you
is what i was tryin' to do

not seeing that loving you
that's what i was trying to do
[end]





just like i said, we learn from heartbreaks.













and just like i know, im gna ignore whatever comments i read.
i dont even KNOW them.